scale of -10 to +10, how do you feel right now?

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*hugs Lienda*

I am, too. This has been long overdue. I went to Mental Health twice, between January 2007 and recently. If they would have taken me in, I would have made the transition a lot sooner. I'm not going to lie. I was bitter that Tequila dropped me as a friend because of my soiling problem and Routemaster obsession. I've lost interest in my special interests and became a bitter, vile malicious Punk Rocker. It got to the point where I didn't feel welcome in my parents trailer anymore. I really hated myself towards the end. I was calling myself a monster. I found the real me deep down inside where I've left her. That's a positive.

IWB ~ Hugs to you my friend. You know where to find me..24/7. My virtual door is always open to you.

Zen ~ mr. Bogan? Ha! That's awesome. I'm very happy for you. Tell him I say hi. It's hard to find a happy medium when board addicted.Been there done that myself.

Tim ~ I was thinking about you and your interview. I hope it went well

To everyone else, free hugs if you need it.

I'm still sitting at a +8. There's a lot in my life that is making me really happy. It's amazing what comes your way when you least expect it.

0-5 at a motel b/c I can't stand the noise at my place. Normally I would've bought me a gallon of vodka to calm it all down but I didn't so I guess I should be a little proud of myself.

Still feeling like crap though and really don't give a damn about my job or life anymore. I just know I'm going to be "politely" fired or laid off and I don't think I'm doing too great without my meds.

First off, yes you should be very proud you're not drinking. secondly, we all need a change once in awhile.

Where are your meds? back at your place? Hugs, my friend.

-9. Back at school for the next 10 months. Joy.

Thanks CG,

unfortuntately I'm off medicaid so I can't afford them like I use to. I guess I should make it my number one priority though......I think the effects without it are now kicking in. Also by luck I met someone who I knew from AA meeting yesterday and got a ride so that was lucky. I know the effects of alcohol are also a depressant so that would drinking is a no-no for me.

As for the scale I guess I'm a 6...a little tired and down but better than what my earlier situation was.

Thank you, it's better now, I have "regained" intelligence.

Thanks zen and CG. You two are like the comforting mums, on this thread. And in no way is that a reference to age, honest.

I'm feeling a bit better. Back to 0. yesterday was just one of those days I guess.

-10 Need a vent

I don't have a grudge, but I'm sick and tired, of "get a life", and "Save your money"

I also needed to rant because I have anger left overs from yesturday. My work hunt competition doen't have just 20 people. It has thousands of people! The chances of me getting work are very slim. *edited last post for spelling* oops...

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Hmm,,, where to start.

CockneyRebel, if someone makes fun of you they were never a friend in the first place. You deserve better. And I am glad you have found yourself, where you left her. Perhaps I should do the same...

CelticGoddess, Thanks... Yes he is a great guy, I met him back in April and we were friends for a while... he says hi back, I think he is trying to stay offline a bit as well as he was making many posts per day.. anyway thanks for the good wishes .

Glad your intelligence is back, bdhkhsfgk

i_wanna_blue, glad you are feeling a bit better, these things pass, and I dont know about the mum thing, Im more like a big child.

Hugs to ((((((((((everyone else)))))))))))) hope you are all feeling a bit better, or your interviews went well... I wish I could be more specific but I can find it hard to keep up with posts at times, so I will have to do a more general hug.

Anyway, I am a 3. Not doing much today, perhaps will go to the mall.

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I should find out something next week.

If I get the position, I will surely be in for a rude awakening in terms of climate. It was 20 degrees yesterday in Rapid City, and it's only mid-October. In comparison, it is probably 85 degrees where I am.

-8
Need sleep but not able to get any. Need to study but I can't because I need sleep first. Oh well 2 more days and it's the weekend (Friday off this week)

+ 5

Strategy club ( D+D)

But cold

1, or 2, I guess. Pretty much not-feeling.
But food-filled stomach.

-10

The third friend in less than a year has abandoned me, all because I vented about dealbreakers.