Dear "You"...From "Me"-Letters Unsent
CockneyRebel
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Age: 50
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Location: In my little Olympic World of peace and love
Dear X,
You thought that you were very clever, trying to chip away at my Cockney Spirit at one time. Trying to control everything that I said and did. I've heard that people from Northern England hate London. On this fine April 9th, I'll celebrate the thing that defines me the most. I think that I need to adjust the colours in my avatar to be able to do that. I wish you the best, and I hope that you find what you're looking for. I don't care if I'm in Canada, I'm going to do what I want. I preach both Jesus and Anarchy.
Sid :O)
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dear love,
i'm sorry, i should have known this would have happened. i should have saved you from it but i was indulgent in our love and enjoyed your company so much that i couldn't bare to lose all hope even as i knew it would end this way. as it always does. he said you love relationships, i love them too. i never really felt like you trusted me, i wonder if this is in me or if you never really did. i felt that through osmosis we could communicate and that you would understand me, and even not push my buttons, love me as i am and i as you are but we never quite succeeded. i dont want this to be happening, i worked so hard to be with you i cant believe that this could be the end. i have been feeling as though i am having an anxiety attack for the past few days now, i dont suppose this will pass for another couple of months, im sorry if it makes conversations difficult.
im so sorry i never turned out to be the social self confident person you needed in your life.
a kiss beneat bridge of sighs.
i love you
Dear Me
I suppose the damage is done, and at broken pieces of fulfillment you must gaze. I'm sorry I could not be a better ally or friend. For now only reality is able to judge your worth, a worth which I should have no say in any more, and if you give up now, I blame you not.
If you direct your anger at me, I will not cry. I always had the intention to do good, and bring about happiness for everyone. If that was my purpose in life, then I have failed. But I did try. If only my best was indeed good enough.
Now counting down the days of your life empty and with no meaning. I hope at least you find the peace I so terribly failed at securing.
<Me>
MONKEY
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Location: Stoke, England (sometimes :P)
Dear my best friend,
It is your birthday today, 16 at last. So I'll say this to you, even though you're not on this so you won't read it. Anyway you are the best friend I could ever wish for, you are a complete mad hatter but that's why I chose you in the first place. I had to put all my energy into phoning you last night you git lol, and when I was talking to your dad on the phone I could hear you in the background saying "oooooh not you again!" you're probably embarassed lol. I know what you're like.
lots of looooove
sophie
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Coincidence on 34th street.
Dear X,
Perhaps I'm just confused (it wouldn't be the first time), or perhaps there really is some kind of discomfort or misunderstanding.
I may have nothing to with whatever is going on, but if there is something, I hope it can be resolved.
See ya,
Lola G.
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"I've been really, really anti-social for the past few years, and I'm just starting to get over it, and come out of my shell, and be able to like people again" - D'Arcy Wretzky
Dear "emos".
Stop being such whiny, ungrateful idiots who aren't thankful for anything. You ever wonder why your life sucks? You let it suck. I bet if you were grateful for living and appreciate everything you enjoy (friends, video games, computers, etc.) it wouldn't be so "painful".
Oh and cutting yourself makes you look like complete attention-whoring asses.
-Dalton
Dear all,
Name me one social program started by a conservative. Fear and smear does NOT count!
Here are some started by us Liberals:
Social security
Interstate highway system
Medicaid
Medicare
VA Benefits
Urban Electrification
Living Wage (we don't have that yet!)
Can't we all just get along? We're in the same boat, we need to work together or it will sink.
From,
A loyal American who served his country, drew unemployment when he needed, and paid taxes the entire time.
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Pain and pleasure are the twins who slowly out of focus spin around us until we finally realize, that everything that gives us pleasure also gives us pain to measure it by!
Stop. Yelling. At. Me. Please.
Yes, I am 23 years old and am still living at home/can't even keep my room tidy/have no social life/can't carry on a normal conversation/have no common sense/have no organisational skills/I could add a hundred and one things to this list. I suspect that the only reason they are a problem is because
1. I am a different person from the one you wanted me to be.
2. You are in a bad mood all the time and looking for someone to take it out on.
Just leave me alone, ok? I know I'm not perfect. I'm not doing anything deliberately wrong to annoy you. My. Brain. Is. Wired. Differently. Do you ever stop to think that this is why what I have is called an autism spectrum DISORDER and not an autism spectrum happy shiny easy picnic thing?
Stop calling me stupid. STOP IT. Stop treating me like an idiot for asking questions and trying to better understand situations and to clarify requests that you've made of me. Stop jumping on everything I do without finding out the reasons behind it.
So I'm withdrawn, so I won't shut up about music and Asperger's syndrome, so I don't notice all three of the dishes in the sink and jump up to do them to "help my mother" (which we both know means 'I can't be bothered doing them', you lying hypocrite), so (insert x friends name is) is the perfect child, and I am the spawn of Satan. One of my wonderful friends bullied me for as long as I knew her, swore at her parents, stole from her parents and was pregnant before the age of 17. Is that the kind of person you want me to be? You would like me to be more normal. Normal means, from what I've observed: cynical, deceitful, weak, not having the courage to be who you are, and CAPABLE OF HURTING OTHERS FOR THE FUN OF IT. If you like, I could endeavour to gain all of those wonderful personality traits. Then we could sit together in front of the football and exchange pre-packaged opinions about politics that we borrowed from the editorial columns of the newspaper or that we heard from a friend of a friend. Then we can talk for hours about nothing and call this "really getting to know each other."
Then we can both die, and we'll never have realised that our lives have been wasted on gossip and keeping up appearances, because when we saw someone who found that life repulsive, even if they were our own child, we dismissed them as strange, inept, boring and stupid.
Yes, you did call me boring. I have strong interests in a few subjects. Get over it, ok? My brothers and I love it when we find new information. It makes us jump for joy. We also love discussing our findings with each other. I know you think that life should be a joyless affair, a mere struggle to put food in your mouth day after day (with occasional breaks to talk about the weather and how corrupt everyone with more money/power than you is), but I can't live like that. I am not an animal. I am a human being, I have a mind, my mind needs nourishment.
Do you notice how I never mention any of my problems to you? This is because the response I'm used to getting from you is either
"You are stupid"
or
"Just pull youself together and ... (everyone else can do it, why can't you ? (good guy)) "
I'll tell you what. You cheer up and stop being depressed, and I'll pull myself together and be the standard-issue person that you want me to be. What? I'm sorry? You can't rewire your own brain? You must have a higher opinion of me than I thought, because you think that I can rewire mine.
STOP using the phrases
"Your ******** high IQ"
"You're so intelligent, why"
To insult me. I do not "go on about how intelligent I am". Even if I do mention it, why I am not allowed to be proud of one of the few things that I actually like about myself?
You are not hard-done-by. There are worse problems than poor eyesight and bad Achilles tendons. There are worse things than not having as much money as you'd like. (You could get a better job, you know. Hint: go out and LOOK for work, don't sit there blaming your situation on everyone else. You were always jumping down my throat for not having a job. (Bastard hypocrite.))
Stop trying to make everyone else miserable. Either get help for your depression and anger, or shut up about it.
I should not be dreading walking into my house.
I should not be afraid to open my mouth when you are within earshot.
I should not be hiding in my bedroom when you are home and my mother is not.
I should not be always preparing to defend myself you when you finally lose control and turn violent.
I should not have been in tears on Christmas Day because you lost your temper over an innocent question.
I am already close to giving up on life. The world is not a place that I want to be.
You are pushing me closer and closer to my end. If I am pushed too far, I will make sure that your part in my destruction is known.
- Rachel
13 years old here, but I understand exactly everything you're saying. Almost identical situation for me.
Dear Whatever's out there, if there is anything;
Please make my family go away. Please turn me eighteen overnight. Please.
-Rads
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MONKEY
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Dear best friend,
Everyone is a bunch of idiots at the moment except for you. I'm insanely jealous now that he and that girl are getting close, but you are still number 1 as you don't make me feel rejected or jealous or anything. I may "fancy" him I still love you loads and I don't need to do or say much to make you realise that, we just connect anyway.
So cheer me up would ya, I know no one else will
Soph xxx
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sinsboldly
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Dear ABA folks that testified in the panel to the State Representatives before me. It was really painful to hear you talk about me and Xxxx as if we weren't there, or probably more to the point, you knew we were there and it didn't bother you to talk about 'our kind' with such dismissive contempt. I mean, you were talking about your own children and I suppose you thought it was alright because they were not there, or perhaps you thought they couldn't understand if they were.
That video that showed your child (with the back ground music of that Mark Leland song "Missing Pieces" a tear jerker if there ever was one) was heartbreaking, but even more disastrous was the idea that your ideal of what your children should be that you characterized as a violation of your rights. . . as if NATURE was conspiring against you that they would not grow up to be what you wanted - and you wanted some sort of compensation for that from the State. SOMEBODY MUST PAY for your disappointment!
Perhaps I just don't understand. Perhaps, as you insist, if I were a parent I would understand how you were robbed and deceived and experienced heartbreak
However:
Being your child was no picnic, either, you know! Not being able to answer you 'right' not being able to control my body and seeing how it crushed you, hearing you moan and whine and complain to your friends, listening to your voice talking like I can't understand. And then wondering why I didn't love you unconditionally. I just didn't trust you and you never understood why. It was difficult for me, too!
that's all I wanted to say to you, really. May the powers that be give you and yours' Peace.
Merle
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Dear ___________
broken promises. procrastination = hurting people.
excuses? a load of codswallop.
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