I am a Monster. I don't deserve to live. I kicked my dog.

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actually, I don't know Shades is going to commit suicide, and you don't either.

I have known Shades of Me for years on this website, Anicho and I have a far better idea of the noble nature of her than you do. Shades would never desert her beloved pet. Please do not mistake my familiarity of tone with disregard of Shade's feelings.

Engaging someone in constructive plans of action diffuses and distracts from the shame and regret of the initial incident, channeling the nervous energy into productive outlets and ultimately soothing the situation. This isn't my first rodeo, Anicho.

Merle

Nah, you aren't a monster; you just had uninhibited impulse control and frustration due to real emotional stress. The whole, feeling so bad about the act shows that you care; if you felt nothing at all, that'd be more...different. A monster would be someone who murdered most of the neighbors' pets when he was young to feel something, and doesn't care at all now that he's older and realized what he did. Well, they say these people are monsters (whatever that word means).

If it makes you feel better, there is actually a training method based on dogs in the wild that involves applying a slight bit of pain to the dog.

Basically, all dogs have a 'pack' mentality, and the head of the pack (You or your parents in the case of a domestic dog) will normally nip at the lower ranked dogs to keep them in line. Basically, if the dog misbehaves, you apply an aversive just hard enough to make the dog yelp/stop what it is doing. If done right, the dog will yelp and give you the "WTF?" look, before accepting the punishment. Usually only has to be done 3 times before it sinks in.

That's the basics of it, if you want to read on how to do it correctly feel free to look it up online.

Don't worry, if you're a monster, imagine what all those wild dog pack leaders must be!

It's good to hear that your dog is ok.

I am glad to hear that the dog is better, when I accidently hurt my dog I feel so bad. I have stepped on the dogs feet many times while walking him. But he forgives me quickly. The problem is that he runs under my feet, I wish that he would just walk where I can see him.

Let me let you in on a secret...

I once clonked my grandfather on the head with a cosmetic jar for trying to steal the remote control for himself and mocking me for trying to take it and the area got swollen up and started bleeding. Now we keep the remote on a cable so he can't steal it.


I still dream of cutting off certain parts of him sometimes. I'm such a horrid creature.

you hit your grandfather in the head!?

i dreamt about COUGHdecapitatingCOUGH family. the mind is a funny place sometimes.

This is a good wake-up call for you. Now you know that sometimes your anger or frustration can become so strong that you lose control of yourself. If you truly care about your dog and about the safety of other sentient beings around you, now is the time to put real effort towards learning techniques to reduce anxiety and to deal with these emotions appropriately. Don't sit around indulging yourself with feelings of self-loathing: put that remorse into action and build up the skills you need to make sure it won't happen again.

@Fickle Pickle: I once flipped out and threatened my mother with a switchblade...

Then there is my still lingering reaction to my (LFA) brother's meltdowns.

He sometimes reaches for me and tries to scratch and pinch me...and I flip out. I just want to pound him into the floor and kick in his head repeatedly.

I want to cut off his hands for daring to use them to try and hurt me.

I hate being so angry and defective...but it's there.

Yea! It's going to be okay for both of y'all.