I'm feeling suicidal.

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I do not think we should have changed the name of this post.

If we want to remove certain posts about methods, okay, alright, that's one thing. But not the title. In my own experience, depression and thoughts of suicide is a swirl of a whole bunch of things, including probably biochem, and including the philosophic and existential. The discussion of whether suicide is rational in some circumstances, I think is a discussion worth having.

Almost all the time, I'm going to try to pitch better alternatives in a direct and respectful way.

It makes me feel a bit sad this thread.

I just hope the op's safe and well.

There's nothing much I can really say.

Makes me feel sad too but I have felt how the OP feels.

Your parents are horrible. So are mine. Try to find a way to escape from them. Don't expect their support as they will never give it.
If you can hang on do it. Do you have any animal companions? If so, hang on for them.

I've thrown this thought out of my head, at least for now. When I actually started planning it, I realized how much I did not want to die, regardless of whatever might be happening with me. Because once I take that extreme step, I will never know what could have been, everything could have been different, and as the saying goes, everything is possible. I could become a sociopath with 10 million friends for all I know(actually, becoming a sociopath is a new special interest).
Having not killed myself, there's so much I can do now, I can literally turn my life around. And I'll do just that.
Thanks everyone for caring and helping me, and especially for not giving me any useful advice for my initial request(I was looking for a method to kill myself) when I was at my peak and would have actually gone ahead and used that advice.

It's nice to hear from you. You are right enough, you don't know what is to come.

Life has it's twists and turns. Sometimes it is absolutely shite but every now and then something good comes along.

Keep going forward.

I wish you all the best.

bb

Be strong and pull yourself thru this bad time. Better times are ahead.

I am so genuinely sorry that you're going through all of this. I also come from an abusive home. You have to take that into consideration, that this is abuse, and that is how abuse effects the victim's psyche. You are not alone, and how you have developed due to their verbal abuse is not your fault. Still, it's incredibly hard to live with (to say the least), but it is possible for you to reclaim your life from them. That guilt, and feeling that low about yourself, and really feeling like nothing will change, that's not you, that's them. Really! I know that can be hard to see when you're the one being abused. Your parents sound toxic. My advice would be to get yourself away from them as soon as possible. Do you have a therapist? Have you told your therapist about their behaviour? Do you have at least one person in your life who you can trust enough to divulge this information to? Finding support could really help. I don't know how old you are, just get away from them whenever you can. If you don't live with them, don't visit them anymore, and don't talk to them. If you still live with them, build a plan to get your life (or your mentality) on track and make a way to get out of there, if you can. And I don't mean by suicide. It's a tragic waste to think that you could dispose of yourself because of their sick heads. You sound like a very important and interesting person.

I'm saying this to you after having a completely horrible day yesterday, for a good portion of yesterday, I was honestly very suicidal. My situation is completely different from yours, but I feel for you.

I think it's time for you to learn to stand up for yourself. Just because your parents reacted illogically and mean towards you, doesn't mean they have the right to do so. We shouldn't accept the wrong attack from parents and you should boldly tell them to stop their verbal abuse.

Congratulations on your achievement! Feel happy for you. Good chances that you'll have much brighter future than your parents and maybe why they are jealous. It is not worth it to give up your life/happiness because of the mean verbal attack from people (even though they are parents.) You are responsible for your own life and you can choose to live happily.