will I be a child forever?

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The words of Frank Sinatra "You have a head start if you are amongst the very young at heart."

I find that I'm very child like, for someone who's 33. I like to think about Christmas, Easter, birthdays, and all the other fun holidays, like St Patrick's Day and Halloween. I also like children's movies that are targeted to people of all ages, such as, 'Flushed Away' and 'Mary Poppins'. Not the stuff, like Pokemon or Winnie The Pooh, though. I also like the simple things in life, like ladybugs, pizza, chocolate cake, like somebody else mentioned, lit-up lights on a Christmas Tree, building a snowman in the snow, and if I could find a proper plus-sized pull-up for swimming, I'd enjoy swimming, once again. I also find that it's hard for me to control my emotions, as well. I have to fight to hide my tears from some staff person who works at my clubhouse, who called me a crybaby, once. Nobody should have to fight to hold back their tears, from one person, like that. Of course, her grown children are perfect and normal, and they don't cry.

Sid cries.

I should mention I am 61. I am serious, dependable, and the support for others. I also still love life.

At all ages people have out grown me. In the race to the grave they won. I am still wandering about looking at stars, flowers, and among the survivors of life, find more people like myself.

Also among writers, painters, inventors, I find the open mind, child-like, to be the main tool.

Life is real, I have doubts about AS. It would seem to me that the end result is the issue, not the differance in getting there. AS looks at childhood as a defect to be overcome. It ignores the results of that as a mature person. If someone was useless except for music, should they be forbidden music till they catch up with everything else? Or should they be given all the music they want, and let them figure out the rest?

It is not that we do not learn, we learn in a different order. Most of the problems I see are from other people. If you are doing math, they say you should be doing english, and if english, spelling. Susie got pregnant at fifteen, had two children by 18, so you are a failure. Even when I point out I am not a girl, they continue.

WE are like the differance between the sexes, women tend to marry older men. Not all, but few marry younger. We tend to marry later in life. If we do not marry out of high school, many say failure, but in cultures over time, a fair number marry ten or fifteen years later. There is no one size fits all in life.

Each has their advantages, both work, there is no need to correct. Live by your own clock.

I am 20 years old,
I get giddy over ANYTHING given to me,
I LOVE legos,
I sleep with plushie anime characters,
I love chocolate
and I love cartoons,
I'm a 5 year old trapped in a 20 year old's body, and I'm proud of it.

That was very well said.

I'm 25 years old and I often feel closer to twelve. I love stuffed animals, I collect and play with dolls, I love to imagine things, I get really excited about little things like a cluster of Box Elder bugs on the house on a fall afternoon. I laugh alot, and I tend to be on the hyper side.

Thankfully I can also be quite serious, as my writing mostly reflects, basically responsible, a deep thinker and generally dependable.

Sometimes I get down about feeling so young and not quite being at the same point as other people my age emotionally. And then I realize, often when I'm out in public and the NTs are giving me odd looks, that I like being where I am. I get to have adults priviledges *AND* the childlike approach to life that allows me to fully enjoy it. Pretty sweet deal if you ask me.

If they don't understand you, they are not meant tro be close to you. You can find people closer to what you are who understand you and will never laugh at you or be disgusted with you or sad about you. Like US. Like me.

I'm really really glad someone posted this.

I literally feel like I'm half my age. I look in the mirror and I see someone who's 18, though I don't look it and I'm 10 years older than that. I don't feel a day over 15. I still have the same childlike enthusiasm when new things, places, and most importantly, ideas enter my world. I somehow think with cold logic, but at the same time look at new ideas and the world with soft eyes.

It's actually quite a gift, when I think about it. Most people my age have already waived the white flag and have given into the daily grind. They've lost all enthusiasm. It's quite sad when you think about it. Sometimes I think I'd like to trade my craziness for their normality. But then I think about their mind set and say, no thanks. I'd rather be me!

They few old people I know who are truely happy, have somehow maintain their enthusiasm. They still look at the world with wonder. They definately don't act their age, if you weren't looking at them, you'd think they were 30 years younger. "The race is long, and in the end, it's only with yourself."

Last edited by Stewie on 14 Dec 2007, 1:14 am, edited 1 time in total.

Don't pay any attention to the people who want to make your life miserable.

Don't try to do "adult" things. An adult is a child gone sour.

I don't feel much different now than I did when I was 18. I'm 65.

Cheers,
Beentheredonethat

Thank you for bringing this up. It's been too long since I threw on a little Sinatra. I don't care if the songs came out before I was born, classics are classics!

I don't want to grow up...

I realize that this thread is old but it is sort of addressing what I was wondering about.

I sort of came to terms with the wonder thing a while back, not knowing why, just that it was part of me. I was sick of always having to pretend to not be interested or excited in things. It seemed to be a sick thing to do to myself. So yeah, if I'm the only adult in the petting zoo, whatever, I like it. Occasionally I seem to bring this out in other people & all of us have more fun than if we denied ourselves something.

I've been very upset & frustrated since I figured this out. Now I guess I'm trying to figure out how people deal with it.

The thing that I guess that I'm worried about the most is reading people. I had been even more upset about the past while going through this & then thought oh, they were probably meaner to me because I was easy to upset since I couldn't tell the good & mean spirited teasing apart. So they did it more & more because people are cruel in groups. While I don't want to be stepped on for the rest of my life I also don't want to be angry much of the time. But if I am never able to read people then how do I know?

I realized that with the people I know I hadn't been as defensive anyway during the last year (& looking back that was correct, because they dropped what they were teasing me about fairly quickly) but what about strangers?