ya meltdown never is "right" state of mind. it so happens. u got it better now, good for that.
and ya autistic are about 7%, totally not 20% anywhere (unless its a guild somewhere in a game, made for nd ppl. like by me xD then we might have more than 20% autists, plus other situations, ya). so, we are an elaborate minority, and our needs are, very sadly, under-advertized. i do what i can to educate ppl i meet on that stuff. to make at least 1 pocket of cyberspace more nd-friendly. i can only be as real as i can. and yes, i also can meltdown, and mine are frequent and violent. some people know how to deal with it, how to even stop me. some people can never forgive me, having seen just a pre-phase just once. f**k those people. point is, without mass education nobody can f*****g guess. they see a shy, compliant and clearly insecure person and they think they can push that around. and are never ready for a violent reaction. even if warned, some cases. and it will never end before they are not taught at school, or better kindersgarten, what autism really means. which hardly gonna happen in this century
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sanity is a prison. insanity is doom. is there a third option, please?
beware the ire of the patient ones!
and if i walk away, who is gonna stay? i believe to make the world be a better place.