What's the biggest disappointment in your life?

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Well, you can always go back, right?


Username88, I don't even know exactly what caused my horrible depression.

i was a disappointment to my parents, teachers and employers too.

i have learnt to enjoy disappointing people, it's the only way to go with this stuff.

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Going back to school to earn my degree, thinking that I would earn more money and have a better lifestyle, and then getting too sick too work and ending up poor all over again.

Been there. I was sure after the first bout that it would never happen again; turned around and it happened all over again. I was more exasperated than anything else.

Biggest dissapointment? My inability to rid myself of this blasted inferiority complex. I now fully realize that I deserve better than this, that I am superior to 9 out of 10 people in terms of intellectual and physical ability, and that the only thing holding me back is myself.

However, I still have this thing in my head, this infection, this parasite, that compels me to suffer like a monk every waking moment of my life. I complain about injustice while I deny myself food. I whine about not having friends when all I ever do is push people away from me. I wonder why I can't find a girlfriend when I go out of my way to make myself less attractive to women. Why do I do this? Why have I always done this? Why can't I free myself from this self-contained hell? Why can't I ever have fun without feeling guilty about it? Why must I always feel like I am unfit to be looked upon when I recieve nothing but positive compliments about my looks? WHY?

I just really hope I figure myself out some day. I don't think I can ever be happy until then, when I learn to stop handicapping myself.

Don't blame yourself for your father's alcoholism and definitely don't blame yourself for any abuse you suffered from him. No child deserves to be treated like that, regardless of how they act. Your father sounds like he got a lot more from you than he deserved.

Hmn. . . well, suffice it to say, if the disappointments I've had so far are as bad as it gets, I'm doing pretty well.

It's not that I've never had any. . . it's just. . . I learned pretty young not to expect anything, and for the past five years or so things have been getting progressively better; things like shelter, food, books, and the incredible opportunities I've been given to get an education. . . sort of the education of my dreams to be honest. . . it's just all so much. . . .it's an overwhelming non-disappointment.


I guess the my greatest disappointment is an expectation- that I won't find love, not the kind I'm looking for. . . and that if I do, there will be so little time to enjoy it. . .

That hurts some, because it truely is what I expect. . . still, I'd say if that's the worst disappointment I face in my life, I'm doing pretty well. At least I have plenty of time to face up to it. . .

The main thing is if I've always tried really hard, I think I'll be satisfied. . . just my personality, I suppose.

There's your problem. You can be smarter than the Oracle [of Delphi], have the looks of Medusa and the strength of Ajax; you won't get anywhere "out there" if you cannot interact with people out there how they expect you to. It's all gifts and curses.

Ana54, RainSong et alli,

You cannot control when and how you'll experience depression, extratextual factors can obviously affect it and its frequency and severity; however, it still happens when everything is fine, "perfect" and dandy (like anxiety for example).

I only get disappointed when I'm lied to (especially over "serious" things); my biggest resides here.

Finding out how much of an a***hole my dad is.

Everything about school

Finding out life's not what it's cracked up to be.

Pray tell, what is life cracked up to be?

A bowl of cherries?

I don't know if I have ever really had much disappointment. Regret perhaps...well, definitely...but expecting nothing or the worst tends to make what comes a nice surprise =) Or at least, not too much of a disappointment.

Ah well...

never having anyone that I can relate to. I'd like to say that finding out I'm an aspie would sort that problem out but aspies are even colder than nts.

The automobile accident I was in three years ago. It seems that my entire life have been derailed from that incident. I still have not received a penny in compensation, and require at least two more surgeries, as both my shoulders spontaneously dislocate. I am supposedly a man in the prime of my life. However, I am unable to enjoy even the simple pleasures of sparring with a friend. Prior to the accident, I was involved in martial arts about five days a week.

The whiplash and the extreme migraines (including vertigo and lack of concentration) made study difficult, and my suffering GPA was insufficient to attain graduate school. I thus, need to return to university to take additional courses to increase my GPA. However, due to the above symptoms, I did not feel that this would be prudent.

The complications from the accident also contributed to the breakup of my marriage, and subsequent divorce. I have attempted to find a career in my field (hardware design). However, there are few available opportunities, largely due to the dot-com bust.

I do not wish to blame all of my misfortunes on the accident. However, my life was more or less on track, before it. Now, it appears that I am spinning my wheels in the mud. Eventually if I continue pushing on the bumper, I should be able to escape this rut.