I wish I was not as caring as I am...

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CollegeGirlAnon
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13 Feb 2021, 11:24 pm

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I don't really have any advice but I have PTSD due to a girl at my school getting shot during a lockdown, because a guy with a gun came in the school(not a student just some random person with some issues). I didn't see that part, I wasn't in that classroom but the lockdown was traumatic enough. Not the same as a break in but for certain I was not sure i'd make it out alive.

I guess I'd say try not to be too hard on yourself it sounds like its a very stressful situation and you haven't been able to get away from it its very understandable that makes it hard to function. I hope your social workers can help get you out of that place, it may be easier to heal from once your out of that environment.

PTSD really is unfair, as if the actual trauma of a thing is not bad enough...it is frustrating, but it's possible to manage just not sure it truly goes away entirely.


I am healing quite well actually.

And I am hesitant to say much online but things are looking up...but I am not letting my guard down at the same time!!

Thank you!!


I am glad to hear that...but yeah just things like the not letting your guard down seem to kinda persist. I have to sit in the back of movie theaters to feel comfortable so nothing is behind me and I can see everything in front of me. I mean on one hand it is presumably a symptom for ptsd, but on the other-hand if something crazy happens again I feel maybe it would come in handy.


When I am out of where I live I will work on letting my guard down.

I simply feel now is not the time.


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13 Feb 2021, 11:32 pm

CollegeGirlAnon wrote:
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CollegeGirlAnon wrote:
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CollegeGirlAnon wrote:
Like, almost no one cares about me and how I am doing after I had a shooting/break in at my f*****g apartment.

Some moron broke in with his sheer body strength and like...god.

And apparently I live in an apartment building with drug dealers and it’s supposed to be an apartment building for vulnerable adults.

It’s almost like everyone sensed I was vulnerable after this too and I got way too many messages from creeps. And my stupid ass told them s**t I should not have.....about my crush.

Like I just hate myself now.

I have no money to f*****g move, I have PTSD that is too f*****g intense to work, and I am basically being ruined by staying in this apartment.

And the morons who did this shooting are still here. Because Minnesota won’t f*****g evict them because of COVID. Oh, and they also harassed me constantly this year. I feel dirty. Like I don’t buy from them and I basically just want to be left alone.

I basically just want to be safe. But no, I can’t have that.

I hate my life now.

(please, unless have dealt with something like this don’t push advice)


Well, I have been seriously gang-stalked for about 25 years.
I think I qualify in having PTSD, also.

Not a great deal of advice comes to mind, unfortunately, apart from focusing on your emotional stability.
I suggest you stay off any form of caffeine, which includes chocolate, as well as recreational drugs.
Anything that heightens your emotions is bad for you.
Exercise helps with anxiety.

I am old enough to be your father, btw.


I don’t care about your age.

I can regulate my substance use myself and if I need help I will go to a medical professional in real life.

Thank you.


You are welcome? 8O

I mentioned my age so you knew I wasn't going to hit on you.
Not to say I know more than you. :mrgreen:


I simply have some boundaries on things. I have reasons for it.

And age does not matter much to me with boundaries and men.


I hope I didn't offend you.
My apologies if I did.



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13 Feb 2021, 11:59 pm

Pepe wrote:
CollegeGirlAnon wrote:
Pepe wrote:
CollegeGirlAnon wrote:
Pepe wrote:
CollegeGirlAnon wrote:
Like, almost no one cares about me and how I am doing after I had a shooting/break in at my f*****g apartment.

Some moron broke in with his sheer body strength and like...god.

And apparently I live in an apartment building with drug dealers and it’s supposed to be an apartment building for vulnerable adults.

It’s almost like everyone sensed I was vulnerable after this too and I got way too many messages from creeps. And my stupid ass told them s**t I should not have.....about my crush.

Like I just hate myself now.

I have no money to f*****g move, I have PTSD that is too f*****g intense to work, and I am basically being ruined by staying in this apartment.

And the morons who did this shooting are still here. Because Minnesota won’t f*****g evict them because of COVID. Oh, and they also harassed me constantly this year. I feel dirty. Like I don’t buy from them and I basically just want to be left alone.

I basically just want to be safe. But no, I can’t have that.

I hate my life now.

(please, unless have dealt with something like this don’t push advice)


Well, I have been seriously gang-stalked for about 25 years.
I think I qualify in having PTSD, also.

Not a great deal of advice comes to mind, unfortunately, apart from focusing on your emotional stability.
I suggest you stay off any form of caffeine, which includes chocolate, as well as recreational drugs.
Anything that heightens your emotions is bad for you.
Exercise helps with anxiety.

I am old enough to be your father, btw.


I don’t care about your age.

I can regulate my substance use myself and if I need help I will go to a medical professional in real life.

Thank you.


You are welcome? 8O

I mentioned my age so you knew I wasn't going to hit on you.
Not to say I know more than you. :mrgreen:


I simply have some boundaries on things. I have reasons for it.

And age does not matter much to me with boundaries and men.


I hope I didn't offend you.
My apologies if I did.


You didn’t that much.

I just directly assert my boundaries on some topics!!

I hope that’s ok!!


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14 Feb 2021, 1:29 am

CollegeGirlAnon wrote:
Pepe wrote:
CollegeGirlAnon wrote:
Pepe wrote:
CollegeGirlAnon wrote:
Pepe wrote:
CollegeGirlAnon wrote:
Like, almost no one cares about me and how I am doing after I had a shooting/break in at my f*****g apartment.

Some moron broke in with his sheer body strength and like...god.

And apparently I live in an apartment building with drug dealers and it’s supposed to be an apartment building for vulnerable adults.

It’s almost like everyone sensed I was vulnerable after this too and I got way too many messages from creeps. And my stupid ass told them s**t I should not have.....about my crush.

Like I just hate myself now.

I have no money to f*****g move, I have PTSD that is too f*****g intense to work, and I am basically being ruined by staying in this apartment.

And the morons who did this shooting are still here. Because Minnesota won’t f*****g evict them because of COVID. Oh, and they also harassed me constantly this year. I feel dirty. Like I don’t buy from them and I basically just want to be left alone.

I basically just want to be safe. But no, I can’t have that.

I hate my life now.

(please, unless have dealt with something like this don’t push advice)


Well, I have been seriously gang-stalked for about 25 years.
I think I qualify in having PTSD, also.

Not a great deal of advice comes to mind, unfortunately, apart from focusing on your emotional stability.
I suggest you stay off any form of caffeine, which includes chocolate, as well as recreational drugs.
Anything that heightens your emotions is bad for you.
Exercise helps with anxiety.

I am old enough to be your father, btw.


I don’t care about your age.

I can regulate my substance use myself and if I need help I will go to a medical professional in real life.

Thank you.


You are welcome? 8O

I mentioned my age so you knew I wasn't going to hit on you.
Not to say I know more than you. :mrgreen:


I simply have some boundaries on things. I have reasons for it.

And age does not matter much to me with boundaries and men.


I hope I didn't offend you.
My apologies if I did.


You didn’t that much.

I just directly assert my boundaries on some topics!!

I hope that’s ok!!


I am very relieved.
I truly wish you all the best.



CollegeGirlAnon
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14 Feb 2021, 11:46 am

Pepe wrote:
CollegeGirlAnon wrote:
Pepe wrote:
CollegeGirlAnon wrote:
Pepe wrote:
CollegeGirlAnon wrote:
Pepe wrote:
CollegeGirlAnon wrote:
Like, almost no one cares about me and how I am doing after I had a shooting/break in at my f*****g apartment.

Some moron broke in with his sheer body strength and like...god.

And apparently I live in an apartment building with drug dealers and it’s supposed to be an apartment building for vulnerable adults.

It’s almost like everyone sensed I was vulnerable after this too and I got way too many messages from creeps. And my stupid ass told them s**t I should not have.....about my crush.

Like I just hate myself now.

I have no money to f*****g move, I have PTSD that is too f*****g intense to work, and I am basically being ruined by staying in this apartment.

And the morons who did this shooting are still here. Because Minnesota won’t f*****g evict them because of COVID. Oh, and they also harassed me constantly this year. I feel dirty. Like I don’t buy from them and I basically just want to be left alone.

I basically just want to be safe. But no, I can’t have that.

I hate my life now.

(please, unless have dealt with something like this don’t push advice)


Well, I have been seriously gang-stalked for about 25 years.
I think I qualify in having PTSD, also.

Not a great deal of advice comes to mind, unfortunately, apart from focusing on your emotional stability.
I suggest you stay off any form of caffeine, which includes chocolate, as well as recreational drugs.
Anything that heightens your emotions is bad for you.
Exercise helps with anxiety.

I am old enough to be your father, btw.


I don’t care about your age.

I can regulate my substance use myself and if I need help I will go to a medical professional in real life.

Thank you.


You are welcome? 8O

I mentioned my age so you knew I wasn't going to hit on you.
Not to say I know more than you. :mrgreen:


I simply have some boundaries on things. I have reasons for it.

And age does not matter much to me with boundaries and men.


I hope I didn't offend you.
My apologies if I did.


You didn’t that much.

I just directly assert my boundaries on some topics!!

I hope that’s ok!!


I am very relieved.
I truly wish you all the best.


No problem!!

I just don’t take advice on substances off here.

But thank you so much!!


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TriPM Score (Taken 05/22/2021):
103 out of 174 points (99th percentile)

ADHD & ASD diagnosis made in childhood.