scale of -10 to +10, how do you feel right now?

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I realized that this was my 10000th post, so i am celebrating a little. For that, I'll give today +7. It was going to be a +6 until i noticed the special occasion.


Do i get a prize or something?

^ congrats on yer 10000th post! w00t!

Right now, it's probably +3. I'm going grocery shopping with my dad, which I don't want to do.
I'm not too satisfied with my life, either, but there's nothing I can do about that at the moment. School starts soon, which is another deterrent to my mood.

Blimey, 10,000 posts! Nearly twice more than me, and I've been here 2 years longer than you. Congrats.

The score's still 0.

+8. I've feeling pretty happy, and pretty sick at the same time. Yesterday my friends had a house party, and I fit in perfect. We played Fifa, talked to other people ( ) and messed around on a trampoline. I was sober, and my friends were pissed out of it, so I got to screw with them. I hid behind a bin outside, and started shrieking like a cat to scare the s**t out of my friend who was walking by. He actually ran away . I also shaved a guy bald with a razor, glass of water, phone light and a razor at three AM, when he fell asleep outside. My (drunk as hell) friends all had blankets, so I was stuck outside for a few hours and started to go hypothermic, but it was still a laugh

Congratulations Jawbrodt on your 10,000 posts. You should print all 10,000 of them out and hand them out to random people on the street.

That would cost a lot though.

Anyway, I think i am a 3 today. The sun is shining and there is some lovely blue sky but the wind is cold. Spring is definitely on its way; there are daffodils and muscari out so far and soon there will be other spring flowers... I remember in London in particular they planted so many bulbs in parks in the spring that Wordsworthesque beauty seemed to spill out of every crack. Awesome, but it is harder to grow them here... I might go to the botanical garden in a few weeks though and see if there are any spring flower beds.

Anyway, I am ok apart from confusion over which diagnosis to seek. AS, ADD, or Dyspraxia? Why do I always fall into the cracks between categories? Am I that weird?

-3
'Nobody can deny' song theme

There is
racism in my Churches neighborhood,
racism in the neighborhood...
racism in the neighborhood....
That inclines before my eye.

0 just.. bleh and meh

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-2. Have experienced better days. I finally realised how little of a life I have, due to my social phobia.

I think I could be at either end of the spectrum right now, good or bad. I don't know. I felt an intense emotional connection briefly towards someone on here, that seems to mirror alot of my own insights and qualities, and it just snuck up on me. Like, the female half of myself. I see my own experiences wrapped up in her eyes.

+3 eh kind of good.

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-6
I haven't felt this empty for a while.

Crushingly depressed and lonely. New medications and patterns to contend with, plus I'm having severe difficulty with an abusive element at the moment. I feel so sick. All of this horrible loneliness has me getting physically ill because of how it's driving me towards a pretty powerful crush, like it just makes my need for physical affection that much more appearent. I do fear I won't make it past this one.

-7. Having to research figures and factors in suicide for my dissertation, which as I'm easily brought down is not helping.Irony...dissertation on depression causing depression. Would help if my idea of "happy" was no longer "not immediately about to cry", no idea what real, genuine happy feels like.

Don't know how to get or even ask for help/support for me, my constant low moods and issues accepting AS. Some people (even on here) have people falling over themselves to be supportive....this pettyness is ugly I know, yet feel like if I knocked a few years off my age and described myself in terms of physical attributes things would be different....why though? Either we all matter or no-one does.

5... for.. reasons. Weather report.. (usually just a statement on what colour the sky is though, i know little about meteorology)... it is mostly blue with some patches of white, which is nice. The sun has just come out. So, even more hope that spring is coming... Wish I could go somewhere but I have to do the cleaning here.

As for concerns being ignored on the board, well I think that can easily happen. Ive been here for 2 years and I still feel like a drop in the bucket. I think a lot of people feel like that.. I feel people must see my posts, there has been over 1500 of them.. but I guess that happens on boards, especially such a large board.

^Thanks for the congrats.


My life would be totally boring to most people, because i do the same stuff over and over again each day, without much change. Either I'm playing in my garden, reading about coins, or wasting time here on the computer and I'm happy doing it. That's all that matters, right?. Maybe in a few months I'll get bored with my current routine(like i always do) and try something else, who knows? For now, I'll sit back and be happy to be in the stable 5-7 range.