Are you happy with your life?

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Could be better but could be a hell of a lot worse. When I am at home by myself, I am happy, at work not so much.

I should probably be okay but I'm not. The last two years have been the most painful of my life. Now things are better for me, but I'm still struggling, still in pain, and don't see ever having a way out.

But reading this thread and thinking about my reply made me consider that I am actually fairly lucky, but I just can't shake the sadness and pain.

I'm never able to find or experience "happy" the definition and experience has escaped me so far. At this old age and almost 7 years after finally discovering my autism ( I am 72 right now) I think I have enough understanding of my past and my own struggles and strengths and have made enough adjustments in my life to feel safe and experience periods of peace these days. considering the trauma, and sordid things of my past, I suspect this is the best I can do. That's OK, peace, safety, and feeling sometimes content is more than I dreamed of in the nightmare years of childhood, youth and the "working years". Grateful for having found diagnosis even at this late stage of my life. It is indescribable what a difference in self understanding and understanding all the struggles of my entire life to this point that diagnosis has given me. Autism was the answer to almost all the "whys" of my life. What a relief!

No.

It could be a lot worse, but I've hit a stage where I really need to move forwards in my life. The longer I stay in this state, the trickier it will be to progress. A common misconception is that I'm simply not trying but this is far from the truth. I'm attending interviews practically every other week. Thankfully, I've now passed my driving theory test. At least that's something.

I really want to move out and have a place of my own. So, I'm working towards that goal... but it does just feel like I'm rearranging the deck chairs on the Titanic sometimes. However, I'm also trying to not take life so seriously and find joy in the small everyday things.

Anyway, I have to go prepare for another interview.

TwilightPrincess: What do think was the major root cause of your unhappiness? Is it one thing or multiple things?

As for myself, No I'm currently not happy with my life. I'm almost 30 correcting or figuring out all of my financial, career, and relationship failures. The possibly of having Asperger's and finding out late might play a role in all of it. However I'm not going to fully use it as an excuse for my mistakes. It was all still me. My goals are now either massively delayed or simply unreachable. Hopefully things turn around for the better, at the same time the sadness has set it and probably won't go away for a long time.

My issue is mostly related to experiencing a lot of major trauma and having PTSD because of it. We all have unique struggles, though. So many things can hinder progress. I hope that things improve for you and that you can achieve some of the things you’d like to. I think it’s often really hard to figure life stuff out when you’re on the spectrum.

In the past week I've realised I'm not happy at all.

Yes, on the 9th and 10th.

I keep thinking I'm over it but I'm not.
It keeps coming back, and the ramifications keep growing.

I don't even know what the emotion is.
It's shame (if the person was right), or anger (if the person was wrong).
I go back and forth.

Mostly I feel incredulous.

i still look forwards to heaven, no more earthly worries or aches and pains and stiffness and travails.

Yeah, it was kind of like that.
Everything I thought and understood turned on a dime.
Now I don't know what to think.

I'm sorry it happened to you too.