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1000000000000 seeing my best friend todaaaaay

0. Empty. Bored.

-6. See my thread in the Haven.
WP helped me a little, it's been, I'd say, -9 or even -10 earlier on today. It always hurts to be offended by someone because of something your special interest made you do.

-2 Job interview at Target Monday. Yikes. I better brush up on my basic math. I didn't expect it this fast. I worry about the out come, of course. Even if it's a temporary job.. I wander it being their cashier will be a massive speach hurtle. I better take my bible with me, so I remember to stay behaved and keep calm.

-4.
Usual crap, My mind is turned against me again, I swear some nights I am bordering on psychosis.
It always goes back to my weight. Not because I want to look slim and pretty, just this obsession with being light enough to not affect anything in my environment.
Thus living in an apt with these boards laid across the original floors, boards that shift and make everything else shift if you tread on them...worse if you jump on them, is driving me nuts.
not a night goes by lately when I dont punch myself to the point thins bruise and ache.. simply because the idea of being heavy, makes me feel like a worthless monster. It is so irrational, but takes over when I am unhappy,

-5

I feel powerless because I try to help people and give them advice, but they refuse to listen. One of the people I tried to help even accused me of being manipulative.

((((((((((((Iwannablue, Graelwyn, LiendaBalla, Tim Tex, Mathgirl)))))))))))) sorry everyone is not feeling so good, I hope this week brings better things.

I am probably a -2. Not feeling great. trying to quit junk food because I am a compulsive eater and also the internet and try and get rid of sources of stress in my life, but when I do I feel this sort of flat, anhedonia like feeling. It seems I need addictive things in my life otherwise my brain will become so bored and all my thoughts become flat... I think I have been stressed out for so many years now that if I took the stress away I wouldnt know what to do. My whole personality is built on stress. My whole life is built on stress, really.

Anyway I dont really see that I have a choice but to be like a zombie for a while, I really want to get rid of the stress in my life, but things are so colourless.

My hopes that you get better to, Zen_mistress

+1

I don't want to work at Target.

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+10

I feel comfortable in my own skin, now. I feel honoured to look like my favourite rock star who also happened to be the original drummer of my favourite band. I'm also back at work, four mornings a week. I've got my past memories straightened out, and they're no longer bothering me. Who cares if I have more of a twin, than a role model. I think it's the cat's ass that we both happen to be Cockney Rebels to the same degree.

I do need a better avatar of The Kinks that's more kid friendly, though. It looks like Pete's snorting Coke.

Lol ^ .

Thanks LiendaBalla... I feel a bit better now. I think I will have to just take whatever comes along even if it is not what I would like.

0 (breaking even for now)

Only 39 days left until graduation.

6 since I often really try my best when interacting with others here on WP but, sometimes feel that it simply blows up in my face and that tends to create a great amount of anxiety for me.. Anyways, Zen Mistress thanks always for the kind words..

-2

My sister is being an extreme fundamentalist butt right now!
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hours later
-5

I need a thread or blog or something..

+6.859 I'm doing okay, nothing special, just a decent day.

UPDATE:


My mood suddenly changed to 'manic' so now the number has changed, as well. I've been running around like a chicken with it's head cut off, getting lot's of stuff done, so I think that bumps my rating up to at least a 7.779. Sweet.


Sometimes, being bi-polar is a good thing.