please pray for WPer ASS-P!

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I may be starting to consider the concept that I will NEVER be out of my homeless situation , I will NEVER get a little additional money , I will NEVER get help with the inheritances that were stolen from me , I will be found dead in an alley or park somewhere some morning , I will be another homeless ~ " bum " corpse .
Now , to a certain extent I am trying to get attention/symphathy here , but , nonetheless...I mean , there has been a supposed " windfall " that is supposedly going to come to me an amount of money ` A lot to ME ` but it keeps delaying ,a nd delaying ~ And , furthermore it has occurred to me that I am sort of " tra[pped in bohemia " I will never get out of the homeless situation , I will NEVER go back to college my bad foot will NEVER get anybbetter , I will NEVER get any help on that front . I will NEVER escape California .
[ Look - read my past posts/posts about me , the one started BY auntblabby in The Haven with my name in the title if you want the background here I'm not going to bother now . ]
One would , when I lived in San Francisco , read " human interest " stories about people whose dead bodies were found in SROs in the Tenderloin neighborhood there (So not even homeless technically speaking .) and the few facts about them in ther pockets/attempts to contact their relatives .
My " adult relatives " consist of " respectable " Texans who stole inheritance regularly-paying out mineral values and land rights that my mother left to me from me and everyone believes their OUTRAGEOUS LIES and will not help me .
I was never hugged and tod I could talk about the rape that happened to me by an unpaid friend and I guess I never will be - My father stopped me from talking about it , saying he would put me away if I did . There'a burial space of my paents that I have the ability to be buried in ~ Now ,thinking about how my father turned me away when I tried to talk about the rape I am now inclined to thik " I don't want to be with you - And as for my mother if women are ' morally superior ' to men , as they claim , it was your duty to be nice too " , if I left a note in my pocket - Well , I guess there's a Potters' Field/Bum's Field at times I've thought " let my ashes into the wind at Ocean Beach in SF " I've liked the beach but I've never gotten to go enough and I haven't gone to any for Years now ...

Dude, life is tough! It sucks royally sometimes. I'm not sure we can give you the help you need here although I offer you all of my sympathy that i have. Can you find some help in person? Maybe a priest or something even if you're not Catholic (I'm not religious, it's not that, but they may be able to help you).

Ass-p, do you still need a backpack (I just read part of that thread). PM me, but I have to go to bed. I can try to find you some help from work tomorrow. I don't know if I can, I'm on the other side of the country, but I can try.

...Well , I am hoping for the money to come in ~ But , my crying when I think about " not having really gone to college " I cry about/whine nearly every day now , maybe , deep down , I suspect I have to" be sensible " and accept that it IS " not for me " (This library at SJ State University is full of course of " frsh-faced student " types but - mostly - they're so distant from me they don't bother me - Much . Generally .)
Oh , SH*T , I pushed " New Topic " again PLEASE , can't some Mod edit this into my "...die " thread as an answer to my answer ???????????
PLEASE .

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...I have 70-ish dol ars that I CANNOT GET OUT (let alone otherwise spend) from a PayPal card that I acquired a while back , along with an account AND a ATM card both Paypal...The thing is , after using it a little bit I guess some regulation kicked in of " You have t have a PROPER adress " and when I entered my address it seemed some database said it was " a PO Box " and not a " real address " ( It is a mailboxes place , but , it isn't a USPS place , it's private , non-USPS , place , not a USPS office so...) , and now , I CAN'T SPEND IT ON ANYTHING - I have tried to buy things at the VERY SAME WALGREEN'S where I bought it and inserted the money but it rejects it , it had about $85 dollars now it's down to about $75 , afterPaypal kept taking money out every month , even when I got around to trying to call their 800 number - I GOT A RECORDED MESSAGE SAYING " BY REQUEST , YOU CANNOT REACH THIS 800 NUMBER FROM A PAY PHONE " ! !! !! !! !! !! WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO ????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????? I AM AN OUTCAST ! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! THE SAME THING HAS HAPPENED TO ME WITH (my now not-working) ATTEMPT AT A CHEAP SMARTPHONE I don't want to go into it now ) .
Maybe I SHOULD be just dead .
Another " poor boo hoo , homeless case , why don't they help those poor people " ?

i will pray as often as i remember. shalom.

my family frequently receives extra clothes and furniture and this and that from people looking to get rid of their extra and unnecessary things. we had a lot of help from random people when we first moved to the USA so we take all that stuff and distribute it to people in need. i could easily put together a care package of clothes and toiletries and maybe even some shoes and food if i can get the sizes he needs and an address to send it to. PLEASE let me know how i can help.

Hi Ass-P. I would like to recommend you or someone on your behalf who you can trust join a reddit forum called /R/Assistance LINK: Assistance and ask for some help.

People there are usually very nice and give you things to help like advice, jobs, food, essentials, used items.

I hope better things happen for you!


.....Apologies, did not read the latest post before mine. That's rough... Wish someone could help you more.

Hello, I spent hours on the phone today trying to get walter help (i really cannot believe it's so hard to get help for somebody in that condition). Well, I found a woman at a social services place that he can go to, she told me he should ask for her and tell her my name and she can do her best to get him shelter and get help for his foot, she'll be on the lookout for him to come in. he doesn't have money to get around though. Does anybody know how I can send him money fast? He says he can't use the card that you guys sent to him before because it requires a permanent address. I just want to send him around $40 so he can get around town and to this woman.

....BTW , the card I was sent was a target gift card , I was able to use it just fine , again , in SF...Those sort of things won't pay for sate/county transit , however , and it was the Paypal card I myself bought (Tied into a " regular " PP account ! ) that has f****d up over the " not a proper address " accusation...DON'T WORK WITH PAYPAL .
Sheesh .

@wozeree: is there maybe a trustworthy person who lives near to Walter and can accept money on his behalf via money transfer and give to him physically, so he can get to this woman?

Thanks for your willingness to help! I'm in a country where the exchange rate into dollars would makes it impractical to supply material support, unfortunately.

I believe he really needs somebody to drive him to the office.

I got the money to him. He has to take a train, then walk a short distance. I told him to just take a cab to the office if he needs to, I think he'll have enough money. Although I had a delay in sending it and he was telling me how hungry he is. Life is tough for Walter. I hope this all works out.

he really really needs somebody THERE to accompany him. he needs the personal touch. I wish I could be there for him.

You know I didn't think to ask him if he had anyone, but the woman is on the look out and she knows who he is. I told her she can call me anytime if there's anything I can do or to update me, so maybe I'm sort of there with him! ha. Poor Walter, I can barely take care of myself sometimes.