Ravenclawgurl wrote:
even if he didnt discover asperger's syndrome it still would be out there and you would still have the symptoms
And many of our situations would be worse, because our conditions wouldn't be recognized as anything needing special consideration. If you think you have it bad now, imagine trying to live with the same difficulties a century or two ago.
I like to think I've been lucky: more than fifty years of practice living with AS, even as mild as mine is, has helped me adapt well enough to lead a reasonable life. It has been a long road, however. I've been in counselling off and on since before AS was accepted by American psychiatry. Finally being able putting a name to it a few months ago when I was diagnosed, seeing it both as a condition possibly needing help and as simply a different way of experiencing existence, was a huge boost to my morale. I don't want a cure: I want to grow strong in what I consider my valuable gifts–-the ability to shut the world out when I need to concentrate, the ability to completely avoid getting my feelings hurt that would get in the way of solving problems, and the ability to contribute a striking new viewpoint that adds depth to conventional thinking. I think of myself and AS in general as a "harmony" to the NT world.
Yeah, I was bullied, too, when I was a boy, because I was different. I think I had an advantage even back then, although I didn't realize it. I've stood 6' 3" (1.9 meters) in height since age 13. I was very thin back then, too, and that made me look more unusual. I now weigh about 235 pounds (106kg). The number of men I've met larger than me has been decidedly small. Next to the average 5' 4" (1.62-meter) woman, I've sometimes felt like a cross between King Kong
and the Empire State Building. My size could have been, and sometime was, another difference I had from the average person. I've come to terms with it. I could probably intimidate by sheer size, but I don't want to do that. It would mean me stooping to the same low level as those who once ridiculed me. A better course has always been being someone bigger willing to help.
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