i don't feel myself as a man

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I think walking with your head lowered and wearing common clothes probably makes you an even more likely target for those comments. I've been treated much the same in the past too and I think being confident and positive, rather than having that "suspicious and under-confident" Aspie look will make a big difference. Don't let them bother you! Not everyone is as rational and sensible as we are all the time. NTs can sometimes be fools, so just ignore them.

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I have often felt in between neither totally male or female. I am built exactly like a female though and I look very female, so I think its something in my mind and not anything chemical or anything else.

It might not be much fun to start with, but lifting weight to get bigger muscle and going to self defense training (Karate, Jujitsu, Krav Maga, etc) may help increase your self confidence. Thai boxing sounds very "alpha male" and painful. A self defense trainer can help you not look like a target. The trainer can say if your clothes and posture are ok.

I don't like coarse, rude conversation and rough horseplay that some men consider Alpha Male fun. I never have. That kind of behavior belongs in the gym or sports fields. Not on the sidewalk or in a restaurant or bar. You dont have to try to be "Alpha" or even like "Alpha" to be male. Read this:
http://trulymarsha.wordpress.com/2007/05/22/alpha-beta-or-omega-male-to-go/

I am so sorry; how cruelly you were treated! Outsiders can be judgmental without end, do not even know you, and don't care that they're mean.

I am a HFA. Whilst I have no sexual/gender 'issues,' I have been teased and judged without warrant too. I know what that feels like. I'm sometimes called a 'Cyborg,' 'Phantom,' etc. I am feminine and I (sort-of), so I'm told, have a '7 of 9' look (and behavior), especially in the lab. I think, for me, and seemingly for you - we're just so sensitive and easily hurt. This is a trait among Auties/Aspies, which makes the hurt worse. I wish I knew also how to NOT take this personally, but the pain just collects.

I guess, no matter who are you, focus on your strength and do not be ashamed. Ever. You have nothing to be ashamed of! You've done nothing 'wrong' or 'bad,' they have for mistreating you! For me, I stay strong but sometimes, inside, I'm crying hard. I may be cybernetic, and I have few emotions (I think 3-4, at best), but I do feel.