scale of -10 to +10, how do you feel right now?

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((((((MissConstrue))))))

Thanks Jawbrodt.. yes I had a good day.. glad you are.

still trying to stay in the positive numbers today despite some very unwelcome occurrences yesterday ... dont ask.

0 trying to stay positive.

And thanks ((zen_mistress)) and goodnight all.

^^I hope you cheer up, MissC



^Good to hear you're still in the positives, Zen.



I'm still in the positives too, about a +3 or 4. I'm actually feeling pretty good but I have too much thought clutter, or else the number would be higher. It's tough to be real happy when your thinking too much. I'll stabilize eventually.

About a 2. I think I think too much, about everything. Sometimes I wish my mind had an off switch.

Spokane Girl, I'm so sorry. It happened to me as well about 12 yrs. ago.

^Ha! I was having the same exact problem yesterday. I never did find that switch though, so let me know if you have any luck.



I guess I'll call today a +5, or something close to that. I will say that my mind is a little more at ease than it was last night, which is cool. Sometimes I think that procrastination is one of my better qualities, as weird as it is to say, because it prevents me from freaking out about anything. I have that "Eh, I'll worry about it later" attitude, and things always seem to fix theirselves if i wait long enough. That doesn't apply to everything, of course, but it does seem to apply to things that bother me, mentally, like depression. When i don't think about all the stuff that's getting me down, depression always finds it's own way of leaving. It never does, when i try to force it.

What does that mean? It means that I'm going to keep on being laid-back, and not worry about s**t, unless i have to. It's been working so far, so why ruin a good thing?

^
Yw, MissConstrue and Jawbrodt.

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Probably a 3 right now. For some reason I am having a very obsessive day where I cant stay off the computer. Gahhh... I walked the dog though and did some housework. I will go to the supermarket now. I think I need to just get out.

-6. Worried, and feeling really autistic. All day really stimmy, less verbal, motor issues, I bumped into things, broke a glass, writing was uncomfortable, more social issues than normal, and more hypersensitive to stimulation. I toe-walked in shoes, too. I usually only barefoot, cause I don't tie shoes so well, and if I toe walk, they drag or fall off. Cant sleep, buzzing mind, and too much sensory input. Hope no melt/shut down. Although if I do it wouldn't be a bad time, isolated as I am now.

-10

I am stressed, and have no one to vent to (everybody I know is 200 miles away, and there is a lot of favoritism on WP).

-7, I don't really know anyone, including people here and yet I'm finding this the best place to complain. I feel pathetic. I started college again recently and no one understands anything I say (with the exception of the professor). I'm severly afraid to submit assignments lately fearing that I'll do horrible. I don't really remember what it's like to have a friend offline. I have so little contact with other people and when I see other people I just fail at attempting to start a conversation, even if I try I get rejected. I'm also feeling horrible about textures and temperature right now and it's making me really uncomfortable.

It's sad to hear about the miscarriage, Spokane_Girl.

+2 feeling slightly tired and empty

+3 Feeling content but I've got the flu and respirtory issues are highly annoying. I've spent the entre day wandering between my bed and the chaise lounge in my room. I'm feeling worn out but otherwise okay.

^Get well soon, CG.




Eh, +4. Sort of bored, watching a show about Nostradamus on the History Channel. Normally I'd be excited, but I've already seen it a couple times, so it just doesn't have the same effect as the first 2 or 3 times. Yeah, I'm a nerd.

I will say 2. I think I could still sink lower.

+1. It's a feeling I know but things are not quite right yet. Will they ever be? I'm not sure.

-1.

This is becoming an almost daily pattern: get up feeling OK, but always with some sleep deprivation; have tea and snack for breakfast; get some things done; eat properly around 1pm; rapid hunger crash less than 2 hours later with extreme fatigue and weakness (and some problem nearly always crops up meaning obtaining food is delayed); eat and feel better (lettuce, tomato, onion, and pepper with salad cream and chicken); less than an hour later, feel ill from eating; lose all afternoon and early evening recovering; too ill to take a short walk as planned; extreme fatigue; usually recover after sunset and dinner, and get a few more scraps of work done after 8pm if lucky; repeat cycle.

I truly hope I don't end up like my mother who was sick every day until menopause and couldn't work. I grew up seeing her go through hell. I've had blood tests and seen doctors. Why can they never determine what's wrong?