Oh Grimbling... you make me sad when you talk like this. Listen...it can be hard to live in the body you're given sometimes. Me, I came out with no right arm past mid forearm. Living with that through k-12 was living hell. being the brunt of jokes all the time, always feeling inadequate, it got hard.
but...Dammit you have to look at the good too. you just have to try to enjoy everything there is good in your life; the clear blue sky days, the one with hints of breeze that barely move your hair. you can't give up, especially on yourself. you can't say, i would give up everything that was me to have friends. what kind of victory is that? the emptyheaded nt's do the samething, and yay they get emptyheaded friends like. god if anything turn to us! alt of us understand what you are talking about. just don't give up okay?