BuyerBeware wrote:
Sympathies. Risperdal made me borderline catatonic, psychotic (I believed that people could tell I had Asperger's just by looking at me and would therefore call the authorities, take my kids away, and have me locked up if I went out in public, which I am told qualifies as a delusion), and non-functional. Can't say if it was the drug or living with all of that that made me want to die.
I got the same lift from Prozac (at least for a little while). It did not make problems go away, but it did make it easier to save my outrage for the therapist and keep smiling at the as*holes.
I really miss mirtazapine. Take one of those, wait 45 minutes, go to bed. SLEEP. Get up in the morning and not really remember what it's like to experience deep feelings of anxiety-make-that-terror. Had to quit 'cause I got knocked up, though, and really can't go back to taking it as they say it's for short-term use in digging you out of a deep, dark hole as it has a tendency to some really unpleasant side effects if used long-term.
Still, it had about the same soothing effect as cannabis, except that it lasted longer, made me less stupid, and wasn't illegal.
You're in CO, though, so you don't have the illegal problem any more...
I didn't have any luck with prozac...did take mirtazapine for a while, prescribed as a sleep aid the doctor didn't really tell me its also an anti-depressant, but either way didn't notice much from that and it didn't really help me sleep too much. As for cannabis, that has probably honestly got me through some bad times....I mean if I am on the verge of really considering suicide and acting on it that will help me think more rationally and just mellow out and forget about the whole thing for a bit till I don't even have motivation to follow through anymore. Never gotten much of a stupid effect from cannabis....slows things down though.
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15 Jul 2014, 8:08 pm
