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Firebird, last night I was genuinely concerned about you. I was thinking about you and hoping you would be okay. I know you don't like the medications, and I know they are bad. But you need to be safe. There are alternative medications to Zyprexa and Clozaril. Geodon and Abilify don't cause weight gain, and they're very safe. Find a psychiatrist who you feel comfortable with, and express your concerns with him. If you don't, you could end up homeless or lost in a delusion.

I won't end up homeless because my parents take care of me. They would never allow me to be homeless. Thank God for that!

i am sorry to say these medications really are not safe. they can only be take six months at a time before they must be tapered off.

firebird you really should have your parents take you to a holistic doctor. whatever meds you are takening right now dont stop, but go to a holistic md/naturopath/homeopath/tradtitonal chinese medical practisoner, they can really help you not just keep this rotten situation going. a nd helped me immensly and i am med free and doing pretty good. (I would be further along if it wasnt for the medacious stupidity of my fathers.)

Firebird, I am so sorry to read what you are going through. I have bi-polar, borderline personality disorder (haven't self harmed in over a year though) ADD and Aspergers. I know of some of the paranoia that you are going through. I have an anxiety type paranoia that my mind can be read by people thus I hate taking the bus. In a car I feel "shielded." I have at one point even thought that the government was reading my mind. The only hallucinations I get are musical sounding tones, buzzes, people talking like on the radio, cell phone ringing, etc. but nothing to the extent that you are going through.

If you want to talk you can PM me and I can give you my cell phone number. I live in the Eastern Standard Time Zone in the US and I am usually up from 2:00pm until 3:00am though college will be starting again soon. Sometimes just talking out about your hallucinations and episodes can be helpful.

Also I would reinterate on getting a med review done. Perhaps you might need Depakote or Lithium both of which were developed for schizo affective people.

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Firebird can you try this trick? When you hear the voices tune them out and make them go away just like you do when you turn to a new radio station. But tune in between two radio stations so they can't talk. Maybe this will help till you can see your doctor again. Can you get an appointment with him now that December is up?

Can you do things to relax your mind like maybe rocking in a rockingchair? Playing games with your family or playing in the snow so they won't have a chance to start talking again. Take some magnesium before bedtime to help you relax and fall asleep. I think you may really need some rest.

I just think that it is “too much stuff coming in at once.” Tell the alien things they have to wait their turn and talk to you one at a time. LOL, the cows are awesome. I knew those diablo2 cows, Taurens from WOW, Minotaurs etc all had a basis in reality somewhere. Thanks for clearing that up.

The voice telling you you are schizo, is just someone else trying to project their thoughts unto you. I know it can be worse when you just get up. One time I ended up like that, hearing voices in the morning after messing with this one ritual. I knew what it was though, ideas my husband brought home from work. I knew they were not really people because the stuff they said was too weird for real people to say and I could not see them. And then I was like OMG, I'm hearing voices. I think it really put my so called disorder in perspective though, because I realized it wasn't a part of me, just things other people were thinking and saying, that took the form of spirits.

One funny thing I used to do as a little kid is I thought that if I spoke about weird stuff like that all the time the universe would be more interesting. Instead all that happened is people thought I was psychotic. I enjoyed talking about all the weird ideas, but the shrink and psychologist told me to keep my weird thoughts to myself. So then I did, but after I gave up talking about the weird stuff, I didn't really want to socialize anymore. I felt that I had to socialize on such a superficial level that it just wasn't interesting to me anymore. People were too boring, and I was bored by being around them.