Our kind are merely ghosts.

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07 Sep 2010, 9:16 pm

I have felt like a ghost before. I felt like unwanted presence that no one wanted to acknowledge. It was unpleasant. I did not, however, feel lonely from it. I like my solitude and go to great lengths to prevent invasions of my space. I've turned losing friends into an art.



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08 Sep 2010, 9:51 am

I feel like a ghost sometimes. Unseen, unnoticed, watching other people naturally doing what I have to fake or can't do at all.

As far as not wanting invasions of our spaces, I think many of us don't mind them, as long as they are on our terms. There is a difference between sharing our space and having it invaded, if you know what I mean.

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08 Sep 2010, 1:31 pm

Willard wrote:
I'd rather be a ghost than stoned to death by the rabble as a freak.

I hope you find whatever human connection you're craving, but I'll warn you - its really not worth it. They are a stupid species, and interacting with them will cause you far more pain and suffering than you could ever experience in solitude.


Amen to that. As far as I'm concerned, they can forget I ever existed.



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08 Sep 2010, 2:26 pm

I don't feel like a ghost; I have goals and I want to carry them out, which keeps me active and involved in things irrespective of my social life.



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08 Sep 2010, 3:10 pm

I can't talk to people...I developed a coping mechanism where I write all the root words I know, and explain it, and another where I write down everything I'm thinking, but I just feel like nobody will like or accept the real me. I need to be smart and pretty, but it's a goal that I can never reach.



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08 Sep 2010, 6:45 pm

Booyakasha wrote:
Willard wrote:
I'd rather be a ghost than stoned to death by the rabble as a freak.

I hope you find whatever human connection you're craving, but I'll warn you - its really not worth it. They are a stupid species, and interacting with them will cause you far more pain and suffering than you could ever experience in solitude.


Amen to that. As far as I'm concerned, they can forget I ever existed.


I hope to get to that point someday. At least the pain would stop.

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08 Sep 2010, 8:12 pm

I have times when I feel ghostey.

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I couldn't go to the amusement park because there was no one there with me. A ghostly feeling indeed.


I have done this. It wasn't so great. But other times, I have a certain comfort level with being invisible. I go to the beach and I enjoy myself.

Then, when I go into work, where people like me, I miraculously "re-animate."

Still other times, I can be part of a group and still feel invisible, when everyone sees I'm sitting right there, and yet we're not able to connect.



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09 Sep 2010, 3:00 pm

Meow101 wrote:
Booyakasha wrote:
Willard wrote:
I'd rather be a ghost than stoned to death by the rabble as a freak.

I hope you find whatever human connection you're craving, but I'll warn you - its really not worth it. They are a stupid species, and interacting with them will cause you far more pain and suffering than you could ever experience in solitude.


Amen to that. As far as I'm concerned, they can forget I ever existed.


I hope to get to that point someday. At least the pain would stop.

~Kate


The only method that works for me is to disengage, detach, isolate, never expect anything (good) and at times even dissociate - and numbness is definitely better than pain. Still learning how to see beyond this unpredictable and chaotic social dynamics.

Hope things get better for you. *hugs*



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09 Sep 2010, 3:14 pm

I walk up to people and they don't even hear my footsteps.
I say hello but there is always something or someone drowning me out.
I try to make an entrance to find a detour.
I never seem to get past the fundamentals.

I dream somedays about being popular, being noticed. Then I think what a superficial idea, and realize I just need one person to talk to, not twenty or thirty, just one.



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09 Sep 2010, 3:20 pm

leejosepho wrote:
I think there is a paradox here: We talk about our aloneness, yet want no invasions of our spaces.


I'm fairly certain that almost nobody likes to have their space invaded.

When I read the topic (before I clicked on it) I thought "our kind" was a reference to humanity as a whole.

By referring to people with AS as "our kind," we are only continuing the dislocation of our already lonely neurological predicament...

...in my opinion, of course...



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09 Sep 2010, 6:41 pm

I like being alone, but I hate feeling like a ghost when I'm around people. I like walking down the beach alone at night as long as it is empty. It gives me a sense of tranquility. Being alone makes me feel free from my burdens and the madness of the world. I enjoy being with people as long as I know them, they aren't critical of my differences, and like me for who I am. There aren't many people I enjoy being with besides family members.



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10 Sep 2010, 12:47 am

Well put. I can relate to this thread very sincerely. On the upside, think of the freedom all this alone time gives us to do what we want to.



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10 Sep 2010, 2:04 am

You are a ghost because you choose to be. People aren't running around town looking for friends, you have to interact with people to meet people. Stop being scared of rejection. Who cares? Show the world who you are.



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10 Sep 2010, 12:49 pm

Homer_Bob wrote:
Ever wonder what it's like to be a ghost? Well I feel like I'm living as one already and I'm sure our kind feels similar. My life is nothing but a solitary path; one where I can walk miles and miles past people and no one will even know I'm there. I felt that way when I went on my vacation. I went on vacation alone to a beautiful beach up in Maine. Yet while the whole time I was there, I didn't speak to a single person(minus the people at the motel who needed my money). I feel like at times, I am dead. I walked down a 7 mile long beach by myself (from day into night)and as I walked, I really felt like I wasn't even there. I walked past hundreds of people and not once did I interact with any. I look and see all the couples in romance and I see others with families. My vacation was still a good time for I loved the beach and the beautiful ocean. I at least got away from my job for a week but nevertheless, it gave me a reflection that I feel like I am not even living a real life. I am but a ghost who watches everyone go by me and watch the events that take place. I know what's going on around me completely but no one knows that I'm there. Anyone else feel this way at times where they are nothing but an invisible observer? A ghost?


Reminds me of this song:

[youtube]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oQ17YV5obwI[/youtube]



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10 Sep 2010, 4:06 pm

Hey, did someone mention ghosts? Yes, I do feel invisible out in the world sometimes. When it happens at the wrong time, I just want disappear and see if anyone notices.



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18 Sep 2010, 4:32 pm

I'm not. got a pulse, body heat and everything


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