I HATE auras!! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! ! >:(

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I posted something similar to this awhile ago.

Although I said I attract crazy people and although that's true it isn't just them.

BUT I really know what you mean OP.

You can call it aura, energy, a vibe you give or whatever. I don't care if those things aren't real but I have the same thing.

Sometimes I actually look to see how many other people are being looked at for no reason just for fun. I used to think this was all in my head so I had to make sure. I watch people and I notice that many go about their business without being bothered(because in my case strangers love talking to me too).

I think it has a lot to do with facial expressions and body language. I think I often have a blank look on my face, or just look uninterested and I also walk really fast, people always seem to take notice of that.

When they talk to you, it is annoying though. Especially the random questions, I was asked if I was a doctor the other day by a cashier at Kroger.

...um?

My best advice is to shrug it off and even try shooting someone a weird look when you notice them looking.

Well I don't want to be a person who gets noticed all the time, because it then makes me feel like I'm being watched. I have social phobia, and one of the symptoms of that is ''you don't like people watching you do things'', which I have got. So for example, I hate using the self-service check-outs in the supermarket because I keep thinking people are watching me, since I'm so good at being noticed. I don't want to be noticed all the time. It puts me off doing things, and it reduces my concentration, since too many eyes staring at me becomes too overwhelming, especially for a paranoid Aspie with social phobia. Things couldn't get any worse!

Help!! !

Next time say, ''you've finished staring now?'' or, ''are you enjoying yourself there?''

Okay perhaps I'm kidding a bit there but perhaps just give them a look as if to say that.

Sorry to bump this boring topic but all this people looking at me thing has disturbed me even more. I am looking for counselling to just talk specifically about this, because it is my main anxiety which is causes lots of other little anxieties and is affecting my whole life all round and is turning into a vicious circle, where I am afraid of going out and meeting new people because if random strangers view me as a target in the street then what are people I'm supposed to meet and work with going to be like with me?

I was in Tescos today with my mate, and we were standing at the biscuits section trying to decide which biscuits to buy. I saw a packet I liked and was looking to see what the price was and everything, just like what you'd normally do when trying to decide which to buy. And then these 2 girls came along, around my age, who had a baby in a buggy, and they stood the other side of my friend to also look for some biscuits. I hardly knew they were there, but when one of them bent down to get a packet of biscuits, I felt she was looking up at me. I told myself in my head that she wasn't looking up at me, so I just carried on looking at the biscuits and asking my friend what she was going to choose, and I still felt this girl staring, so I just gently glanced at her and she was staring for ages, and her stare was quite harsh. So I stared back, wondering why she was staring so much, and soon they walked away but as they walked off I saw both the girls look behind at me and one of them grinned, then, lo and behold, we happened to be in the same queue as them at a check-out, and they turned around and stared at me again and both started grinning, then when they paid one of them gave me a last stare and they walked off. I didn't recognise them (and I don't have faceblindness, I can easily recognise people's faces), so they definately didn't know me, and I knew I definately was not doing anything unusual or weird or anything like that, I was just doing ordinary actions like anyone would in a supermarket, I wasn't even feeling nervous or anything like that. And my hair looked really nice and my clothes were nice and everything, but I knew they weren't looking at me to say ''oh her hair looks nice'', because you wouldn't stare that much. It seemed like they were trying to intimidate me, but I thought why me? And then I started worrying about how I look and sound again.

Yes, how I sound. I get more people staring when I'm with somebody than when I'm on my own, so it must be the way I speak. I never had any speech delays and I don't speak too quickly or too slow (speaking too quickly is nothing to stare and laugh at about anyways). But I must've been doing something big to get that type of reaction from somebody, but I'm not sure what I was doing that was so bad, so that got my paranoid thoughts started up again, just when I had calmed down about it. Makes me feel so miserable that I am a person who gets picked on without encouraging it. I don't even look ''geeky'' or ''freaky'', and I don't speak ''geeky'' either. I've been crying ever since I got home, staring at myself in the mirror, looking at pictures of women in magazines to see what the difference is between my appearance and their's, and taping my voice to see how I sound (which does not sound too bad compared with other females).

WHAT THE f**k AM I DOING WRONG????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????

Joe90, I know you have probably heard this response so many times and might feel offended if you think its the only answer people can come up with, but really, as a neurotypical I know that people wouldnt behave like that with you for no reason at all, so the only realistic answer is you might of looked like somebody they knew or perhaps of somebody they didn't like and so one of them might of really thought you were another person and so stared, and then she might of told her friend that she thought you was so and so, and her friend might of just grinned, not aimed at you personally.

I know this because a similar situation happened to me before, only I was in the same situation as the girls. I'm not on their side, there was no need to stare at you that much, but neurotypicals can have faceblindness too and so perhaps they had slower recognition of faces and so had to stare to see if they have got the right person, and you being paranoid might of made it seem to you more worse than what it really was. But anyways yes the same thing happened to me once, I was standing with 2 of my friends and a girl stood near us who looked just like my friends sister, and I went to say hello to her then realised it wasnt her, so I had to look twice which probably looked more like I was staring, and then I realised it wasnt who I thought it was so I went back up to my friends and whispered 'I thought that was your sister', and my friends looked at her and laughed to themselves, because the situation was funny, and this girl kind of gave us a funny look as though she had took it the wrong way and thought we were taking the pee or something, but we wasnt. My friends were just laughing at the way I went upto her and went to say hello then ended up staring and I actually felt the stupid one, possibly even the victim.
And as for the till, maybe they saw you and felt stupid or felt guilty for staring at you, and since you took it the wrong way it probably felt a whole lot worse than what it really was. And you are sensitive which cannot be helped, so its only natural to kind of get paranoid in this situation.

So theres always an explanation for everything and it doesnt always have to be the worst.

I have had and still recurringly have a similar issue.

Whenever I approach people or talk to them, I feel as if I get these weird dirty looks. Or even with the way that complete strangers treat me, its with impatience and a lack of empathy or respect.

Its weird because i'm pretty conceited, maybe narcissitic even.. I always think I look awesome. I think I maintain my hair nicely, I think I wear nice clothes and keep them looking clean.

I know when I was younger and didn't maintain that stuff the way that I should, that kids would joke and make fun. Now.. all of that is in tip top shape, but it still feels like there's some invisible issue, some sign on my back that everyone can see but myself.

It leads to self doubt, my girlfriend thinks I look good, my mom and family say it.. i've even had a random compliment or two. But it seems like there's all this hate and viciousness from random strangers looming around me. I always ask my girlfriend if there's something off about my appearance before I go out and she always says no.

Seems like for people who actually make the effort, that this feeling that people are snickering in the background or laughing or shooting you weird looks would feel less frequent.

One thing is clear tho, the people who do that are jackasses.

Well, I agree with what monstermunch said, and it might apply to you aswell. Maybe we look the same as our peers, and so we get looks because people think we're somebody else who they know. Actually, after reading monstermunch's post, I can remember back to a moment where I was in a supermarket with my cousin, and he saw a woman who looked like his mum, and he whispered to me, ''I thought that was my mum'', and I looked at the woman aswell and she did look like his mum and I had a natural instinct to go and say hello to her but then remembered my cousin saying ''I thought she was my mum'' meaning she just looks like his mum but is not really his mum, so I kind of found myself staring for a few seconds (which is not what I normally do), and then I looked at my cousin and grinned at him. But we wasn't laughing about the woman personally, we were just laughing at the situation. And she might have saw us staring and laughing and might have took it the wrong way, just like I did today in the supermarket.

I have just changed my hairstyle, and now it's that common hairstyle what a lot of young females have, so I think that probably does encourage more looks because people probably mistake me for another young female. Even my mum once said, ''oh I keep seeing girls that look like my neice'', because her neice does have a common hairstyle. So perhaps we get looks from other people because we get mistaken for other people, which is quite a compliment because that must mean that we can't look much different to others of our ages. I know the looks people give us can seem unfriendly, but maybe they look unfriendly through the paranoid eye.

Here is an idea. If you can, why don't you take some photos of yourself and post them in the members only section? That way you could ask the members here if there is anything that would attract stares. Also you mentioned before that you thought you may walk or sound odd, so if you could get someone to video you walking around and maybe talking to the camera and post that on youtube and then a link to it in members on, maybe someone here could tell you if they thought there was a reason to stare or if anything about you attracted attention.

I know there are a lot of photo and video threads, but you could post that there in a thread asking what people think, and maybe someone will have an answer, or if nothing else you can get some reassurance.

Well I know there isn't anything different in the way I walk. But I have a true friend who will give me honest feedback if there was anything that will make others ridicule me, and she always says I look really nice, and I know she's quite good with looks because she always looks nice herself, and she is in fact a hairdresser so she has lots of tips on how to have my hair and keep it looking nice, and she even told me that having your hair in a nice style can give off a more positive impression of yourself.
Also I do not need to work on my posture because I do stand up straight, I don't hunch my shoulders or look nervous in other ways, and I keep my hands down by my sides. I used to walk with my head down and back hunched, but now as I've got older I've improved on that.

So I think it is how I sound, although I didn't think I sounded that ret*d. I know a bus-driver who has a condition which affects the way she talks, she talks slow and can't pronounce words right, but I personally wouldn't want to laugh or stare. She's a really nice person.

I quite like what you said about filming myself. I will see what I can do.

I don't have one. I also don't have a chi, a soul, or any chakras, and I don't remember any past lives or encounters with angels, demons, ghosts or aliens. I'm just a plain boring mammal that is firmly grounded in reality.