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There's a chair here for all but the most intolerant and hateful of people (i.e. people who repeatedly state that we are animals who should be murdered).

Thankyou for the replies. I feel I should reply to each rather than simply carry on on my own rant.

KBABZ-Do you mean being abused as in abuse in my past or as in verbal abuse on here?

Shadexiii- Even as a child, my response to things that made me feel bad, was to smash things or to simply scream and cry. Now, I engage in the same behaviours still, although screaming is rare... I am more likely to make animal like noises when in utter misery...I also engage in self harm. If there is nothing suitable to break or throw or the pain is extreme, I more often hit myself, and little restraint is used as I do get very angry. I don't really wish to mention it to my gp given I am awaiting assessment for AS in case he takes this to mean I must have something else instead lol. I do not know how others with AS react to their pain/anger/strong emotions?

Inventor-I find your style of writing akin to spiritual teachers I have come across before...there is something almost Native American in their wisdom, if that makes sense? That is not to say no other race is wise, but that those of the Native American tribes seem to have this innate, natural, nature-based wisdom about them. I find it comforting, and the way you view the difficulties of AS comforting.

Alexander-If I truly believed in reincarnation, I would, and I do actually often ask what I did in my other lives that was so bad that I get so much in this life. I then wonder...am I being given back what I give out immediately, and maybe that is why it is so bad? Thus, if I am angry and unpleasant to a stranger on the street, maybe I immediately find someone else is in turn nasty to me? Sounds a little illogical,but I do sometimes wonder about that.

Ahayes-I am sorry you are feeling bad too.

Starr- I am always trying to find a way that I have enough self value to not rely on how others treat me for my sense of self worth. I do not know if other Aspie have this issue, but the more socially isolated I am, the more non existent I can feel. Yet, the more social contact I have, the more I need to escape to my own world. That is a paradox I am finding it hard to deal with. I have come to a point where I have given up even trying to make contact with others because the last person I spoke to on a regular basis, took offence at something I said and proceeded to tell others in her workplace, who proceeded to label me a 'menace'. The result is that I became very angry and am only just calming down a bit and not snapping at every stranger who attempts to say something to me. No matter how much I tell myself that another person's opinion isn't who I am, I seem to just take it on board. I read something where I am criticised or called something nasty, I get almost a physical pain in my chest. And I hate the fact I am inwardly so sensitive to such things. I want to be hard skinned and not care at all what others think of me.

Krex-thankyou. I think after a lifetime of finding you do not fit in, you expect to not find anywhere to fit in or to at least be accepted and not disliked? I got used to being on forum boards where I would post a topic and find that no-one replied, and the result was an intense feeling of not being wanted or liked. I am always amazed now when I do get replies to any of my topics as I have so come to expect to find no one relates or is interested at all. The domino effect is very apt, yes. Everything connects. One thing can remind one of every similar thing in the past. One name calling can remind you of all the other names you have been called. People seem to have this innate knowing where they know how best to hurt someone by attacking the points at which they are most vulnerable.

I think you belong on WP.

I second this motion!

I love all LOTR fans!

I second this motion as well! (that is if I am correct in assuming LOTR was an acronym for Lord of the Rings).

Yep!:D

Of course you belong on here. What those two trolls said was pure rubbish. Most people listen to what you say on here. The trolls are just victimising WP members for an ego boost. Most other arguments on WP are petty disagreements, blown out of proportion.

Of course you belong on here. What those two trolls said was pure rubbish. Most people listen to what you say on here. The trolls are just victimising WP members for an ego boost. Most other arguments on WP are petty disagreements, blown out of proportion.

Of course you belong on here. What those two trolls said was pure rubbish. Most people listen to what you say on here. The trolls are just victimising WP members for an ego boost. Most other arguments on WP are petty disagreements, blown out of proportion.

I second this. Don't let them get you down, Graelwyn! You are better than them.

I third that