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I think my medical advance directive is finally done! Here it is:


My advance directive for family, friends and medical staff:

My advance directive is such a big part of me that when I need it and you're not thinking about it, even if you're thinking about me and your thoughts are consumed by me, you aren't thinking about me but about a small part of me or about someone you think I am.


1. Regardless of my condition, please assume that I have full cognitive function and am aware of what is going on around me, and treat me accordingly. Do not treat me like an animal, a machine, a child, a ret*d or, most of all, an inanimate object. Talk to me (and talk like I am an intelligent human being) even if I can't talk back to you or don't appear to be paying attention. Because I might be more conscious and aware than you think.


2. Regardless of the condition I am in when you tell me and regardless of how bad the news is, I want you (the medical staff) to tell me the whole truth and nothing but the truth about my condition, IMMEDIATELY, as well as what happened to me. I want to be treated like I can handle bad news. The only thing that traumatizes me is people treating me like I can't handle trauma. Also, I also need to know because if you don't tell me what happened to me, I might think something worse happened to me.


3. Regardless of my condition, the medical staff must IMMEDIATELY tell me EVERYTHING about EVERY treatment option I have, and if it is an emergency and they are already treating me, they must IMMEDIATELY tell me what they are doing to me and why.


4. If I can't get up, or can't move at all, and especially if I can't talk either, please stimulate me by talking to me, touching me, reading to me, turning on the TV for me, taking me places, etc. And if you run out of positive things to do with/say to me, tell me about negative things, rather than nothing at all. I would much rather hear bad news than be ignored, or have you sit there looking at me but saying and doing nothing, which is as good as ignoring me. I would rather watch bad news about what happened to me on TV than lie there staring at the walls.


5. Please do all the tests to ensure that I am dead if you think that I am.


6. I can speak for myself unless I'm unconscious. Don't ask other people questions about me before asking me.


7. Do not give me any amnesia drugs unless I ask for them. I want to remember my experience, be it good or bad.


8. If I am suffering or having some sort of attack, don't just sit and watch me suffer. Talk to me, touch me, comfort me. You are not helpless; you can do that.

9. If I need to follow directions like "Take this medicine" or "Take off your clothes" or "Turn over onto your side", I need an explanation as to why. I'm not ret*d, therefore "t please the other person" or "because it's the rules" is not a good enough reason.

10. If I'm capable of communicating "yes" or "no" by blinking or moving my head, I am capable of making my own decisions and don't need someone else to make my decisions for me.

That is a very thorough, well thought out statement!

The world is amazing at the moment, I am in one of those moods where I just want to float on the clouds thinking about love and things.
Today at lunch break at school I was sitting on my usual table with two of my friends, whom I both fancy like mad (both are aspies haha) and one was showing me a vid on his PSP and he was sitting really close to me and our arms were practicly brushing, and then my other friend who I'm convinced likes me back kept brushes hit foot agaisnt my leg or resting his foot on my foot. I was absolutely in heaven *giggles like a little girl* I can't stop thinking about them now, ooh who do I like best I just don't know.

I am now daydreaming like mad about lovey dovey things, *faints*

I hope you haven't all thrown up at the sickly-ness and girly-ness of this post I just had to type it...

My father is getting his check tomorrow so we'll have food!

Oh, that's good!! !

Whatcha gonna get?

I'm having more lasagna tonight!
MMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM

Half days off school Sunshine... free time to play console games or read. Having lots of friends to talk to, whether online or off, and share jokes with. Nice food! (Shame about the calories though). Oh, and sleeping in for hours and knowing you don't have to get up...

(I'm having lasagna for lunch today xD)

I finally finished my advance directive for real this time!


My advance directive for family, friends and medical staff:

My advance directive is such a big part of me that when I need it and you're not thinking about it, even if you're thinking about me and your thoughts are consumed by me, you aren't thinking about me but about a small part of me or about someone you think I am.


1. Regardless of my condition, please assume that I have full cognitive function and am aware of what is going on around me, and treat me accordingly. Do not treat me like an animal, a machine, a child, a ret*d or, most of all, an inanimate object. Talk to me (and talk like I am an intelligent human being) even if I can't talk back to you or don't appear to be paying attention. Because I might be more conscious and aware than you think.


2. Regardless of the condition I am in when you tell me and regardless of how bad the news is, I want you (the medical staff) to tell me the whole truth and nothing but the truth about my condition, IMMEDIATELY, as well as what happened to me if I don't already know. I want to be treated like I can handle bad news. The only thing that traumatizes me is people treating me like I can't handle trauma. Also, I also need to know because if you don't tell me what happened to me, I might think something worse happened to me. Also, often I will be in pain and thus know how bad it is, so you aren't hiding anything from me, and I have the right to know why I'm in so much pain.


3. Regardless of my condition, the medical staff must IMMEDIATELY tell me EVERYTHING about EVERY treatment option I have, and if it is an emergency and they are already treating me, they must IMMEDIATELY tell me what they are doing to me and why.


4. If I can't get up, or can't move at all, and especially if I can't talk either, please stimulate me by talking to me, touching me, reading to me, turning on the TV for me, taking me places, etc. And if you run out of positive things to do with/say to me, tell me about negative things, rather than nothing at all. I would much rather hear bad news than be ignored, or have you sit there looking at me but saying and doing nothing, which is as good as ignoring me. I would rather watch bad news about what happened to me on TV than lie there staring at the walls.


5. Please do all the tests to ensure that I am dead if you think that I am. Wait till I'm brain dead before pronouncing me dead, and do all you can to prevent me from becoming brain dead.


6. I can speak for myself unless I'm unconscious. Don't ask other people questions about me before asking me.


7. Do not give me any amnesia drugs unless I ask for them. I want to remember my experience, be it good or bad.


8. If I am suffering or having some sort of attack, don't just sit and watch me suffer. Talk to me, touch me, comfort me. You are not helpless; you can do that.

9. If I need to follow directions like "Take this medicine" or "Take off your clothes" or "Turn over onto your side" or "You're not allowed to eat", I need an explanation as to why. I'm not ret*d, therefore "to please the other person" or "because it's the rules" is not a good enough reason.

10. If I'm capable of communicating "yes" or "no" by blinking or moving my head, I am capable of making my own decisions and don't need someone else to make my decisions for me.

11. If I can't do anything but blink or nod or shake my head, ask me regularly if I'm in pain. If I can't even do that, assume I'm in pain and give me painkillers.

(Edited.)

I have just chosen my dress for the school prom. I am bubbling with exitement! even though it isn't until june 19 it will go quickly!! !!
I am definnitly going to make an impression with my choice of dress, I want to be remembered for something good.
What do you think? I love it
[img][img]http://i273.photobucket.com/albums/jj224/you-smell-of-bum/12258368170.jpg[/img][/img]

That dress is sooooooooo cute!! !! !! !

Stan says he didn't not let me take charge of myself after the fluorescent lights were smashed; he said he never prevented me from doing what I wanted to do.


Also, he says his mother never meant the bad thing she had said about him that time.

Also, I edited my advance directive again:

My advance directive for family, friends and medical staff:

My advance directive is such a big part of me that when I need it and you're not thinking about it, even if you're thinking about me and your thoughts are consumed by me, you aren't thinking about me but about a small part of me or about someone you think I am.



1. Regardless of my condition, please assume that I have full cognitive function and am aware of what is going on around me, and treat me accordingly, just in case I am conscious and aware of what is going on around me and have my full cognitive function. Do not treat me like an animal, a machine, a child, a ret*d or, most of all, an inanimate object. Talk to me (and talk like I am an intelligent human being) even if I can't talk back to you or don't appear to be paying attention. Because I might be more conscious and aware than you think.



2. Regardless of the condition I am in when you tell me and regardless of how bad the news is, I want you (the medical staff) to tell me the whole truth and nothing but the truth about my condition, IMMEDIATELY, unless it's obvious, as well as what happened to me if I don't already know. I want to be treated like I can handle bad news. The only thing that traumatizes me is people treating me like I can't handle trauma. Also, I also need to know because if you don't tell me what happened to me, I might think something worse happened to me. Also, often I will be in pain and thus know how bad it is, so you aren't hiding anything from me, and I have the right to know why I'm in so much pain.



3. Regardless of my condition, the medical staff must IMMEDIATELY tell me EVERYTHING about EVERY treatment option I have, and if it is an emergency and they are already treating me, they must IMMEDIATELY tell me what they are doing to me and why.



4. If I can't get up, or can't move at all, and especially if I can't talk either, please stimulate me by talking to me, touching me, reading to me, turning on the TV for me, taking me places, etc. And if you run out of positive things to do with/say to me, tell me about negative things, rather than nothing at all. I would much rather hear bad news than be ignored, or have you sit there looking at me but saying and doing nothing, which is as good as ignoring me. I would rather watch bad news about what happened to me on TV than lie there staring at the walls.



5. Please do all the tests to ensure that I am dead if you think that I am.



6. I can speak for myself unless I'm unconscious. Don't ask other people questions about me before asking me.



7. Do not give me any amnesia drugs unless I ask for them. I want to remember my experience, be it good or bad.



8. If I am suffering or having some sort of attack, don't just sit and watch me suffer. Talk to me, touch me, comfort me. You are not helpless; you can do that.



9. If I need to follow directions like "Take this medicine" or "Take off your clothes" or "Turn over onto your side", or "You aren't allowed to eat", I need an explanation as to why unless it's obvious. I'm not ret*d, therefore "to please the other person" or "because it's the rules" is not a good enough reason.

10. If I'm capable of communicating "yes" or "no" by blinking or moving my head, I am capable of making my own decisions and don't need someone else to make my decisions for me.

11. If I can't do anything but blink or nod or shake my head, ask me regularly if I'm in pain. If I can't even do that, assume I'm in pain and give me painkillers

I revised my scientific theory again:

MY DOCUMENT:

Where/whence

there

is

white/light/bright/hot/moving/loving/respecting

matter

all/every

piece/pieces

of

white/light/bright/hot/moving/loving/respecting

matter/stuff/material/substance

there

(aka/also known as/also called

live/alive

matter

is

(a)

substance/matter/stuff/thing(s)/mass/I/you/they/it/we/us

that/which

is

called/known as

a lot/lots/big/huge/"tons"/"loads"/a pile/a big piece

of

forever/definite/constant/eternal/immortal/complete(d)/full/filled/total/destined/granted/meant/integral/intact/absolute/consistent/independent/precise/positive/plain/clear/confirmed/affirmed/filled/fulfilled/literal/exact/always/neverending/unending/continuing/proceding/preceding/immortal

happiness aka life aka love aka survival aka light aka friendship aka holiness aka beacon aka camaraderie ala brightness aka force aka "work" aka intelligence aka power aka brilliance aka participation aka hope aka good(ness) aka god aka diety aka admiration aka consciousness aka immortality aka aka soul aka spirit aka action aka motion aka movement aka awareness aka alertness aka awakeness aka wakefulness aka "voice" aka energy aka stimulation aka tao aka luster aka respect et cetera

finding/getting/adding/acquiring

other

white

matter,

and

then/subsequently/before

sticking/binding/"tying"/"gluing"/"bonding"/"roping"/"stringing"/"chaining"/staying/keeping/remaining/attaching

together/attached/"bound"/"bonded"

forever/always/eternally/infinitely/indefinitely

as/when/whence/while

I/you/they/it/we

move/moves/go/goes/comes/come

around/about/ways/away

trying/attempting/working/aspiring/wanting/coveting/wishing/needing/asking/demanding/aiming

to/at/about/for/hoping to cause

find(ing)/touch(ing)/"feel(ing)"/s"see(ing)/sight/get(ting)/have/having/love/loving/like/liking/lighten(ing)/brighten(ing)/whiten(ing)/enlighten(ing)/enlightenment/liven(ing)/enliven(ing)/act(ing)/do(ing)/have/get/live/living/energize/energizing/stimulate/stimulating/empower(ing)/empowerment/awaken(ing)/admire/admiration/affirm(ing)/affirmation



(of)

more/addition.

And/also

that/thence

I/me/myself/you/they/them/we

am/are/now/then/were/will be/must be/has to be/shall be/can be/have potential to be/have potency to be

a/one/1

ball/sphere/orb/all-round circle

white matter, through and through, totally 100% literally/exactly/absolutely/positively/affirmatively/yes/wholly/fully/exclusively/only/precisely/fully compacted/compressed/concentrated/hard/solid/full/together,

and

my/mine/me/your/their/our/ours/yours/its/theirs

way/course/path/road/route

is

clear/unadulterated.

Our/my/your/their/its

goal/objective/wish/desire/hope/want/aspiration/dream

is/was/will be/shall be

to/due to/for/because/therefore/hence/ergo/thus/in order to

be/exist/being/existing

100%/totally/completely/fully/wholly

surrounded/consumed/"eaten"/"adopted"/"assimilated"/"civilized"/"taken"/"acclimatized"/"used"/"utilized"/touched/"owned"/had/kept/held

by/in/inside/with/to

white matter,

100%

of

me/us/them/it

touching

white matter,

and

the

piece/morsel/fragment/part/bit

of

white matter

I/you/he/she/they/it

are/is/am

a

part

of

will

always

be/exist

moving/"flying"/"running"

to

find

more/extra/additional/bonus

and

more

white matter.

(I'm talking about this stuff

in/of

the/its

most

pure/thru and thru/basic/simple/straightforward/plain/clean/unblemished/sterile/immaculate/perfect/spotless

form/mold/shape/structure/model/style/type/kind/"brand"/sort/lot/substance/"group",

any/all

piece(s)

of

it

being/existing

100%

White matter,

Of course/obviously/honestly/truly/completely/definitely/doubtless.





The above text is the theory.

Every person is to have a copy of this sign, which cannot be damaged by human accidental means. It is to be made out of thick hard heavy red, yellow, blue and white (therefore appearing gray to humans) metal, and to be coated in white cement but still legible with its raised letters, numbers and symbols saying all this. Each person's sign is to be compact enough for that person to carry everywhere they go. It is to be a book, with the metal pages bearing the theory pierced with rings for binding. The rings are to be welded shut and are to be large enough for the book to close properly, with the pages (even with their raised letters, numbers and symbols) stacked right on top of one another. Every person is also to have a pendant made of thick hard heavy red, yellow, blue and white (therefore appearing gray to humans) metal , with READ MY DOCUMENT. on it in raised letters and symbol. Both the pendant and the chain are to be made of thick hard heavy red, yellow, blue and white (therefore appearing gray to humans) metal and the chain is to be only as long as the neck of the person wearing it so that the pendant is on the person's neck clearly visible. The link that attaches the pendant to the chain is to be welded shut. All the links in the chain are to be welded shut except for one, which is to be a split ring big enough to hold one of the other links and small enough to fit through the link. Each/every person is to protect their book like this one that they have, and carry it everywhere they go., and wear their pendant on its chain wherever they go.

My mission in life is to stimulate myself as much as possible, how I want and in my spare time begin to go to every square inch of this planet and universe and explain this document to every person on this planet and in this universe one by one (in their own way that they understand) and have them all come with me to explain it to more people. Around and around the world and universe across every square inch, as many times as needed to get all the people in the universe. We are to make a sign like this one for every person as they come with us.

Together we are to make a thick hard heavy red, yellow, blue and white (therefore appearing gray to humans) metal pole coated in white cement, on a thick hard heavy red, yellow, blue and white (therefore appearing gray to humans) metal stand coated in white cement, that loops around the entire planet Earth, with thick hard heavy red, yellow, blue and white (therefore appearing gray to humans) metal signs (each sign is red, yellow, blue and white therefore appearing gray to humans) coated in white cement but still legible hanging from it by thick hard heavy red, yellow, blue and white (therefore appearing gray to humans) metal split rings (each split ring is red, yellow, blue and white therefore appearing gray to humans) coated in white cement.

The line of signs on the pole is to have one sign with/for each combination of any to all of the following symbols (inclusing the non-underscore, non-dot, non-slash space):~`1!2@3#4$5%6^7&8*9(0)-_=+QqWwEeRrTtYyUuIiOoPp[{]}\|AaSsDdFfGgHhJjKkLl:;"'ZzXxCcVvBbNnMm<,>.?//*-+. Plus all the symbols in all kinds of writing in all languages of the world. The contents of one sign is called a document. The largest documents on the pole are to be the ones the size of the combination of all the other documents in the world. The smallest are to be one character long, example : A

My theory and the rest of this document is all that is to be on the sign at the front of the line of signs on the pole.

Every single document is to have its own plaque on the pole and they are to be in alphabetical order on the pole from front to back except for this document which is to be at the very front.

Every person is to have the opportunity to move the sign that explains, both in their own way and in a way most people would understand, 1)the theory, 2)the rest of the contents of this sign, and 3) what else stimulates the person in life, to the front of the line behind this document. Other people can then look at it to get stimulation of ideas for stimulation if they lack it.

If you do everything on this sign you will be surrounded by stimulation completely, because there is enough stimulation in this universe for all the people in it.


I also revised my psychiatric resume. It's a kickass psychiatric resume!

My mental health resume:

I've been on:

Seroquel (quetiapine fumarate), antipsychotic-- 25 or 50mg at bedtime as needed-- acted as a chemical restraint paralysing me with sleep, and it made me a bit psychotic. Once I was walking down the street in Edmonton and even though I lived with my mother in a small room at the YMCA on 102A Ave, I thought I lived in an apartment by myself on King Street and thought I was going to my apartment instead of the other place I was going to with my mother, and wondered where my apartment was again. ; no side effects going off it
Celexa (citalopram hydrobromide), SSRI antidepressant-- 20mg/day, then 30mg/day, then 40mg/day--made me giddy, but that was a good thing; going off it I vomited a few times and had brain zaps and the illusion of bugs crawling under my skin.
Haldol (haloperidol), antipsychotic-- 5mg/day, then 10mg/day, I think--gave me akathesia, made me yawn all the time, worsened my symptoms at first, made me forget where I was and think I was in the middle of the ocean trying to swim but getting tired; no side effects going off it
Prozac (fluoxetine hydochloride), SSRI antidepressant-- 20mg/day, then 40mg/day, then 20, then 30-- no known side effects on it or going off it
Zyprexa (olanzapine), antipsychotic-- 10/day, then 5, then 15-- made me eat all day long and gain 16 pounds in 2 or 3 weeks, made me sleep 14-16 hours a day; no side effects going off it
Geodon (ziprasidone hydrochloride), antipsychotic-- 120mg to 160 per day, I think-- stopped working, when they upped the dose it gave me akathesia; no side effects going off it
Abilify (aripiprazole), antipsychotic-- first 15/day, then 10/day, then 20-- gave me mild akathesia the first time I was on it; no withdrawal symptoms
Risperdal (rispiridone), antipsychotic-- 3mg/day, then 1, then 2, then 3, then 4, then 3, then 4/day, then 2 as needed-- made me too tired and unmotivated; no withdrawal symptoms
Ativan (lorazepam), anti-anxiety drug/sedative-- 1mg as needed (and I think once or twice or 3 times I was given 5, and once I was given 2)-- made me sleepy sometimes; wasn't on it regularly so no withdrawal symptoms
Loxapine succinate, typical antipsychotic-- 10mg, then 15-- no known side effects except putting me to sleep for half an hour longer or at least into a deeper sleep at night; still on it


I've been diagnosed with:

Asperger's Syndrome (1 time)
Bipolar I Disorder (5 times)
Social Anxiety Disorder (2 times)
Depression with psychotic features (1)
Borderline Personality Disorder as an Axis II diagnosis (1)
Schizoaffective Disorder (1)


Hospitalizations:

Harris County Psychiatric Center, April 9-11th or 12th, 2008
NeuroPsychiatric Center (Crisis Stabilization Unit), part of Ben Taub General Hospital, 5 days in May or June 2008
Harris County Psychiatric Center, August 5-12, 2008
Burnaby Hospital psych ward, 7 1/2 days from the end of February to the beginning of March, 2009


Crazy stuff I did (or rather, people said it was crazy enough to tell a shrink about, but it wasn't that crazy):

I grabbed the steering wheel of the truck my boyfriend was driving and almost steered it off a cliff, I did minor damages to a hotel room (picked up the toilet and laid it on its side but then out it back, poured a glass of piss into the radiator), tried to get a friend to drink a bottle of urine (I said it was apple juice), went door to door with a fake pledge sheet for a fake charity collecting money, went door to door with a real pledge sheet for a real charity collecting money and keeping it, tied my hair in knots and put paper clips and bobby pins and elastic bands in it, got mad at people for things they hadn't done yet, got stuck in black holes in my head and became unresponsive until I got out of them and hallucinated black holes occasionally, thought people would sense a weakness in me as I walked down the street and hurt me (or rather extremist-like, thinking they would see I had a mental deficiency and shoot me), went on $400 spending sprees, and other things I forget.


Mental health doctors I've had:

Dr. Larson, general practitioner, Montreal Children's Hospital adolescent clinic, said I had AS but it wasn't an official diagnosis
Dr. Eric Frombonne, Montreal Children's Hospital mental health building, diagnosed me with Asperger's Syndrome
Dr. Scott Duncan, psychologist, University of Alberta Hospital
Dr. Douglas Roy Ginter, psychiatrist, University of Alberta Hospital, prescribed me Celexa
(Unknown name), psychiatrist, NeuroPsychiatric Center, diagnosed me with Bipolar I Disorder
Dr. Victor Cardenas, psychiatrist, Harris County Psychiatric Center, diagnosed me with Bipolar I Disorder, prescribed me Prozac and Haldol
Dr. Desjardins, psychiatrist, Mental Health/Mental Retardation Authority mobile crisis outreach team, diagnosed me with Bipolar I Disorder, prescribed me Zyprexa
(Name unknown), NeuroPsychiatric Center Crisis Stabilization Unit, diagnosed me with depression with psychotic features and Bipolar I Disorder and Social Anxiety Disorder, prescribed me Geodon and Prozac
Dr. Scardino, psychiatrist, Mental Health/Mental Retardation Authority Ripley Clinic, prescribed me Zyprexa, Prozac, Geodon
Dr. Roberto Flores, psychiatrist, Mental Health/Mental Retardation Authority Ripley Clinic, prescribed me Geodon, Abilify, Prozac, Celexa, Risperdal
(Unknown name), psychiatrist, NeuroPsychiatric Center, prescribed me Risperdal
Dr. Svetlana Malkina, psychiatrist, Harris County Psychiatric Center, diagnosed me with Bipolar I Disorder and Social Anxiety Disorder and Borderline Personality Disorder as an Axis II diagnosis, prescribed me Haldol and Celexa
(Unknown name), psychiatrist, Burnaby Hospital
Dr. Szening Yuen, psychiatrist, Burnaby Hospital psych ward
Dr. John Ronsley, psychiatrist, Burnaby Hospital, prescribed me loxapine
Dr. Bond, psychologist, Burnaby Hospital

I revised my advance directive again:



My advance directive for family, friends and medical staff:

My advance directive is such a big part of me that when I need it and you're not thinking about it, even if you're thinking about me and your thoughts are consumed by me, you aren't thinking about me but about a small part of me or about someone you think I am.


1. Regardless of my condition, please assume that I have full cognitive function and am aware of what is going on around me, and treat me accordingly. Do not treat me like an animal, a machine, a child, a ret*d or, most of all, an inanimate object. Talk to me (and talk like I am an intelligent human being) even if I can't talk back to you or don't appear to be paying attention. Because I might be more conscious and aware than you think.


2. Regardless of the condition I am in when you tell me and regardless of how bad the news is, I want you (the medical staff) to tell me the whole truth and nothing but the truth about my condition, IMMEDIATELY, as well as what happened to me if I don't already know. I want to be treated like I can handle bad news. The only thing that traumatizes me is people treating me like I can't handle trauma. Also, I also need to know because if you don't tell me what happened to me, I might think something worse happened to me. Also, often I will be in pain and thus know how bad it is, so you aren't hiding anything from me, and I have the right to know why I'm in so much pain.


3. Regardless of my condition, the medical staff must IMMEDIATELY tell me EVERYTHING about EVERY treatment option I have, and if it is an emergency and they are already treating me, they must IMMEDIATELY tell me what they are doing to me and why.


4. If I can't get up, or can't move at all, and especially if I can't talk either, please stimulate me by talking to me, touching me, reading to me, turning on the TV for me, taking me places, etc. And if you run out of positive things to do with/say to me, tell me about negative things, rather than nothing at all. I would much rather hear bad news than be ignored, or have you sit there looking at me but saying and doing nothing, which is as good as ignoring me. I would rather watch bad news about what happened to me on TV than lie there staring at the walls.


5. Please do all the tests to ensure that I am dead if you think that I am. Wait till I'm brain dead before pronouncing me dead, and do all you can to prevent me from becoming brain dead.


6. I can speak for myself unless I'm unconscious. Don't ask other people questions about me before asking me.


7. Do not give me any amnesia drugs unless I ask for them. I want to remember my experience, be it good or bad.


8. If I am suffering or having some sort of attack, don't just sit and watch me suffer. Talk to me, touch me, comfort me. You are not helpless; you can do that.

9. If I need to follow directions like "Take this medicine" or "Take off your clothes" or "Turn over onto your side" or "You're not allowed to eat", I need an explanation as to why. I'm not ret*d, therefore "to please the other person" or "because it's the rules" is not a good enough reason.

10. If I'm capable of communicating "yes" or "no" by blinking or moving my head, I am capable of making my own decisions and don't need someone else to make my decisions for me.

11. If I can't do anything but blink or nod or shake my head, ask me regularly if I'm in pain. If I can't even do that, assume I'm in pain and give me painkillers.

(Edited.)
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The only thing that traumatizes me is people treating me like I can't handle trauma.
I don't worry about or feel sorry for people I like, because I have confidence in them.
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PostPosted: Sun Mar 29, 2009 1:28 am Post subject: Reply with quote
I have just chosen my dress for the school prom. I am bubbling with exitement! even though it isn't until june 19 it will go quickly!! !!
I am definnitly going to make an impression with my choice of dress, I want to be remembered for something good.
What do you think? I love it

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MADDuck
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PostPosted: Sun Mar 29, 2009 2:12 am Post subject: Reply with quote
That dress is sooooooooo cute!! !! !! !
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Ana54
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Joined: Dec 27, 2005
Age: 21
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Location: Canada and the US

PostPosted: Fri Apr 03, 2009 2:01 am Post subject: Reply with quote Edit/Delete this post
Stan says he didn't not let me take charge of myself after the fluorescent lights were smashed; he said he never prevented me from doing what I wanted to do.


Also, he says his mother never meant the bad thing she had said about him that time.

Also, I edited my advance directive again:

My advance directive for family, friends and medical staff:

My advance directive is such a big part of me that when I need it and you're not thinking about it, even if you're thinking about me and your thoughts are consumed by me, you aren't thinking about me but about a small part of me or about someone you think I am.



1. Regardless of my condition, please assume that I have full cognitive function and am aware of what is going on around me, and treat me accordingly, just in case I am conscious and aware of what is going on around me and have my full cognitive function. Do not treat me like an animal, a machine, a child, a ret*d or, most of all, an inanimate object. Talk to me (and talk like I am an intelligent human being) even if I can't talk back to you or don't appear to be paying attention. Because I might be more conscious and aware than you think.



2. Regardless of the condition I am in when you tell me and regardless of how bad the news is, I want you (the medical staff) to tell me the whole truth and nothing but the truth about my condition, IMMEDIATELY, unless it's obvious, as well as what happened to me if I don't already know. I want to be treated like I can handle bad news. The only thing that traumatizes me is people treating me like I can't handle trauma. Also, I also need to know because if you don't tell me what happened to me, I might think something worse happened to me. Also, often I will be in pain and thus know how bad it is, so you aren't hiding anything from me, and I have the right to know why I'm in so much pain.



3. Regardless of my condition, the medical staff must IMMEDIATELY tell me EVERYTHING about EVERY treatment option I have, and if it is an emergency and they are already treating me, they must IMMEDIATELY tell me what they are doing to me and why.



4. If I can't get up, or can't move at all, and especially if I can't talk either, please stimulate me by talking to me, touching me, reading to me, turning on the TV for me, taking me places, etc. And if you run out of positive things to do with/say to me, tell me about negative things, rather than nothing at all. I would much rather hear bad news than be ignored, or have you sit there looking at me but saying and doing nothing, which is as good as ignoring me. I would rather watch bad news about what happened to me on TV than lie there staring at the walls.



5. Please do all the tests to ensure that I am dead if you think that I am. That means do all the tests besides just noxious-stimuli tests to make sure I really am brain dead, and only declare me dead if I am brain dead. And do all you can to prevent me from becoming brain dead.



6. I can speak for myself unless I'm unconscious. Don't ask other people questions about me before asking me.



7. Do not give me any amnesia drugs unless I ask for them. I want to remember my experience, be it good or bad.



8. If I am suffering or having some sort of attack, don't just sit and watch me suffer. Talk to me, touch me, comfort me. You are not helpless; you can do that.



9. If I need to follow directions like "Take this medicine" or "Take off your clothes" or "Turn over onto your side", or "You aren't allowed to eat", I need an explanation as to why unless it's obvious. I'm not ret*d, therefore "to please the other person" or "because it's the rules" is not a good enough reason.

10. If I'm capable of communicating "yes" or "no" by blinking or moving my head, I am capable of making my own decisions and don't need someone else to make my decisions for me.

11. If I can't do anything but blink or nod or shake my head, ask me regularly if I'm in pain. If I can't even do that, assume I'm in pain and give me painkillers

.....

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

You sound happy Manders!

Good luck.

^^ Why thank you!

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