scale of -10 to +10, how do you feel right now?

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6. Stressed.

-10

~K

Same as I have been for the past week or so; between -5 and -10.
Everything is difficult, I'm tired all the time, I'm having constant intrusive thoughts that stop me from sleeping, something happened recently that has brought back some really bad memories, and my reasons for living keep being taken away from me.
I wish there was some way to end my life without hurting everyone who cares about me. I don't want to put up with another 5-7 decades of these struggles.
Even the things I enjoy are lately just distractions from all the bad thoughts and exhaustion.

+8 Had a GREAT weekend, started a job doing pressure washing 18 wheelers, not a bad job for 9 an hour, on Sunday got a new mattress and a new 42 inch TV for my new house I am moving to in a week, AND I got some hard to find seats for my car that are very desired for 25 bucks...

9. I had a very good day today.

I've been feeling quite sh***y the last couple of days. Well, off and on that is but today I'm okay again. +4, I reckon.

Tired and numb, perhaps it's time to take vacation from here....

-7

forty years ol and I still mess up relationships with everyone, and have aquired zero coping skills. argghhh.

-1. I am very frustrated.

-9
I can't stop crying because I had to have my ratty boys euthanased yesterday because they were sick and I couldn't afford to keep buying the medicine for them. I miss them so much

-8
Went to my psych today and he gave me the same answers that everyone has given me about my answers. He also told me straight out ill suck at almost everything in life.

6 - I'm back at school and am really excited. However, I am confused about stuff and trying to figure myself out. Am I not a woman because I'm still a virgin? Do I suck as a human being just because I don't know a lot about sex? Hell, even people on WP have told me that I'm not attractive in any form and will probably never get a bf anyway. So much for a supportive forum.

-9...everything still sucks but for some reason I'm obsessing a tiny bit less today

-9
Psych told me I'll always suck and to just give up on things. So much for that. Then he tries to comfort me by telling me all he does in his free time is read medical books and has no friends. I will not live like that, I'd take death before.

-10 again....back to obsessing and the memories coming out of everywhere and thinking what an abysmal failure I am when it comes to relationships....

~Kate

3. I can't wait for this summer to be over. I've found myself again, just for an original member of my favourite band to pass away. I'm staying on the path that I'm on, but the lack of empathy from a family member threw me in, for a loop. I feel that I'm better off now, than I was a year ago, the last two weeks of darkness. I'm never turning on the 60s, or The Kinks, ever again. As soon as the first day of autumn arrives, I'm going to put that all behind me.