Saddened, depressed, exhausted, and just want to die

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i just wish people would stop suggesting sports and eating right and taking care of yourself to me when I'm depressed. It all sounds so naive. When they see a disabled person in a wheelchair, whey wouldn't suggest to "just get up and walk!" either, would they? Sorry, I'm venting...

It's true that is is very very hard. But I made myself go through hell in order to take up a physical activity in the midst of clinical depression, and it was worth it. Presence of other people makes it easier. Structure and humans.

t's true. Physical activity basically saved my life this last year when everything else was crumbling around me. It was hard to get started, there s no short cut about it and it feels overwhelming to be unfit on top of clinical depression. You exercise and it seems impossible too. But here's the thing: your body noticably gets better, you get endorphins that help you cope and its real easy to start feeling proud of yourself for sticking to something.

I had to find a charity event to get me committed to working out five days a week, and after a year of training, I realize how much good it has done for my depression. I was basically sitting on my couch waiting for it to swallow me whole, and now I have confidence in my own ability to get stuff done. I've accomplished a lot of mental goals in my life, but biking over 500 miles in a week--and the prep/self-care needed so I could make it--convinced me somewhere deep inside of my own personal power.

There are no short cuts. But the first step is to decide what you are going to DO to make your life worth living, so the you have the best chance possible of being happy for the long term. There are always plenty of excuses! I can turn a hang nail into a reason not to work out...but I know now that sitting on the couch only makes me feel worse everywhere.

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I am sorry you are having such a hard time Sionis. I wish I could help but I am having a hard time myself. All I can say is be thankful that you do not have my life.

I am struggling with depression and living with a verbally abusive father who pretty much reminds me how he hates me and how I've ruined not only his life but every good friendship with everyone I've ever met my own sister included. He tells me this every other day. I've tried to pull my life together but it keeps falling into pieces each time.

I only stay alive so my mother won't grieve herself to death over me and to care for my cats until they are gone. This is just the selfless person I am. I realize I am worthless almost completely except for these duties and the only things keeping me from suicide.

So please don't wish yourself to die. You have much more going for you and that shows that you are strong. Keep fighting the good fight.

So sorry that happened to you though. I haven't been sexually harassed or had someone use profanity at me at a job. I have been emotionally harassed at work though. This wasn't towards me, but a prior VP of the company I work for was on the phone with an employee and used the f word. It wasn't towards me, but I still found it offensive. You just don't use profanity to your co workers no matter what level or pay you are. This prior VP called me knucklehead once in front of someone. It was hurtful and unprofessional, but the higher ups liked him. I was a receptionist at that time and just finished college. So how can a higher ups listen to a receptionist's complaint? I still think women who get harassed at work it doesn't go anywhere. or low level positions too.