17 Nov 2013, 11:01 am
Cavernio, I found your view on productivity and jobs quite enlightening. To be honest, I never considered the idea that there aren't enough jobs because we don't need them, and it sounds so logical! Where I live there is an especially great shortage of jobs. However, it isn't completely true that they are not needed - there is a shortage of care workers for elderly and disabled people, for instance, and yet there are no jobs for such care workers, because there is no money to pay them. 
But that is a different matter.
I do work 3 hours a week for a person with a chronic illness. That went well initially, but now a problem has come up that I don't know how to handle. I may post a question about that on this forum too, actually. But problems or not, 3 hours a week does not create financial independence.
As for physical problems - I think a lot of mine are caused by the depression. Not my joint problems, though, that's because I have hypermobility in my joints and that is now starting to take its toll. Not a lot I can do against that, but it compromises my ability to do hard physical work.
And thank you for saying that I can give up. I had originally meant give up on life, but I like the idea of giving up on achieving a financially productive life. I don't think I'm ready to give up on that idea, but it somehow seems less urgent, and I think I do better with less pressure and demands anyway. It seems to be that most people think people need to be pushed or pressured into doing things, but I think I don't work like that; when pushed or pressured I only panic.
Anyway, I have decided to withdraw from the two social/hobby groups I was part of. They met in real life and on Facebook, and I have left the facebook groups and decided to not go to meetings anymore, and funnily, doing that already makes me feel better. Interacting with so many people is like permanently playing a very fast shooter game on the computer. I constantly have to pay attention to so many things at the same time, and there are more than I can handle, and a lot of hidden things too. Only a shooter game ends within minutes (or seconds if it's particularly hard. :p) and socialising in groups goes on and on and on for weeks and months, and it's worse than playing a game because you never know how you are doing. You get no points or nothing to keep track. It's way too stressful.
I'm just staying in the house and the garden as much as I can, and I think that will make me feel better soon. Like I wrote, it already does.
