I feel hopeless and wann just stop living.
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listening to Leonard Nimoy recite it, is close to high art. in any case, ever hear National Lampoon's parody of it [called "Deteriorata" and sung by Melissa Manchester]?
listening to Leonard Nimoy recite it, is close to high art. in any case, ever hear National Lampoon's parody of it [called "Deteriorata" and sung by Melissa Manchester]?
I have not. If I go look for that recording, am I going to regret it?

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listening to Leonard Nimoy recite it, is close to high art. in any case, ever hear National Lampoon's parody of it [called "Deteriorata" and sung by Melissa Manchester]?
I have not. If I go look for that recording, am I going to regret it?

I will send you a PM transcript so as not to hijack the thread

But I have and did find happiness outside just like most people do. I just want to find it again.
Incorrect. Just as MANY other people here are telling you, not just me, happiness comes from within - from your own thoughts & reactions to life. Stop seeking it to be bestowed upon you by someone else. It cannot happen. Accept that the ONLY way ANYONE feels happy is by happy thoughts, and then take the steps required to deal with your depression & think better thoughts. The quality of your life depends on the quality of your thoughts. Period. You will never ever EVER EVER EVER stumble upon happiness as if you can simply just go on a quest and find it somewhere sitting under a rock. It's in your head, your thoughts, that's it, that's all - same for every single human being alive.
So? Do you let a lot of people tell you how to be and live?
I’m not like most aspies. Most aspies are I inoverts and get happiness from being alone and Bobby’s I’m more an extrovert and new other people to be happy.
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Mmmhm. He also discounts his own successes as being worthless, too. He's successfully gotten & held a job for over 2 years - hell, he's had at least 2 jobs!
Pretty sure from his posts he's also had a girlfriend at least once. I've dated people kinda sorta & had fwb, but I have never ever had a romantic relationship.
He's successfully amassed a collection of guns, too! Some gun people may in fact be envious of his collection & knowledge.
Plus, every single day he wakes up he breaks his own personal record for number of days alive!! !

Having a job for teenagers as most would put it isn’t success. Working s office job that pays 100k a year is success.
No I’ve never had a gf or romantic relationship. I’ve only had briefs romantic interests and only two of which meet up in person briefly. I’ve never had a second date.
Most gun owners have atleast 20 guns I have less then 10. Most gun owners are wel off so buy 1-2 guns a month.
When your life is lonely and pointless life is like prison time so every day you wake it’s horrible. Like another day in this tiny hard room making lines in the wall. That’s what it feels like to me and others a punishment some kind of death row sentence.
Perhaps you could change your definition of success to one that's less materialistic. Be successful, loving and treating those around you with love and kindness. Perhaps you have been successful all this time and have overlooked your past successes. We humans tend to get over involved with things that pale in comparison to that, that truly matters. I hope you find the happiness you seek, you deserve it.
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There are none . I believe Portland has a female only aspies group.
Tacoma has one that meets [I believe] every other Wednesday at 6PM at the Dennys on South Hosmer St. then there are the seattle meetups.
Mmmhm. He also discounts his own successes as being worthless, too. He's successfully gotten & held a job for over 2 years - hell, he's had at least 2 jobs!
Pretty sure from his posts he's also had a girlfriend at least once. I've dated people kinda sorta & had fwb, but I have never ever had a romantic relationship.
He's successfully amassed a collection of guns, too! Some gun people may in fact be envious of his collection & knowledge.
Plus, every single day he wakes up he breaks his own personal record for number of days alive!! !

Having a job for teenagers as most would put it isn’t success. Working s office job that pays 100k a year is success.
No I’ve never had a gf or romantic relationship. I’ve only had briefs romantic interests and only two of which meet up in person briefly. I’ve never had a second date.
Most gun owners have atleast 20 guns I have less then 10. Most gun owners are wel off so buy 1-2 guns a month.
When your life is lonely and pointless life is like prison time so every day you wake it’s horrible. Like another day in this tiny hard room making lines in the wall. That’s what it feels like to me and others a punishment some kind of death row sentence.
Perhaps you could change your definition of success to one that's less materialistic. Be successful, loving and treating those around you with love and kindness. Perhaps you have been successful all this time and have overlooked your past successes. We humans tend to get over involved with things that pale in comparison to that, that truly matters. I hope you find the happiness you seek, you deserve it.
That view is how society and women see success. I’ve only come to capitulate and accept their view. Spent too much time and effort resisting and believing in fairy tails. That’s just not how the word works.
Being nice and kind are expected but everyone and it unique or positive things anymore then men not raping every woman they meet is considered unique. It’s just. Normal and expected of men to not rape women. Women are like thanks for not raping me today your such a great guy.
I’ve always treated everyone with kindnesses and compassion. It’s not seen as special. I’m oftent not treated similarly by others though.
I’ve been told I don’t deserve anything. I djust nt allow myself to smile haven’t for years .
There are none . I believe Portland has a female only aspies group.
Tacoma has one that meets [I believe] every other Wednesday at 6PM at the Dennys on South Hosmer St. then there are the seattle meetups.
That might as well be in Germany. I hardly get to places inside my city. Out of city is impossible.
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There are none . I believe Portland has a female only aspies group.
Tacoma has one that meets [I believe] every other Wednesday at 6PM at the Dennys on South Hosmer St. then there are the seattle meetups.
That might as well be in Germany. I hardly get to places inside my city. Out of city is impossible.
oops, I thought you were in washington state for some reason.
There are none . I believe Portland has a female only aspies group.
Tacoma has one that meets [I believe] every other Wednesday at 6PM at the Dennys on South Hosmer St. then there are the seattle meetups.
That might as well be in Germany. I hardly get to places inside my city. Out of city is impossible.
oops, I thought you were in washington state for some reason.
Nope I’m near euegen Oregon
Only autism things there cost hundreds of dollars to attend. The state pays for autistic kids though, but once their adults they get cut off. No one cares about atutistic adult men.
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There are none . I believe Portland has a female only aspies group.
Tacoma has one that meets [I believe] every other Wednesday at 6PM at the Dennys on South Hosmer St. then there are the seattle meetups.
That might as well be in Germany. I hardly get to places inside my city. Out of city is impossible.
oops, I thought you were in washington state for some reason.
Nope I’m near euegen Oregon
sorry, I can tell you my story of how I put in a "group request" on meetup.com, and within a year a group formed within an hour or so of my residence. you might have similar luck. it was the best thing that could have happened to me.

There are none . I believe Portland has a female only aspies group.
Tacoma has one that meets [I believe] every other Wednesday at 6PM at the Dennys on South Hosmer St. then there are the seattle meetups.
That might as well be in Germany. I hardly get to places inside my city. Out of city is impossible.
oops, I thought you were in washington state for some reason.
Nope I’m near euegen Oregon
sorry, I can tell you my story of how I put in a "group request" on meetup.com, and within a year a group formed within an hour or so of my residence. you might have similar luck. it was the best thing that could have happened to me.

Group requests?
I can’t afford a group and that’s likely the only way to have meet up where I can go and when I can go. Everyone does meet ups across town late night on week days
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they are free. I WAS lucky in that mine met on Saturdays at mid-day.
google seattle square pegs, you might be able to get some help from them in forming a Portland group.
It sounds like you're depressed. Thoughts of death and suicidal ideation are symptoms of depression. You may need therapy, a support group and probably medication. It's treatable. It sucks. I have bipolar disorder and I've attempted suicide more times than I like to admit. My life sucks right now too but it's better than it was. Don't do something stupid. What if it doesn't work and you cause yourself some sort of serious physical disability? Then you're even worse off. Or you get sent to the psych ward. And believe me, that really sucks. Especially if you're agitated they pin you down to the ground, give you two shots and put you in physical restraints attached to your bed. Stay strong.
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