I look normal, so why can't I BE normal?!

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09 Jun 2009, 12:35 am

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This is very reccuring. I'm treated horribly because people put normal standards on me and say that I'm not autistic, but just A.D.D.(A.D.D. is a crock! ANYBODY CAN BE DIAGNOSED WITH IT AND NOT HAVE IT!)

The sad thing is I'm being treated badly by uncaring family members and some of them thought they had a right to hurt me because I'm family. It sucks being only 18 and not being old enough to purchase liquor to drink it all away.

I just consider myself not human, but a mutant freak. And the normal outer shell I have makes it even freakier.

Mutants are cool! I'm not being flippant. I had much the same feelings before, but I found that the change for the better in my world came when I accepted myself. Then I became happy, and the people I longed for came to me. But seriously... being "human" or "normal" or whatever you choose to call it is overrated. All the most extraordinary people don't really fit in with the rest of society.

Also, you don't have to put up with abuse. You can get help.

PS: "Drinking it all away" is a misnomer. Even if you were old enough to drink, all those problems and more would be waiting for you when you sobered up anyway.

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09 Jun 2009, 1:57 am

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Being normal is so not overrated when a mutant looks like a normal person, like I do. I'm looking for marijuana anyways, I may just get the medical stuff then sell/trade it for other drugs. I can't get help because no one is on my side and if they are, they are very far away.

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09 Jun 2009, 2:28 pm

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I realize there really isn't anything I can say to help, but please understand, doing drugs is no solution and not a viable escape, either. There are people out there who can understand you and give you more positive feedback, so that you will feel better about your life. I know that finding them isn't so easy, but please do.

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10 Jun 2009, 3:05 am

fickle pickle... please tell what is your idea of normal because the norm for our gen is chain smoke then getting drunk whilst pointlessly hanging around a shopping centre... I'm not sure about you but I do not whant to be like that.

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10 Jun 2009, 1:28 pm

Well, I would like for my meltdowns to dissapear. I would also like to be less sensitive and be more capable.

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10 Jun 2009, 1:56 pm

Fickle_Pickle wrote:

Well, I would like for my meltdowns to dissapear. I would also like to be less sensitive and be more capable.

well, marijuana/alcohol isn't going to help that, in fact it might very well make it alot worse.

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11 Jun 2009, 3:05 am

Fickle_Pickle wrote:

Well, I would like for my meltdowns to dissapear. I would also like to be less sensitive and be more capable.

meltdowns are not inpossibe to control.... I know its cliche but breathing deeply when hey occur.

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11 Jun 2009, 7:38 am

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Fickle_Pickle wrote:

Well, I would like for my meltdowns to dissapear. I would also like to be less sensitive and be more capable.

meltdowns are not inpossibe to control.... I know its cliche but breathing deeply when hey occur.

The funny thing is that never works for me. It just makes me want to cry even harder. I'd like something less positive and a little more taboo because I don't belong on this earth.

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11 Jun 2009, 9:01 am

Fickle_Pickle wrote:

scorpileo wrote:

Fickle_Pickle wrote:

Well, I would like for my meltdowns to dissapear. I would also like to be less sensitive and be more capable.

meltdowns are not inpossibe to control.... I know its cliche but breathing deeply when hey occur.

The funny thing is that never works for me. It just makes me want to cry even harder. I'd like something less positive and a little more taboo because I don't belong on this earth.[/quote

fine do what I do the which is slightly evil.. focus all your anger and energy on inmagening destroying the irertation.... lets say inmagening a bullies skull being crushed.. slowly.

also you don't belong on earth well... then we are alike in that way, as I have alredy said I have been through and am going through alianation... you have alot of anger which needs to be released and from what you said.. in a vilont outburst.. just do it away from people if you can.

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11 Jun 2009, 10:47 am

scorpileo wrote:

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Well, I would like for my meltdowns to dissapear. I would also like to be less sensitive and be more capable.

meltdowns are not inpossibe to control.... I know its cliche but breathing deeply when hey occur.

Too bad I live in a cramped apartment... with NOWHERE to go. I don't want to release it in a violent outburst, I want to bottle it up using tobacco or some substance. Or having all the emotions beaten out of me with a metal baseball bat and then have hot wax poured down my back and be tied up like a dog.

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12 Jun 2009, 3:12 am

if you bottle up the emotions the meltdowns wil continue... melt down are caused by overloading.

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13 Jun 2009, 12:56 pm

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if you bottle up the emotions the meltdowns wil continue... melt down are caused by overloading.

Then I don't know what I'm supposed to do.

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14 Jun 2009, 9:46 am

Fickle_Pickle wrote:

scorpileo wrote:

if you bottle up the emotions the meltdowns wil continue... melt down are caused by overloading.

Then I don't know what I'm supposed to do.

Maybe you should do something that is relaxing? Reading a book, compose poetry or something like that?

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14 Jun 2009, 9:55 am

try somthhing like boxing or enouther phyical activity which you can exress anger or just spew your emotions on a willing person... pherhaps me... via PM or MSN

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14 Jun 2009, 2:14 pm

Try writing hate poetry. It's what I'm planning on doing at school, always having a pen and paper on me.

Being a mutant is not just cool, it is better than being human. If the humans ever try to attempt a cure, and assuming that irritiating fellow mutant of mine and that school of his don't get in the way.... :twisted:

Drowning it in drugs could work, but only if you use depressents and my theory is true (extreme emotions cause autism). They suppress the entire brain, unfortunately, so you'll end up like - for want of a better word - a chav: Neurotypical and thick.

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