scale of -10 to +10, how do you feel right now?

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+1 not too bad...

Existence is s**t. I will never, ever be happy for a substained period of time. I'm not smart in any way, I'm not a socialite. I'm not comfortable in my own skin. I'm not okay with waking up every morning, alone, realizing that I'll be that way for the rest of the day.

If I had a gun I would off myself now; I'm afraid of death, but I might as well face up to the only thing of significance in my life.

-3, people, i despise 99.99 percent of people

-10.

Fell out of honors eligibility, thus crushing any hope of having something physical to prove that I have any worth.

My father's attempt to break the family's abusive cycle failed. Apparently I failed, too. My 8 year old brother hates me.
Damn it, dad, it's your fault. Or your father's. Or... damn it...

I want friends but I can't take the pressure of creating a friendship. I don't feel love, love doesn't exist. It never has, it's just an illusion. Others tell me they do care, but that goes against my perception of reality... it's uncomfortable. I can't take it.

Why do I even post here anymore? I'm not as much of an "Aspie" as I used to think I was. I'm just a mental disaster more than anything else. It's just one of many labels I've tried to use, to find some group I can fit in. By now I've given up on that, I never will be able to fit in anywhere anyways.

Why do I not just end it all? I'd fail at that, causing even more regret.

neutral : |

+5

meatloaf.

Like a useless failure I wish someone would kill me.

plus 2.
pumped after a good run.

0, grouchy

+5

A bit unstable, but it's something; only when you hit your lowest point can you get any higher. Flirting around with psychology and philosophy, existentialism and all that.

-5

My mother's church is full of proud idiots!

-4

-3. The fact that my sister is in the very early stages of potty training my niece reminds me of my own shortcomings. The slightly later potty training, accidents and compete loss of my bowels that slowly started in 2005. I'm going to rotate between 4 avatars that will boost my morality about all of this and I won't feel so shameful.

-2 not too bad just, trying to rest myself up from yesterday's long excursion of walking as well a sunburn in the face..

5. I shouldn't be too hung up on the whole potty training thing and I will celebrate that my niece is growing up. I shouldn't be so hung up about stuff like that. Mick Avory has worn similar undergarments to mine, for similar problems off and on since the Mid-60s. My childhood memories are just soooooo painful in that area.