Feeling unloved? Vent it here.

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Vent. Yeah, always been like this. Usually I try to distract myself with my interests & activities, though. Still, can't help but wonder what it's like to be loved, whether it might make life more, well, worth it.

Well, if anyone cares to read, here's my story:

It seems like for the entirety of my life I've always been stepped on by other people, which include my family. My father disowned me and my siblings 5 years ago for us 'not worth his time anymore' after kicking us out of his home in 1999. I am a joke it seems to my family. My mom has horrible mood swings and has called me worthless not too long ago. My older sister hates my guts and hopes I one day croak. My youngest sister is starting to feel the same way. My brother doesn't know any better and my middle sister is as flip floppy as my mom. They all make me feel like I'm nothing more than an inconvenience, even though I help pay bills and try to help support us. They even turb around and say I do nothing to support the family, even though I do wheb I can with a minimum wage job.

I can't keep a girl to save my life either. It seems as though all I run into is chicks with extreme problems that even electrotherapy can't cure. Why is it so difficult to fibd one that won't behead me while I sleep? I mean seriously!

I rarely see my friends anymore either. They are either busy with things like work or school or they are not up to hanging out. It kills me to stay where I am and to go to work to deal with drunk college kids and can't hang out with anyone. It's depressing... Some days I'm even lucky to get out of bed in the morning I get this low. I just want to feel loved and they actually mean it, y'know?

I just... ugh!

Sometimes I've had days like this.......

I'm loved by my own children but beyond that I have no one that loves me.

It's terribly painful. I think if we are loved, everything else in life has a better chance of working out. I'm just really depressed. Too much going on.

Ok peoples, hugs for everybody.

Everyone is worthy. You cant always have what you want. Some people just dont get it. Ya cant change them. But you yourself are special. You have a talent that no one else has. And i bet that talent is pretty cool.

This isn't really much of a rant but I feel happy to finally recognize that my mom didn't love me because she is narcissistic. It's much easier to recognize this and research mothers with NPD than trying to compete with my siblings for her conditional attention and love by fitting her expectations of a perfect daughter. This has taken me many years of confusion and hurt, attempts to repair our relationship and even a couple of years after leaving home for good. I hope to continue to objectify this so that I don't internalize the hurt which makes me feel worthless and unloved (my usual feelings when thinking about her). I'm posting this to remind myself of it.

Me too. It comes and sometimes never goes away. I just feel so empty, and how do I live like this? I don't know. I don't know. Feeling so empty I don't even have the tears to cry. Sometimes I just want to be held. Not by my mom, but by a girl my age who loves me for who I am, even if that means loving a broken person at the bottom of the social ladder, which only seems to happen in the movies.

Today is one of those days. I hate myself.

YEEEEEEEEEAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRGGGGGHHHHHHH!

Thank you.

I feel as loved as the iksar outside of WP http://old.eqcircle.com/iksar/index.htm

here

Here again its like I swallowed the stress down so long I cant exhale it no more.

First off, hugs to my fellow WP'ers.

I know my boys love me but they're not allowed to see me.

I feel like I'm dying... I miss my boys so much by chest is crushed... and I miss the love of a beloved wife I had many years ago... This is supposed to be a fun, happy time with the warm, loving glow of my wife and children.

She doesn't want me... I'm not good enough. Apparently not good enough for anyone else I've met in the last year either.

Not good enough. Big loser. *sigh* I feel like I have so much to offer but no one wants it... like a bar of gold that's covered in mud. Dammit - I'm good! I'm valuable! Why doesn't anyone want me??

I agree. I also feel the same way BlueMax does right now.

Hey, I'm here to help people the best I can. No problem there.

Today, I feel like everyone in the world is in love, and I am not.