Jonsi wrote:
-7. Quite angry. I honestly don't know what the hell I was thinking when I accepted a former friend's invite to go out somewhere to 'rekindle our friendship'. What she actually wanted was to make sexual advances on me. Because I denied her every time and informed her that I wasn't interested in that kind of thing with anyone, I'm not a real man and never will be. According to her.
God, what a b***h. Hate people like that. If they don't get what they want from someone, they make it their life's mission to ruin your day.
/Angry rant
"According to her." Anyone who's this screwed up and desperate for attention isn't someone whose words should carry much weight with you. Yeah, I know it hurts. She clearly wanted to hurt you in retaliation for your rejecting her. But realize she was just saying it to hurt you--not because there's any truth to it.
Besides how could someone who needs manipulate and lie just to get attention (and sex) know what it means to be a "real" anything?
Acknowledge your feelings are hurt and that you're angry. Then let it go. Punch a pillow or scream out loud to get your anger out if you need to. But don't hang on to it. Don't let her have that power over you. Anyone who has principles that they stick to like you did deserves to be treated better than this.
Anyhow, I'm around +2. I have a new "obsession"--Indonesian language and music. It's all so fascinating and stimulating. I want to learn as much as I can as fast as I can. It's helping me cope with the fact I can't get work and I'm beyond broke.