scale of -10 to +10, how do you feel right now?

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That doesn't mean it'll prevent it from happening! I've found that NOT searching and not being concerned about it is the best way to take it: Time flies faster when you're not thinking about it (in searching-for-love kind of way). Do you have anything else you enjoy doing or could work on?

Maybe - not like it really needs it though. It's always near the top.

6. wishing things would fall into place for me.

You know what, same here...For me...it's marriage with a soul mate + realization of self (learning, creating and healing...)
Honestly I don't have the answer for you or for myself regarding this matter (marriage)...
I feel that if I believe in God, this is the part of my life where I have to sum up all the faith I ever had in God...because, as it says in the Bible, I truly agree that a good spouse or the love of your life comes from God...because the human heart itself is void of love...it has to be kindled by the divine in order to glow with love...(and I'm not saying that you have to be a Christian for this to happen because God loves you and blesses you whether you are a Christian or not...what I'm saying is that love is God's present...and He gives it to whom He pleases to give it to.)

Whoso findeth a wife findeth a good thing, and obtaineth favour of the LORD. (Proverbs 18:22)
House and riches are the inheritance of fathers: and a prudent wife is from the LORD (Proverbs 19:14)

So...I'll include you in my prayer...so that you may find your love...although it might not mean very much to you...

Well, another thing is...I find that God doesn't always give me what I asked for...
For example, I sincerely prayed to get into an Ivy League school but it didn't happen...I was very disappointed...but...I thanked God for sending me to another school....and I think it turned out to be a better option for me....
So when I pray for a husband, I'm also acknowledging that God might not give me one...and although I would be very disappointed, I have faith in Him that it was probably a better option for me...
However, even if that was the case, I think I will be bugging God to give me a husband until the end of my life...

So...what I'm saying is...although there is no guarantee, I will pray for you and pray for me and believe that God will give us spouses!

I'm at a 8. just got home from work. got money in my pocket. think i might even go get me some new music. life is good.

2. Words.. ... blargh. I need to invent a new language to be able to describe these heretofore unexplored sh***y feelings about everything. I can't wait for the equalizer. The only thing that makes me feel better is knowing that eventually I won't have to feel left out, ignored, rejected, frustrated, and those words won't mean anything.

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I could have done so many things during the day such as going to the gym or going to church or preparing for tomorrow's test... but I didn't do any of them... all I did was eating, listening to music, browsing the web(mostly on Pierce Brosnan), hanging out in WP and reading a chapter of the book that I started...basically I just idled the day away...oh well...but I will not harass myself for it...or make myself anxious by telling myself that I will be a perpetual failure because I am lazy...Of course, I should keep an eye on my laziness...but the day has already passed away...so I shall not dwell upon it...

Why am I so lethargic? Why do I always choose to remain in my cocoon-like apartment? Why can't I go out and be active and productive?

Oh well...take a deep breath....and...I'll try to coax myself into studying for the test tomorrow...

6. Tired but but invigorated at the same time. I had a weird experience outside of my dorm that really surprised me about 45 minutes ago. I just found that iTunes added one of my favorite bands that they didn't used to have (Rumpelstiltskin Grinder). I have school tomorrow though and I think I'll have a hard time getting to sleep. It's 2:20AM currently.

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Because I'm sick of being unappreciated, in favour of complete arsewipes, just because I have much less confidence. Humanity should burn.

3. Survived a weekend of visitors without killing any of them or having a meltdown, came close and got a bit irritable but didn't actually blow! Today I am quietly repairing my boundaries.

4 at the moment due to anxiety and uni work. Bad eye contact with a family member earlier today is making me quite self conscious, argh.

I have uni work to do as well
I can't seem to motivate myself to do anything though this week, I don't know what's wrong with me but I hope it changes, I don't like revising when I just feel like sleeping or doing nothing
...so about 4 for me as well

6. Bit groggy and hot and sweaty today.

Lack of motivation is a nightmare Sopho and I know the other feelings you mentioned too. Does it help if you structure your work and reward yourself?

I've over 2200 words done but I'm nowhere near happy with it, feeling nauseous, so probably a 3 now.

Thank you. I'll be feeling better in a few days.

I've got exams soon (they're not very important because they don't count towards my degree but I still want to do well) I just don't feel like revising. I don't know why either because I love history so I hate it when this happens.
I'm definitely doing to revise tonight though, I'll just sit down and start, once I start I usually feel better about it as long as I don't get distracted
How many words do you need to write?

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