Looking for Sympathy and Attention

Post Reply New Topic

I'm still angry, and want to have my eye stabbed with a jackknife. I want to meet somebody who's been arrested and have them share their experiences in jail with me. I'm so messed-up I'm wanting to gain weight. About 28 lbs should do it (I'm 156, 5'9"). On the less manic side, I am hoping I will reach my goal of apathy. Another thing, my mom is suggesting SAM-E as an alternative to pot, but I think I do both.

samE is a little bit of a downer from the zoloft I'm on, it doesn't help me go out and about, but it does help take me down a notch. So that advice is good, in fact st. johns wort is a good natural antidepressant, but I don't know what it'll do with the pot already in play, you have to realize that with all of these meds, you're playing a balance game and anything stronger than pot is too much to use on a regular basis.

ECT is a therapy used to treat major depression, it throws your body into a mini seizure and acts like a reset button, it's not so easy to get from the health care system without a few referrals and you have to realize they'll start you out with the simplest treatment before taking it up a few notches. Going shrooming or doing mescalline is kind of like a spiritual journey and can help you out, but they're not street legal and they're more like a one time thing (if you think you need it again for the same problem, your problem will never go away)

I've been pissed enough to want to stab myself with a pen, I can tell you that it's better to smoke a joint than give into a sudden burst of anger, you can do some things you'll end up regretting when you're mad. I don't think it'll be easy to find the convict type without having to put up with more than you bargained for, he may want something from you that you won't want to give, but then again, it'll really piss mom off and it sounds like she needs it. I know she''s out to help, but she must be putting your opinion down in some way and is probably unwilling ot listen to your real problems without interrupting you and downplaying your feelings (very insulting, I don't put up with it either). But between you and me, I think she wants something good for you and has a hard time finding out what it is herself (she needs to listen better), if you leave the house before she thinks you're ready, it'll be a punishment to her because she will worry about you (I'm certian that she worries about you), you seem capable of taking care of yourself and resent her overdominance, so fast food or the military won't do anything that your mother hasn't already done, just realize that in the military you won't be able to access WP while in training and you might not get all the encouragment from us, (you can find it from everywhere else if you look hard enough though).

I'm not going to encourage you to look in the prison system for the right person to bring home to mom because I've never been there and I can't give you the proper advice on who to trust.

The more I'm reading here, the more you seem to be able to handle your own as far as the bad type goes. If you just remember to keep an eye on your man and not to let him get away with crossing your line, you should be able to do fine. You can always find another man if he doesn't act the way you think he should. I doubt thre will be anything he could do to upset you short of physically harming you (as in threatening your life). So you want to keep self defense and physical safety in mind, but I think you're in a good position to start getting what you want.

Well, you could always join the marines and send them postcards telling them how much fun you're having getting screamed at by the drill instructors, that oughtta get a reaction. Or you could start off slow and bring a marine recruiter into the house, they'll show up for you, and I can't imagine you mother enjoying their company, you'll have the added benefit of them really wanting you to join, so they'll play into your hands a little.

Angry again. Remembering idiotic, dehumanizing double-standards. Also remembering how I hate waiting for stuff. Remembering my mom telling me to wait until I'm 21 for alcoholic consumption, although she gives me a taste of things with liquor in them, the point I'm angry is because I don't want to wait... at all. I can't wait for my first college party.

.

Nothing's working.

: cry: :c ry: : cry: :cr y: :cry :

GODDAMMIT!

Why do never feel any better and get the same exact useless advice? And why can't I repel the nice guy that's after me?

*dies*

You win.