scale of -10 to +10, how do you feel right now?

Post Reply New Topic

-5.
The b*****s living above me have been banging and talking and laughing loudly all evening.
I have a thudding headache from having that and my music going into my ears.
It is making me increasingly rageful at other humans in general, and if I come across those two, I feel I might kick them in their stupid, selfish heads to try and knock some consideration into them.

I'm feeling about a 2.

It's a long story, but a month ago I got fairly betrayed by my two best friends. Intellectually I've forgiven them, but the time I have to spend away from them in order to heal is the part that hurts the worst. Also haven't gotten my assignments done on time, so I am stressing about those too. Oh, and surgery soon. I've never had surgery before, and I am getting my wisdom teeth taken out. It terrifies me somewhat.

Bwargh in general, I say.

-5

PhD now deferred until next year. I don't have the psychological health, for six solid weeks I've tried but I've failed to produce the necessary quality or quantity of work.

Why believe next near will be different? Fresh start, new city, new friends, new life. I'm staking so much on that but no fresh start has yet delivered for me. If only I had the psychological health of fours years ago, three years ago.

-7. . I just wish all these bad things would go away.

((((((((((all above who are not feeling so good))))))))) and glad that Jawbrodt is doing well...

Probably a 3. Sky is again grey, when is the summer coming? It does tend to come quickly though, perhaps in a few weeks.

Not sure what I will do with today. I dont know what to do with myself, yet again, same old story. I could go to the mall for a while but that is pretty trying at times as I find myself running away from stimuli all the time like a vampire who is out past their bedtime and cant stand the intensity of the daytime world.

Hard at home too because the neighbours are still building, after 3 months of horrible noises, today it is a circular saw and a hammer it seems. The hammer is going right now. All because they want extra rooms for Christian Missionaries to stay there. Feel irrationally mad at neighbours, and at Christian Missionaries who should stay in their own houses instead of causing the neighbours to make such a terrible racket with building tools for months on end.

-1. I can't get anything done. I just sit in the same place all day, doing the same pointless things repetitively. It's the only way to keep me calm.

0. I made the stupid mistake of stopping taking my antibiotics while in London, thinking I'd be okay and now the damn virus has come back, or some virus has struck me again anyway. They seem intent on attacking me. I have never had this many viruses in such a short space of time.

Hmm....Feelin pretty neutral, or maybe not neutral, just balanced. So, I guess that qualifies as 'good', since I'm not feelin bad. Man, is this a deep, meaningful response, or what?


+6.857

I'm busy re-arranging a bunch of stuff upstairs, and my mind is staying pretty occupied, so I'm feeling good. The work itself isn't a whole lot of fun, but the feelings of satisfaction when I get finished, will be worth the effort. I always feel better after a good hard day's work.


I'd rate myself at a +6.513 right now, but I'll stop back in when I'm finished, and send in the final tally.

UPDATE #1:


So far, so good. Making excellent progress, and I am feeling some satisfaction already. +7.187


Another update coming soon.......

FINAL SCORE:


Yep, I kicked ass tonight, so I'm freakin happy about it. Got my whole spare room ripped apart and re-arranged into a new workshop, so now I can screw around up there all I want, without the disarray that was there. Sweet, now I can kick back, eat a microwave dinner, and revel in my awesomeness.


+7.795


P.S. Add .1 because i managed to successfully hog the thread tonight. +7.895

YEP, ME AGAIN:*thinks he should find something better to do, than hijack this thread*LOL



Anyway, i couldn't sleep, so here i am, still awake. I must be tired, 'cause I hit the submit button, after the first sentence, and I have no idea why. So, I'm editing right now, because I'm brain-damaged.

I still feel good though, even without any sleep. The rating dropped some, about a point, but'll pick back up if I manage to get a nap in today.

+6.748 *is still coming back to life*LOL

-4.
I have a terrible chest infection and whatever it is I am coughing up tastes totally sickly sweet and disgusting.
Also, the b*****s living above me are hardly going out and having their men friends round, so I am not getting any peace.Constantly jamming my wax earplugs in is bruising and irritating my ears.

-2

I woke up this morning with pain in a specific spot in my left chest. Breathing slowly helped lighten the feeling. My left shoulder still feels a tiny bit numb. Most likely, my lung got a clot in it or something. (:roll: what a surprise. not..) It's bound to happen eventualy.

Besides that.. Me and my sister are still argueing. She told me "I won't support that." when I didn't even ask her to support anything. At least she's not acting like she's converting me now. I'm a game addict, not a sex one.

-9 I WAS doing so great last week. I was happy and excited for my site that I am working on and thought it would be huge but reality has set in and I realize its worthless and everyone else does it anyway. Now my mom's car doesn't work right and I predict it will cost $1000 making us broke. On top of that my mom is doing what she does best, be sick like always. Just remember when she's sick she comes close to death even with a cold. The thought insertion is also back and it started a few days ago before I got really depressed. The severe depression and anxiety/ stress makes it 295809285932 times worse.

^I'm sorry to hear that.



A friend of mine killed a deer, so he brought me over some venison, which was an excellent surprise. God, i love that stuff. *drools* I haven't hunted in a couple years, so i was really craving some, and haven't had any in a long time. Now I'm a happy camper.


Today was a good day, all around, so i give it a +7.624.