Very true, never like to preach, but...if it has happened once to this degree, it has a habit of repeating itself. I worried about talking about it openly with my doctor at first. When he would ask me if I was having thoughts about it, I felt a need to go into a long explanation. They know it isn't an uncommon thought in most everybody to some degree, that most everybody has wondered about it and the thoughts are gone almost as fast as they came. There is some variance in that last sentance, everybody a little different. Then there are the times, like I descibed about me, it came, it came hard and wasn't going to leave. That one even scared me. He was concerned about it and we reacted to it in the manner it needed to be, we changed the med dose. The fact remains, he didn't think I was loony and to be commited or some thing. It was ok to go to him about, actually did it over the phone in that case. The point is this, it came, it was serious and it may come again, without being needed. The med should do the trick, if it doesn't, it needs to be discussed. Yours didn't appear to work, from my distance. Thats my not so humble 2 cents.
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