Board index › Coping in life › The Haven

I wish I was in a coma

Page 2 of 2 [ 20 posts ]  Go to page Previous  1, 2

Previous topic | Next topic

aja675
Toucan
Toucan

Joined: 20 Jan 2016
Posts: 252
Location: Philippines

15 Nov 2016, 10:24 pm

theclash123 wrote:
GreatSphinx wrote:
I guess that's better than wishing I was dead. Seriously. I hate what is going on in my life right now. I am under an enormous amount of stress, and I do not know when it is going to end. The stress is getting worse. I am being stretched in every possible direction and it will not stop. I just want it to stop. I don't want any more stress. I don't want any more. I am reaching my breaking point. I have gone YEARS without doing any self harm and having suicidal thoughts. I am not there even now, but I am afraid I am going to hit that point. I don't want to be there again. I don't want to hit rock bottom. I cannot do that. I have kids that need me. But if this does not stop, I don't know how much longer I can cope.

I am finding myself wondering how it would feel to do something illegal (drugs) or to take more anxiety meds that I should (not to OD, but to make me relax). I already know that Alcohol will not help. It just makes me feel like total and utter crap. I have percocet and that will put me to sleep - for 4 hours and then I will not be able to get back to sleep. I have trazodone I could take, but there are two strikes against that one. 1: I have very weird vivid dreams while on it and 2: I wake up all groggy the next day. The fog does not clear for hours. I could take more than 2 Klonopin, but I don't know the OD level for it, and I don't want to risk it.

I just wish I could be knocked out so that I do not dream, I do not worry, I do not get physically ill and I do not have to solve the world's problems (it feels like I do). I do not want to snap. I have worked too hard to do that.



Have you ever considered depression medication or shock therapy? Shock therapy was the only thing that took my depression away. And it's far less barbaric than it was in the past. The main bad side effect is issues with your memory, for example it's had a kind of bad effect on my short term memory, and I've lost some long term ones. But I'd rather have memory problems than feeling horrible all the time.

Um, that was an old post you were replying to.



aja675
Toucan
Toucan

Joined: 20 Jan 2016
Posts: 252
Location: Philippines

15 Nov 2016, 10:25 pm

aja675 wrote:
I really wish that I were comatose from 13-19 and that I only woke up on my 20th birthday.

I have so many youthful regrets that could easily have been prevented if only I studied in better schools than the ones I went to.



theclash123
Raven
Raven

User avatar

Joined: 14 Oct 2013
Gender: Male
Posts: 105

19 Nov 2016, 5:44 am

After doing some more research you should only try ECT as a last resort. First off, make sure that they give you anesthesia because some countries do ECT without anesthesia and then you have a seizure and your body thrashes around and you can break some bones. It has saved people's lives, including mine, but it has also caused severe memory problems and other problems with some people. I met a person who couldn't remember anything of her childhood after having it. However if you are severely depressed and you feel like killing yourself and medicine and therapy and everything else has failed then you might want to consider it. Just talk to a doctor about it and its potential side effects and if you should try it.



aja675
Toucan
Toucan

Joined: 20 Jan 2016
Posts: 252
Location: Philippines

19 Nov 2016, 5:46 am

theclash123 wrote:
After doing some more research you should only try ECT as a last resort. First off, make sure that they give you anesthesia because some countries do ECT without anesthesia and then you have a seizure and your body thrashes around and you can break some bones. It has saved people's lives, including mine, but it has also caused severe memory problems and other problems with some people. I met a person who couldn't remember anything of her childhood after having it. However if you are severely depressed and you feel like killing yourself and medicine and therapy and everything else has failed then you might want to consider it. Just talk to a doctor about it and its potential side effects and if you should try it.

Uh, the OP's not around.