Is anyone else ready to die?

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17. I feel old, it's strange to say but I'm starting to notice some of the physiological changes. I don't think I'll enjoy getting older. The depression thing added years to my age. I understand that my chronological age isn't terribly important, but mentally I already feel like I've been alive for two lifetimes.

I was I was reinforcing your very valid point.

At 17, I was ready to die.
Thank god I decided not to.
Things get better as you get older.

You will never feel as mindlessly happy as the simpler folk. Once you become truly aware of the flow of time, you cannot forget it. However, you can transcend it. You have to. If you do not, you will end up sinking deeper and deeper into clinical depression.

Things that help me fight it are "creating stuff" and "getting better at stuff". Knowing that my old 33-year-old self could whoop my 22-year-old selves' butt at martial arts makes for a nice boost to the subconscious and its time-based fears.

I'm ready to die.

but remember, some folk never reach those milestones nor can even see them from their vantage points in life, even at twice your age. anyways, death can come for me at any time, my only wish is that it is gentle and considerate of my weakness. my only reservation is that i am not 100% sure that my older sister would not be disturbed if i kicked the bucket before she did.

I was ready to die at 13, at 14. I'm 15 and now I realize I don't want to die. Not for a long time. Not when I have so much life to dance on through. I'm older mentally than my peers, feel like I'm older but I still haven't lived enough. Life always has more for people, I know that for a fact. Whether you're 17 or 71 there's more in store for you. But you can't find it by imagining death, you can only find it by living life.

This is much how I feel about it. My life now is better than it has ever been and I'm not depressed (well, I might be, I'm not sure; I don't feel despairing or sad, but I've been very anhedonic--I don't know if that is considered depression). In fact, aside for brief hiccups, my mental and emotional health have been very stable and peaceful the vast majority of the time for quite a while. Despite my frequent complaints of my minor ailments here on WP, I am quite equanimous most of the time. Even so, I would go a bit further than you did and say that I would find death a relief. I don't long to die, but I'm looking forward to being finished. I'm not hurrying the process, however, and strive to make the best of it while I'm here.

Interesting thread. I was quite surprised when I started reading it, I was expecting some awful stories about terminal illness.

I have only been able to understand someone saying "they are ready to die" in reference to one of two things:
1. severe depression/suicide (Their brain is not working right)
or 2. quality of life and terminal illness (Someone is terminally ill and are suffering)

I consider myself well-read and eager to learn.
Are there other ways people can be "ready to die"?
I truly cannot understand half of these posts.
Will someone enlighten me?

you need to broaden "quality of life" to include sub-par existence, i.e., people who are irreversibly warped by life, or have cognitive/physical limitations that prevent them from a high quality of existence, relative to existentially successful folk unencumbered by such limitations. you also need to add #3- "been there and done that." some folk have run the gamut of human experience, and are ready to matriculate into light.

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I thought I was the only one occasionally spouting this off on the forum, but this is exactly how its been for me. I declare the ages 13 to about 29 really crap.

Wow, I often feel like I've "been there done that" and that life is boring. It does seem like the older I get the more I understand the world and the more boring it seems. I don't want to die though.

Thanks for the reply.