Some of the nastiest things that have been said about me have been said by people on this board. And by my mother, of course, who claims to never have known what she was doing tome inside. She probably didn't know most of the time. But I still resent having stuff taken out on me just because I'm there. And then she said I was taking my s**t out on her. But I wasn't. I was complaining to her. But she thought just because my tone of voice sounded so miserable that I must be miserable about her. I don't know why I never went to live with my dad. He was nasty sometimes and made me feel like a bloodsucking little b***h, but he rarely got mad at me. Or, even worse than anger was this fear she had, and she would be so terrified, and if I got a bad mark she would get angry, scared, hurt, depressed, and show it all, and it was f*****g depressing. She'd get angry and shout (and in her sincere good-Christian, honest, I-mean-what-I-say-from-the-heart way) "No more BS!" She believed with all her heart and all her mind and all her soul that everything I did for fun or to de-stress was BS. Then she'd be like, moaning, "Oooh, I don't know what I'm gonna do with you, I can't support you forever, you'll need to work someday, you'll have to go to school, oh my God OMGOMGOMG" and start to almost have a panic attack, all terrified for my future. Or, whether some other time or right then in addition to that, she'll get all sad and "Oh, why can't you just be like other kids?" Here she was making this generalization that getting bad marks is ABNORMAL? That doesn't just show depression; it shows f*****g deluded almost psychotic depression. And ever so HURT that she was raising me with her hard-earned money (i.e, her allowance she got for me from the government) and I was going nowhere and not even making an effort to pay her back with good grades or anything.