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I think Daniel makes a great point about the boy who cried wolf. Most people assume you won't do it if you keep saying you will but won't. Depending on how frequently you talk about it but that doesn't mean you're not going to do it. Not everyone will attempt suicide automatically act out their thoughts even though the urges feel very real. But like I said, depending that doesn't mean it won't happen. More than likely if you don't get help, these thoughts could get out of hand and who knows, you may end up dead or in the hospitale. People tend to have misconceptions about people who are suicidal thoughts. I don't think it's always a great idea to assume that just because a person can't stop talking about their urge to die, doesn't mean they're going to do it since they haven't. It will sometimes go through a pattern, one day that person may be doing ok or even having a good day then the all of a sudden the automatic thoughts come without warning.
That's what it is like with me kinda. I can be feeling like I'm going to be ok through things then something negative happens; Somebody at work gets confrontational with me, I get into a fight with someone online or my parents say something horrible to me...the urges come rushing back. I feel like running to the kitchen and grabbing a knife, or going home and barricading myself in my room to starve to death (not eating is my way of harming myself, as well as actually lacking the appetite to eat).
I come up with new ideas fairly often. I even made a threat at work earlier in the year; it's how I came to be on meds and seeing a psychologist.
28 May 2010, 5:49 am
