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22 Sep 2016, 6:53 pm

kraftiekortie wrote:
Are you still on WP, DCJ?


Yeah I am around,

I am always on Wrong Planet and 4chan on one of my many monitors but I was busy playing with lua.

I love the concept of tinting windows managers but I hate them in practice. I like code but sometimes clicking on stuff is nice, I wish someone made sorta of a trade off between the two however if I keep working at it that person might be me.

Thanks kraftiekortie and B19, I don't know what to say.

My unfiltered thoughts though is I am surprised a mod replied, you guys tend to ignore me even in the very few cases that you guys delete my poor judgements. I can't help but wonder if you guys do that purposefully because you know I hate authority.



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22 Sep 2016, 6:54 pm

I think the Mods know that you have a good heart underneath it all.

Thanks for responding, Sir.



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22 Sep 2016, 6:58 pm

I can reassure you that mods are quite sympathetic to members in distress, we are also ordinary members and respond to all sorts of threads. I had never noticed that you hate authority, and perhaps you have good reasons from past experience for doing so, possibly betrayals at vulnerable stages of your life.



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22 Sep 2016, 7:05 pm

B19 wrote:
OP, if you are invalidating yourself so much then you must have experienced severe past invalidation from others, this kind of self-beat-up rarely happens without some toxic previous experiences. And perhaps your experience of being targeted by invalidators and the ongoing impact on you has not yet been heard, nor validated, by others. It is very hard to begin healing until this happens with at least one trustworthy person who really listens, who gets it, and who cares. I am sure plenty of people here really do care.


Just using logic I can see my feelings are invalid and those around me are valid. You can't expect people to like when you treat them like s**t. On the surface I appear very abused but people have treated me within reason, I would tell someone to get f****d too if they acted like me.



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22 Sep 2016, 7:09 pm

B19 wrote:
I can reassure you that mods are quite sympathetic to members in distress, we are also ordinary members and respond to all sorts of threads. I had never noticed that you hate authority, and perhaps you have good reasons from past experience for doing so, possibly betrayals at vulnerable stages of your life.


Well I am a realist, I respect authority that is fair. I don't tend to show anger towards mods here cause you guys seem fair so that might be why. Plus I've considered that even if I was a problem, I am sure its crossed you guy's minds that no ban would ever stop me from accessing something if I really wanted too. For the most part I don't mean to cause harm here though so there is that I guess.



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22 Sep 2016, 7:15 pm

Who's that on your avatar?

You should go out and get some chicken and French fries or something.



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22 Sep 2016, 7:26 pm

kraftiekortie wrote:
Who's that on your avatar?


Lisbeth Salander from The Girl with the Dragon Tattoo.

Do not watch The Girl with the Dragon Tattoo, watch Män som hatar kvinnor instead with English dubs. Subtitles are inaccurate, also the original is probably about as X rated as X rated is going to get. Män som hatar kvinnor depicts extreme sexual violence so watch at your own risk, its on Netflix but its probably censored. Redbox had the DVD which I got and never returned it, they charged me for it but I didn't care, there was no way I was returning the disc.



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22 Sep 2016, 7:28 pm

Ever see the movie called "In The Realm of the Senses?"



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22 Sep 2016, 7:39 pm

kraftiekortie wrote:
Ever see the movie called "In The Realm of the Senses?"


I can't say I have but I am looking at it now,

If you want to continue this conversation in real time then brb, I am going to make a sub in my kitchen, also lol leave my apartment? Nice joke,



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22 Sep 2016, 7:41 pm

In New York, you're making a "hero" sandwich.



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22 Sep 2016, 7:59 pm

This is a possibility,

Maybe I was hurt and being autistic I didn't know how to seek validation and sought validation in inappropriate ways which lead to invalidation. Maybe I over shared in some settings. I don't know just a thought but its still my mistake and makes me a bad person.



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22 Sep 2016, 8:03 pm

dcj123 wrote:
This is a possibility,

Maybe I was hurt and being autistic I didn't know how to seek validation and sought validation in inappropriate ways which lead to invalidation. Maybe I over shared in some settings. I don't know just a thought but its still my mistake and makes me a bad person.


Socially anyway...



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22 Sep 2016, 8:10 pm

That seems plausible.



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22 Sep 2016, 8:15 pm

LOL I just noticed the thread that says you must read before posting here only has 1000 views... :lol:



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22 Sep 2016, 8:17 pm

The thread that "you must read before posting" is just common sense.



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22 Sep 2016, 8:28 pm

I wonder if its every a "right" thing for a pastor to do to remove someone from church.