scale of -10 to +10, how do you feel right now?

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^^ What's your secret?

What?

I forgot to tell that I do simple things like making my own food, cleaning my room, and sometimes help with carwashing and things like that. I also change my sheets a few times per week, otherwise it's just your ordinary luxurious life.

Living in Norway, which has a relatively high standard of welfare, probably has something to do with it. And maybe accommodating parents too.

Glad others are feeling good (or relatively ok).. and wearing the trendiest fashions...

Me a 0 again. Am not having a very good time right now...

+7

I got a 90 on my Texas Geography test last week.

-10 feel like giving up

+5. Spent half the day with my son after not being able to see him for almost two months due to a protective order placed against me by my wife (and also my son's mother, obviously).

I wanted to say +10, but had to take -5 for church. It confused the hell out of me emotionally. I didn't like that at all. These Ultra-Positive and Ultra-Negative scriptures that was being taught hand-in-hand didn't help at all. *shakes head* I definitely prefer reading the Bible on my own than some guy who thinks he's more holier than Jesus himself.

Oh I know what you mean there. -.- Sorry you got seperated.

+1 I'm in a content mood, but I'm not looking forward to job hunt monday again. ugh!

8.
The high number because I just finished composing a song cycle.
1 point taken off because the violin concerto is the one that's worth 10 happiness points for completing.
Another 1 point taken off because my anxiety levels are really high and I can't pinpoint what's making me anxious.

-7 I itch so badly that I can't sleep and its a little after 4 in the morning here. Still feel depressed after leaving the mental hospital. I also developed a stupid side effect of my new pill and there are times where I can't speak, my words are all slurred like I am drunk. Sometimes I come close to passing out (dizziness is another side effect, how fun!).

+10

No more homework...ever!! !

-2. Still fighting the forces that be, which are trying to make my life, sad and pointless.

I hope for myself and everyone who is also in the negatives, a change of fortune.

-10 no one on the face of this pathetic planet believes anything that I go through including the side effects. I hate myself. I am now back to where I was last week. Yes, honesty means this much to me. My mom talked with the a**hole doctor who I thought changed for the positive while I was there was at it again with his downplaying, cover stories again. He thinks that I just don't want the pills or to get better, so I would fake the side effects. F him. I gave him that chance to change. Oh yeah, I faked that tumor on my pituitary gland a few years ago (confirmed on an MRI), or my boobs leaking, or an unheard of side effect, shocking everything I touched with sparks. Don't forget the extreme weight gain. Yes, my "imaginary" hair fell out as well, also an unusual side effect. I GET THE RARE SIDE EFFECTS OF MEDS. If the rare side effect is death, I would probably get that. Oh yeah, I could fake death. Don't forget, I also get the common side effects as well. Now this jerk is on the attack about my slurred speech. It happened a few days after they raised it, a little at a time and finally yesterday it got real bad. They deny that I had any side effects during the hospital stay, but then they forgot that I completely fainted once and almost fainted a second time. They can't get through their thick skulls that I am hypersensitive to meds and its a known fact with me. This is on top of no one on this crappy planet or professionals that believe the worthless useless words that are coming out of my pathetic mouth. Oh yeah, I got a rash when I was on Lamictal and that was totally fake, it was part of my imagination. People don't understand that I have trust issues. I have reasons. I can't wait to get the final report on the hospital stay! I know last time my crappy doctor once again appeared nice and caring, then attacked me in the report. I bet it will happen again.

+1 Neutral, slightly positive.

Today was a strange day. I woke up after a hard and deep depression the day earlier, not feeling any better. Hadn't been able to get anything done and stayed up too late thinking. We were to present our group project in class, but because of the stuff happening the day before I had not been able to prepare.

When it was my turn to speak, I lost focus on several occasions. At one point I saw a dude in class laughing and some other people smiling in a "strange", almost sarcastic way (at least that is the way I interpreted it). I completely lost it and just whispered "sh*t this, whatever..." and shoved the responsibility for completing the presentation over on the other group members, while just standing there silent for the remaining 15 minutes.

At the end of the day, I just felt empty. Then suddenly, while standing there putting on my jacket, one of the group members approached me and told me I had done a good job. It sounded ridiculous to me, so of course I accused her of being ironic, but soon realized she did it in an effort to make me feel better. She had brought the dude I saw laughing in class, who told me he was just having too much energy and was not at all laughing at me.

This made me happier and caused me to realize that at least someone may understand me, and that maybe not everything is lost.

Though time is running out for me to change my life.

((((((((everyone)))))))))) I also hope for people to feel better who are not feeling so good.

I am at perhaps an 0.25, up from an 0. I have started taking fish oil though I am not sure if it would make me look like the fish on the label, which has such a woeful expression and open mouth. Feeling just a tiny bit better but I seem to be going up and down.

Sky is grey today, looks to be rainy. Not sure what I am going to do with today. I know I will take the dog for a walk... boyfriend wants me to come over later, he is making eggplant pasta.

+2

I'm about to watch my unemployment benifits expire.