02 Dec 2018, 1:11 am
02 Dec 2018, 11:52 am
02 Dec 2018, 6:39 pm
...Not much else than lie down, in fact. 
To an extent that could damage my health ~ such as it is 
No, I don't have time to go into it now.
quote="BeaArthur"]If you had stayed in Patterson, you'd have that bed and a place to lie down. Just saying.[/quote]
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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!
02 Dec 2018, 9:54 pm
, you were the one who informed me that my non-luck in NOT having a " nice, wonderful ", " Skinky dinky dee! " HS records office who would be cooperative with me when I tried to apply to uni was something that was my tough luck, that I must NEVER EVER EVER ask for help in getting my screwed-up records situation right - the MOST IMPORTANT THING in the galaxy was that I NOT DISTURB! the wonderful records by doing it ALL alone, despite all that has happened before ~ Despite it being shown that I am unlucky in not having that, to say the least ! I am scum, if I try to get ANY outside help against my terrible situation there! No, I'm not asking for it dow, you needn't scream at me . Anyway, returning to my objection to a Patterson-style situation ~ With no family/friends near me
, I would be all alone, no visitors . What things I had would disappear eventually, presumably I'd never, or next to, go out - All alone, I would have no defense agains a staffer who decides to " play a trick " on me, " put me in my place " ~ And there would be about no/next to exercise & fresh air & exercising my walking ~ " Usse it or lose it " ~ And, for even worse possibilities - maybe a renegade staffer would, say, slip me some roofies and molest me, or beat me up/torture ~ No one cares, effectively, about me ! - or maybe flat out rape me, as drwho/mrspock was fantasizing about happening .It’s not very nice that you come here and write lies about what people have said to you. Bea Arthur did not say what you’ve written. You are exaggerating. When you’re angry with someone you use the “I bet they got to go to college” line. You went to college for two years according to posts of yours. (And, no, I’ve never gone). I know Bea and others can speak for themselves, but it is uncomfortable to read posts like the one I’ve quoted. I know you want to have a place to express yourself, but when you exaggerate like this you turn off those who might offer advice, or who might reach out and try to help. It’s obvious you feel hurt at times, but you hurt others when you write this way. When I reminded you once about someone else here getting in touch with your old high school, and I tried to find that information for you in your old posts, you lied on here about what I had said and made it sound like I had backed out of helping.
You think you might be unsafe in a group home. Not every where is dangerous. And a group home or SRO is not a looney bin! I would think living on the street would be more frightening and unsafe. You are alone there. I don’t know how you’ve managed all of these years. I don’t think I could make it through a week. But, didn’t someone try to assault you recently? Wouldn’t it be safer inside with a group of people? You seem to think that employees at a residence would take your things. From the sound of it, you have your belongings stolen on a very regular basis right now. How many phones have you had to buy this last year? You say you want somewhere you can lay down and recover. A place that you can leave your things at while you go out. What kind of place are you envisioning? In the last year or so you have had a SRO room, a recovery facility, hospitals, motels, shelters and in Patterson what sounded like a group home.
Most people here have been giving you good advice over the years. A few people really have gone out of their way to help you. A few have been rude, and some blunt in their speech, but almost always trying to be of assistance. You ask for help and advice but I don’t think I’ve ever seen you take the advice offered. Did you ever contact the woman whose information RedRobin got for you, so that you could get your high school records? Wouldn’t it be nice to hold a copy in your hands? From what he said, it sounds like one email and you could have it.
I know that the Haven is a place to vent, a place to write about your problems, old and current, and you use it for that. But if you want input from other people or advice or friendship it only seems right that you don’t turn on the people here. If you just want to write and have no one respond, maybe you could start a thread and call it your Diary.
I don't think we're on the same wavelength; that's why our sensible ideas go nowhere.
Somehow I'm doing the same as ASS-P, only milder. I live in an apartment of my choosing - I've never lived in a humbler place! And I have a social worker but I won't accept anything because I don't trust anybody. The things I try to do fall through, which seems disastrous to me. Out of proportion, I guess. Not helped by being isolated. Which is why I think we can listen but not demand sensible solutions of somebody that can't.
02 Dec 2018, 10:11 pm
05 Dec 2018, 6:23 pm
...A major problem for me is having to go out so much, and so early. The early-hours of the morning lead me with little to do . And, with no regular noon meal, I get tempted to buy food ~ If I could stay somewhere, I could rest more, get better , not be tempted by food as much.
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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!
05 Dec 2018, 8:22 pm
05 Dec 2018, 8:34 pm
. And, with no regular noon meal, I get tempted to buy food ~ If I could stay somewhere, I could rest more, get better , not be tempted by food as much.Isn’t some of your SSDI money meant to buy you food?
05 Dec 2018, 10:59 pm
...I still haven't, quite, fixed the damage at least partly caused by the lawyer's 100% choking me off from any money at all! , and with nothing put in writing 
. Patterson WAS NOT suitable - and I'll tell you why - probably later 
. For some background:
I'll call the owner of the place Daniel. A d the amount I was charged for the up:front rent was like 92% of my " nor " SSDI amount. I am so perpetually out of breath and tired! I wonder if I love die of a heart attack or similar
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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!
05 Dec 2018, 11:14 pm
[quote="ASS-P"]...I still haven't, quite, fixed the damage at least partly caused by the lawyer's 100% choking me off from any money at all! , and with nothing put in writing . I have no place to cook, or store cookable food, re. SSDI for food:( Patterson was not suitable - and I'll tell you why - probably later . For some background:
I'll call the owner of the place Daniel. The amount I was charged for the up-front ont rent was like 92% of my " normal " SSDI amount. Far more than a '
" normal " ".__ percent of your money " place would charge ! I am so perpetually out of breath and tired! I wonder if I will.die of a heart attack or similar .
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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!
05 Dec 2018, 11:15 pm
...I still haven't, quite, fixed the damage at least partly caused by the lawyer's 100% choking me off from any money at all! , and with nothing put in writing . I have no place to cook, or store cookable food, re. SSDI for food:( Patterson was not suitable - and I'll tell you why - probably later . For some background:
I'll call the owner of the place Daniel. The amount I was charged for the up-front ont rent was like 92% of my " normal " SSDI amount. Far more than a '
" normal " ".__ percent of your money " place would charge ! I am so perpetually out of breath and tired! I wonder if I will.die of a heart attack or similar .[/quote]
05 Dec 2018, 11:57 pm
. And, with no regular noon meal, I get tempted to buy food ~ If I could stay somewhere, I could rest more, get better , not be tempted by food as much.Did anyone explain to you that as a diabetic, you need regular, healthy meals?
06 Dec 2018, 12:50 am
. And, with no regular noon meal, I get tempted to buy food ~ If I could stay somewhere, I could rest more, get better , not be tempted by food as much.Did anyone explain to you that as a diabetic, you need regular, healthy meals?
Also as someone with heart disease and kidney disease. High blood pressure is a major factor in those conditions and processed foods contain tons of sodium and other chemicals that cause bp to skyrocket.
.Most likely you're a "ticking time bomb" as they say. And you may not die from the heart atrack or stroke that's coming your way. You might end up severly incapacitated instead.
06 Dec 2018, 1:52 am
...The situation. I am in DOES NOT ALLOW MR TO have much choice in food or.my schedulr I'm eating.it!! ! Do you not realize that?
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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!
06 Dec 2018, 2:00 am
06 Dec 2018, 2:09 am
....To start with, the situation in the Patterson place was EXTREMELY confining. In two complete weeks there, 14 days ..I did not leave the house and its " grounds ' but once in 14 days 
! And that I believe only in.the night, after 6 PM. I was, otherwise, inside the.house or the.walled-in mostly concrete back, very marginally the front, 100% of the time ! I NEVER got outside in the daytime for walking and exercise and night and fresh air AT ALL This, at length, would certainly make my ability.to walk degenerate - " use.it or lose it " - and my health go downhill! The fenced in back yard was rather like when I was in jail. There:d more.....
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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!
