scale of -10 to +10, how do you feel right now?

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Im about 6, I even found the courage to get a haircut and face the fact that most people wont like it, I might post some pictures of the new haircut later.

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My guilt and peculiar depression might kill me in the future. Nothing happened, and I didn't do anything to warrent feeling this way. Not that I have any place around here to talk about it, other than this thread here. A couple, just a couple of peoples' sayings around here sometimes interpret to me as the following..

"You feel this way, not as you say. What you say is always exagerated anyway. Why don't you chill out and act like an adult. Read my instructions carefully, because you obviously learned nothing so far. I'm right, and your not. Then again, maybe you need PILLS and a check up? (label here) heard of it, yet?"

If I could just keep the nice people who validate, I would be more content with personal postage.

About -8.

After my ex was unfaithful to me, I thought I'd give it a month before killing myself. Now I feel I should spend Christmas/jul with my parents and sisters, and then kill myself soon afterwards. That seems like a reasonable amount of time to find my real true love. I know I never even met my ex, but I am drained of hope, now... after what she did, I have been trying to pick up the pieces of my soul, but I just can't seem to get it to work, anymore... I thought it would work but it just doesn't seem like it will. I'm not crying, I don't even feel particularly sad... I just feel so empty inside, so dead. All my positive emotions feel so fake. And the world is so very ugly... why should I try to keep hoping in this ugly world? Why, when there is almost nothing to hope for? I have been hoping to find my true love for so long, now. I am just getting too drained, and the ugliness of the world is getting to be too overwhelming.

-10, still....maybe -11 cuz I'm angry I'm still here

~K

3, on medication but i still feel horrible. Thinking about suicide so that bumps me down 1/2 mark
2 1/2 then :/ no make that -2 1/2
I was crying yesterday, i posted an anonymous suicide note to a website. I've got a plan all set out, i just need the time now
But im afraid there going to find me, take me to hospital and if my 'foolproof' plan doesn't work they will keep me alive, and i would need to look at them... 0_0 and i would be in hospital for a while. And my doctor and mum would be angry with me.

I never talk about my plans because I don't want to get stuck in a psychiatric ward. Those places suck. I'm either going to do it or survive, depending on whether I can figure out why this crap keeps happening to me before my kids don't need me anymore.

Still -11

~Kate

not good but cant put a number on it.

-0.

Yesterday I went to my college's homecoming. I was talking to an acquaintance, when some random guy nearby started yelling at me. "Hey you in the blue jacket" before referring to me by nickname. "Get out of here. You make me sick, just go..." I just started walking away, and my best friend overheard the kid talking more smack - but I couldn't hear it.

I don't care what this kid has to say, since obviously he's a jerk who doesn't know me. But having this poor a reputation isn't good, and now I wonder what my true friends really think of me.

Now: -4
30 hours ago: -9

-10

I wish I could just become a recluse. I don't need that much to live on; a single room cabin somewhere by a lake, with my hang glider, music, computer (with internet, so I guess I wouldn't be a very good recluse, but I need to research) and enough food and drink to live on for the rest of my days. Just as long as I'm living away from people and their ways. I'm so very tired of life and its stresses, and I'm so very tired of my brain amplifying these stresses by millions of times.

1. How do I know if someone cares for me or thinks about me or not? It'll always be a one-sided situation for me.

-5 I miss my Treacle. Pet name for my ex girlfriend.
*Closes eyes in sadness*
Tonight I will write my best poem... it will be close to genius.

Tonight... I will send commanding bass vibrations to the very stars themselves... I will move the stars... I will shift our galaxy... tonight, is my night of genius... I will use it now.

I am a martyr... I am meant to be a martyr... pain fuels my strong creativity... and it will grow strong in time... it will bloom.

I just really really hate shallowness of the majority of society and the pain it causes to those a bit more sensitive.

Oh well - c'est la vie. Hugs to everyone in need.

0.

Overtired, overwhelmed, stressed, and pissed off.

-1

At the DMV right now just waiting around... Stomach is giving me issues.

Wondering if I should have done this before lunch. But then I'd be brain dead... Why can't life just cut me a break? Its always one thing or another.