scale of -10 to +10, how do you feel right now?

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-5. Headache and no medication.

Frustrating.

+2 feeling more withdrawn lately. Not feeling good or bad.

5..meh, bored

Have something on my mind that keeps coming and going, so I've been fluctuating between a 1 and 4. At least 2 points better than last night, though, so at least I'm headed in the right direction. Update coming, when there's an update to be reported.LOL

+3

What kind of person stopps and stays at a green light, and drives 25 mph under the speed limit, when everyone goes ten over it!? Then laughs at your fristration like it's so 'gosh darn histericle"? Not a person with a brain, imo.

On top of this, anybody I can rant to wants to tell me some little ol' story, as usual. Basicaly.. "lienda STFU.." is what I conclude.

+4.637 Improving.

-4.

Glad people's moods are improving, and ^ hope that others feel better soon...

0. Well I should really be not at the computer. Just had a sort of random black mood but it has passed... Going through some weird stuff right now. I knew that getting a diagnosis was unlikely to change anything concrete but it is weird the effect it is having on me. Firstly, the psych mailed me the report and it wasnt very nice reading. I told my ex about it and he seemed to know about the process of getting diagnosed as he has been through it himself and he also received a similar report afterwards. So I am feeling a bit better about that report.

Also beein feeling weird in general. It doesn have a psychological effect, going through this process but it is not always what others report, for me it has made me realise that I have spent most of my 20s trying not to end up a certain way, I could see an awful fate that could befall me so I worked hard to fight it best I could but all I did was burn myself out. Now that I am diagnosed it has dawned on me that I am living that very fate that I was trying not to. And I have no idea what to do about it.

Was it a SMED?

SMED = slow-moving elderly driver.

3. feel ok though had weird experience this morning, was looking at a health and beauty forum and found the profile of someone who used to be a friend.. anyway was weird finding them, still trying to sort my feelings out from that.

I think I need to stop posting for a while. I will only post in this thread every now and then.. I need to try hard to appreciate what I have around me in real life. I know that it is only minimal(ist), what I have, a rood over my head, parents, a boyfriend, the cat and dog, food, clothes to wear, 1 friend, the summer, a car, some paintbrushes and paint, a welfare cheque, flowers, a camera, a computer, amongst other little things. I need to get back to the basics in my life, anyway.

-8 because like usual my mom is sick. She has a kidney infection. The thing that is exciting is that there are so many games coming out. Also Friday is cool because one of my friends gets to come over to my house. I love that show House but there was no episode yesterday. Sad. My mom almost dies so many times a year. Just remember it only takes once.

0 ---- Can zero represent neutral?

(((((((people who are not feeling so good))))).

Me, probably a 2. Have not been having such a great time over the last 24 hours. As some people know, I am by myself much of the time. I used to lament this, wish I had friends. But now I am starting to think I am actually happier this way.

As long as I have some things to work on (the plants need watering today, and more housework) and things to entertain me, and outings from the house several times per week, and contact with my family, and the lovely pets here who require much attention, how can I complain?

I am not a social butterfly right now, I am not Paris Hilton, but I am not as unhappy as I imagined I would be. I think one of the advantages of not having so much social contact is the lack of drama.

Honestly, if I wanted drama, I would watch Shortland Street, Emmerdale, Days of Our Lives, or Home and Away. I really do not need it from the people in my life and it seems the more I get into my 30s the more drama people are throwing at me. Or am I just reacting to it more? Maybe I am too trusting and naive and I trust people that it turns out that I shouldnt. Anyway, who cares? Vent over now and it is time to water the plants.

No. They slowed down when I got to them, then acted like they were going to turn without a signal, stopped for a brief moment, drove on for another block, then stopped in the middle of a green light. Two young kids, far as I can tell. It still seems to me like they did this on purpose.

-2

I was playing online game, as a cute little gnome girl, when an ass hole playing a Heavily bearded Dwarf (which happens to not be all that sexy to me) came out of nowhere and basicaly said something like this in my face "Grose! WTF! You're really ugly, I wouldn't touch you! 'STARE' God I'm going another direction! 'gag'" Moron goes to nekade human, shoves his toon's face into her crotch section, bows, then dances like a real idiot! I confronted him and said "How about F$%^ YOU!" This made about the third time this week I got sexualy insulted and called hidious, for no reason by some random cyber looser!

I have gotten this several times in the past, for simply minding my own business while playing the Horde. Some lunatic infant playing a Bloodelf would come out and pick fights with me, and call me ugly, and cuss in my face! Why? If only I knew!

I also blocked half of an eight lane street by accident, looked like a royal ass hole, and had to turn around several blocks even further away from my destination, because it took that long to get to the other side. Ouch! Ouch.. ouch.. I hate failure, but being a specticle before over 80 prople ast once?! 'screamed already'

Of course I punched myself into a black eye! It's my mother's Birthday for God sakes! I am going to need to stay to one side and let her read her book to for once withoug talking. Staying in my little room and all. She doesn't like being bugged while reading. I'm also going to pull the battery out of the phone during her time off this weekend. Part of my gift giveing to her, you understand right?

-1. Have had better days.

+10 i'm very happy

without reasons