Reality has gone. Gone.

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The only thing left is prayer. I dont know if your reliogious or spirtual, but
i found praying to god helped take away my voices. Pray to God make it stop.

try to focus on something real. something that wont turn into a space alien on you. Dont isolate yourself. talk to someone, try to keep yourself grounded.

When I was put on 20mg I was 29, female with a low body mass (50kg), so not sure if they used a weight ratio in my case. I read quite a lot about it and 20mg seemed to be the standard dose for schizophrenia. I think you need to try and change doctors if you can. Can't you go back to seeing some of the ones who diagnosed you with schizophrenia to start with? It is ridiculous if your doctor is not helping you. He/she must know your history of being sectioned/chased by police etc so why on earth is he/she not listening to your warning signs? Can you go to your local A and E and say you want to see an emergency psychiatrist and explain the situation? The problem there is stopping them from putting you in hospital, but it is a lot better situation than ending up getting a lot worse and being sectioned anyway. And if you explain things as clearly and rationally as you have done on WP then they should be able to understand your situation.

I hope that things get better and good luck.

definately you start taking niacin somewhere between 300 and 1,000 mgs
and 100-mgs vitamin c, this is proven to be antispychotic

I feel sorry for you being on Zyprexa. I heard a lot of bad things about that medication. If the doctor prescribes that med, I WILL NOT TAKE IT!! !! I will NOT be 300 pounds!! ! I'd rather die before I take Zyprexa. I have a friend that gained like 100 pounds on that med. He ain't the only one. And I do have to worry about being put on that med if my other anti psychotics fail. I take Invega and Geodon both of which are working. With me they work great for a few months and then out of the blue stop working all together. Hallucinations were not my main big problem even though I would hallucinate here and there but not too bad. I would get severe bizarre delusions and sometimes get really confused and can't come up with a sentence like you see here. I am able to communicate clearly now. Before I had trouble. A sentence would become all jumbled up and no one could understand a word I was saying. Sometimes it would happen for hours at a time. Sometimes a few minutes. But the good thing is that it rarely happens now. Just a few weeks ago I used to believe that I controlled criminals with my thoughts and killed people all over the world. I thought that the government implanted devices in me to control my movements. I really don't think this 100% anymore because of the medicines. I still think the government is after me though but I think they are after EVERYONE!! And last year 2 times I thought aliens from a different planet were out to get me. Both the government and the aliens would send me thoughts and I would receive the thoughts through thought insertion. Not actual audible voices. I heard voices when I was around 13 due to extreme stress of being attacked at school everyday. Now I would just hear my name being called and sometimes a conversation outside my door when no one was there. Like I said before, I'd rather have the thought insertion from the government or aliens than be on Zyprexa or any medicine like it. Ask your psychiatrist or who ever you are seeing about taking another medicine that doesn't have the horrible side effects and could get the job done by taking away your hallucinations. Geodon is good and instead of gaining weight when on it, you can potentially LOSE weight!! I am so fat and ugly because of all the different meds I have been put on for the last 2 years. In fact I have been on 105932548 pills and gained 80 pounds in the last 2 years alone. No man would ever want me because of my incredible fatness. But I rather have a guy that doesn't go for looks anyways, I want a guy that likes my personality and intelligence instead of how beautiful or ugly I am. I don't care if the guy is "hot" or not. I want him to be kind, friendly, and someone who has potential in a job and is not a bum off the street. I also want someone who will NEVER cheat on me. Why the hell am I talking about guys for in the middle of nowhere? Speaking of the middle of nowhere, I live in the Cow Town in Washington state. There are literally more cows than human beings. There are like 9539593 cows and 13 humans including myself. So, that is it for now. Can't think straight. Who am I again?