mosto wrote:
Having made a long thread of self-absorbed drivel of my own, and trying to think of what to say on yours, I realised that people (well, me at least) only try to say positive things because that is what is expected, morally. If I say I would rather die now, on my own thread, then that is acceptable because for someone to say that they would have to be not in their right minds. But reading your thread, seeing you have same if not worse life than me, I can only agree with you. You are 100% right when you say you have no control over your life and successful people are deluded to think that it is themselves that have made them great. I've been banned from chat rooms for giving this opinion so I will stop there
The worst thing about it is my life isn't actually that bad. I've excelled academically because in the past I've always been driven in my quest to understand the world. I'm trying to complete a MS degree in atmospheric science but I'm feeling completely burned out at this point.
I'm a very analytical thinker but I can't bear the grunt work and BS that goes along with making a career out of science. My problem is that I have no interest in actually living in this world. I only want to exist in an ivory tower where I don't have to deal with people and their BS. I fear that most people envy my academic success and can't relate to my current depression if I try to explain to them how lately I've been losing my interest in science. I'm constantly sidetracked by other topics that are more interesting to me these days.
I know what you mean. I do have a number of ideas of what I would like to do, but the fields I am attracted to seem to require a great deal of social know-how... I think I would find myself very challenged in that respect. Also I have visual problems and the kind of careers I would like seem to have a lot of reading and paperwork... so I dont know.
I guess you have to think very deeply into the idea of what you want to do. What are you good at? What would you find exciting? Perhaps you will end up thinking of something that fits the bill...
09 Jun 2009, 1:49 am
