My only friend doesn't want to be my friend any more

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I've been on both sides of the scenario, actually.

Back in high school, my best friend (at the time) 'dumped' me, as it were. The problem was that it didn't quite click with me until a few years later, when I noticed that we weren't talking on the phone, or seeing each other outside of school, etc. etc. I pointed it out, and the reply I got was "Looks like we just drifted apart" and "Our lives are going in different directions". My response was along the lines of "Uh, when did that happen?" I got fairly depressed because she was that one bestie that I had, and so I had this best friend shaped hole in my heart. It sucked.

However I went to uni and found a lot of other 'social misfit' type friends, who've all had their problems with high school a***holes and the like. They're pretty awesome when I don't get too emotionally caught up in their problems, because they're very accepting of the people who want to be their friends. So while things suck now Alycat, friends are still out there waiting to be made.

I did have this university acquaintance who either wanted more than a friendship or just a stronger friendship than I wanted with him, and it was really annoying. He spoke loudly, in a really fast thick accent I couldn't understand well, had a really strong pungent body odour he did nothing to cover. Thinking about it now, he was fairly socially inept- to the point that I am wondering whether he could have been on the spectrum or not. I finally cracked it when he made some gross and inappropriate gestures to my female friends, and threatened real violence against one of my male ones. Part of me feels a tad guilty for blocking him out of my life like my old bestie did to me, but I think I'm kind of justified in my case. :/

Personally I had a few things like that happen and I did it myself once. That's why now I don't really have deep friendships with people. There are people I work with or go to college with that I like to talk to and hang out with on occasion but the friendships are somewhat fluid and superficial which works for me. If they happen by choice or circumstance to fall out of my life or I fell out of theirs I doubt they'd mind much and neither would I.

Attempting to create deep long lasing relationships with people hasn't ever worked well for me and what I do seems to be a good substitute. You don't get attached but you don't hurt much either.