Tried to kill myself but failed

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Please, please, please don't hurt yourself. I know things can get hard, but we all are here to support you

He's already gone...

He's on the last page!

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"Standing on a well-chilled cinder, we see the fading of the suns, and try to recall the vanished brilliance of the origin of the worlds."
-Georges Lemaitre
"I fly through hyperspace, in my green computer interface"
-Gem Tos

He'll be back.

Come back to us please, Kyle. We are always here for you even if no one in real life is at this point in time.

This isn't a good time of year to be alone. Go somewhere, even if its just for a movie or a cup of coffee at a nearby bistro.

The longer he is gone, the more I worry he went through with it.

Does anyone have a suicide hotline that he might call?

Anyway Kyle you are only 21 years old you have a long way to go.

I've never liked being told how young I was by older people. It sounded like I had no reason to stop wasting the rest of my life, and, therefore, like it was morally reprehensible for me to try.

I wish I saw this earlier... I've been in your shoes before not even a year ago but I know that things get better. I have a job now with friends there and I'm meeting a potential date in a few days who seems interested in me. Life is full of ups and downs... I promise whatever you're going through is temporary. I do hope I'm not too late in telling you this though.

I don't believe it's physically possible to be too late. In the grand scale of everything we inhabit, we're all closer than we usually acknowledge, alive or otherwise.

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"Standing on a well-chilled cinder, we see the fading of the suns, and try to recall the vanished brilliance of the origin of the worlds."
-Georges Lemaitre
"I fly through hyperspace, in my green computer interface"
-Gem Tos

Dear DeepHour,

Wow, I had not seen that.....

You are amazingly perceptive.

I hope he's okay. The fact that he hasn't revisited this thread since his original post worries me too.

Most people are "deep" once in a while.

Deep Hour is "deep"--hourly!

I wish the OP would answer us.

Hey, I'm still around.

My suicide attempts failed.

Basically I tried partial suspension hanging but couldn't get myself anywhere near unconsciousness. At first I put the rope at the back, then at the side, then at the front. No matter what I do I can't compress that goddamn carotid artery. I even tried dangling a weight(18 kg) from my neck, but no luck.

I could go directly for full suspension and it would do the job, but it's too painful an approach for an aspie with heightened pain sensitivity, ouch! I can't possibly imagine the agony of trashing around, gasping for air, as the rope strangles me to death. Ugh.

So, I've come up with a method that involves no pain or agony: buying a cylinder filled with natural gas(available at a nearby petrol station), taking it with me in a small sealed space and releasing the valve. I will just have to put up with the smell for a while as the gas asphyxiates me, then I will pass out and die.

But before I do that, I might have found something to live for so I'll continue to linger for now. Gonna post about it in another section.