Killing yourself

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Oh yes, I know how you mean. Exactly. About that.
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Dunno about anyone else but.

I have a bad voice(she) that makes me feel suicidal/homicidal, but I also have a good, logical voice(he) in in my head that daily helps me to block her. Sure I could take medication to get rid of the bad one, but I have found this also makes the good voice go away as well..
Not good.
Is there a good, objective voice up there that can help?
Could you find him if you looked?

A man once told me never give up, because you never know things can change next year, 3 months from now, or even tomorrow.

I didn't believe him at the time, but now I know he was right

Yeah, I have before. I've been really close to doing it too. But I got counciling and the people spoke to me and saved me (literally). ^-^

There are times when I get those feelings, though not very often anymore. There was a time when it was much worse. There are certain people who would be badly hurt by it and that is unacceptable to me. I even once considered doing things to make them hate me so it would be easier to do. If I didn't have the support from my family and the kind of parents that I do then I don't know if I would still be here.

I have some other motivations that keep me going too, certain things that I want to experience before I die.

One day, I want to drive across the United States and have (mis)adventures along the way like in one of those cliche road movies. I want to ride on one of those huge wooden track roller coasters at a major theme park, and if I like it as much as I think I will, then I'll do it many more times. I want to have sex and to make love, and if I like that as much as I think I will then I want to do both many, many times. I want to fall in love at least once, more if I have to, but once will suffice. There are other things too, a wide variety in fact. To do all of these things there is a lot that I have to do with myself and in my life and it will take a while, not to mention the amount of time it will take to actually do all that stuff, so I guess I'll be around for a while yet.

That's right, you are all stuck with me.


Anyway I hope that was helpful. So in short, think about someone who cares about you that you don't want to hurt by killing yourself, if you don't have that, or in addition to that, think of things you want to experience before you can truly say "There is nothing left for me to live for". It can be something simple, all that matters is that it is important to you. One of the things I wanted to do before I died was to get my drivers license, which I did.

I used to get suicidal thoughts and urges. Never acted on them. They have mostly dissipated. I adopted a new attitude toward life. I take it less seriously now. I lowered my expectations of what life "could" or "should" be and just sat there and breathed for a while. Got a pulled pork sandwich with onions. It was tasty. With lowered expectations, that sandwich was worth living for.
Maybe that sounds strange. I'll put it another way. I take comfort from the fact that suicide is ALWAYS an option. It's right there all the time, as close as the nearest fast-moving train, tall building, or toxic chemical stash. As long as it's an option, I don't need to take it.
Because I can try ANYTHING AND EVERYTHING ELSE FIRST.
Even stuff that's weird or risky.
I can break out of my shell. Dance in the rain. Tell some people where to shove it. What's the worst thing that could happen? Death? But I was already going to kill myself. So what risk is not worth taking?
In this mental state, there are more opportunities to enjoy life, big and small, even if some bad times and depression continue.
I could be in a coffin right now, and I would not be around to face certain problems in my life, which I wouldn't miss. But it's permanent - no more pulled pork sandwiches. The BBQ place is closed right now, but they'll be open tomorrow.
I think I'll stick around.

I have now realized that death is supposed to come when it's time, not to be forced. Once you die, there is no turning back.

Yes, its just hard to hear when everything is shouting so loud for your attention. Look for that small still voice that speaks with confidence and authority. Its there. It sounds a lot like your own thoughts , but there is usually little emotion connected with it. It just knows. that is how you will know its the right voice to listen to. It will never tell you to harm yourself, but will help you be wise when you can only hear the din of emotion and stress.

was thinking about it when i was smaller but got over it after i talk to people about it. made me feel better.
Now im all fine about that atleast.
So my advice talk to somebody there have the time to listen.

man i want to kill myself ever since i was 5 I WANT TO DIE!! !! !

if it wasn't for my family I would have been gone a while ago... but I couldn't dream of committing such an act now.

There isn't a day go by where I don't think of killing myself. I don't like the idea of what it would do to my family though. I find if i'm really depressed I wouldn't even be scared if a gun man came in and threatened me.

A successful suicide never gives anyone a second chance to succeed. A temporary difficulty in life always does.

Nothing is worth killing yourself over.

Im only 10 and confused the thing is im told by adombrookes that im the perfect height weight and stuff for my age i just want to killl myself!! !! !! !

I get this a lot too. The suicidal thoughts don't help, they only make you feel worse. As my counsellor once said, life may be no fun at times, but suicide would just be giving up; who knows, maybe one day you might meet a beautiful girl who could change your life forever. I know as I type this I'll be experiencing suicidal thoughts again in the future regardless of what I just said, it's inevitable, you've just got to do your best to fight it. Despite what you might think, nobody wants to see you die. Heck, if you just try to be sociable and be yourself, people might start liking you. If you continue to feel suicidal, get help; your feelings will keep on getting worse and worse until one day, you might seriously hurt yourself or worse. You really need to vent your feelings, and posting on this board is a good sign.

In the last few months, I've made 20 various suicide attempts (no kidding) and the last one nearly worked.

I was unconcious for a while, then my heart stopped when I got to hospital and I had to be shocked back to life (they nearly gave up, according to my mum). I was in a psychiatric ward for two weeks afterwards, because they wouldn't let me go home in case I attempted suicide again.

Since then, since that horrible experience, I've never tried again but I will admit that the thought has sometimes crossed my mind.

I'm not suicidal or anything, but that doesn't mean I wish I wasn't born. (My) Life is just so boring and pointless and offers nothing to look forward to. Nothing is seriously wrong, it's just boring, pointless and meaningless.