I was on effexor back in 1999-2002. it worker for a while, but then it stopped.When it was wearing off, i felt very suicidal and was even more depressed. I was never suicidal, never mind that depressed. It also caused me to not be able to concentrate my urine and I was having trouble with my kidneys. Then i got off it and the problem went away.
The lexapro made me a lot worse, where I was angry all the time and my thinking was way off. When it weaned off, I was so depressed and anxious, and I was practically "ret*d". i could not even do anything at all.
Pretty much, when I was medications, my thinking and learning and everything was so badly compromised, that i was not able to a single task. i could do the basics, like take care of myself, but I was not able to work,learn, and/or do anything that I used to do before I was on any medications. I started medications at age 20, and I stopped at 29. before age 20, i was extremely intelligent honor student, who would take on the world. When I was on those meds. I could not even take on anything.I had no motivation to even get out of bed, never mind get a job, go to school or live or even have any life.
Now that I am no longer on any medications, I am extremely highly intelligent again and have my extremely high motivation back, that I am able to learn and do more things than I ever was used to, even before I was on medications. That can also be because I am 30 now and back then i was 18-19. I am going back to school to be a Histology Technician, want a full time job, a big house, and I want be a single mother(relationships are out of the question because I do not have the skills that a relationship requires).