I'm so close to losing my words again. I just feel this lethargy taking over me where i can;t form words and everything i ever type or post sounds stupid. I think im almost back to having no will whatsoever for expressing myself. It was nice while it lasted but it's time to go back to where i belong. I've spent the last 6 years heavily using the internet and in all that time, despite having people i talk to constantly, ive never asked anyone for anything beyond age, sex and location, ive never once taken an interest in anyone. I can't remember the last time i met someone (beyond one person) that ive even been interested enough in to ask their birthday. I don't want to start down this path again, it took so many years of my life last time . Especially with what i now know to be true, there are actually people out there that i can relate to and stop me feeling alone, just it;s extremely rare and hard to find and those few people that could know how i feel are too caught up in their own problems to recognise the truth. Just as i'd have been 10 years ago i guess, tragic how history repeats itself.